
Dear Readers,
Today is a very long and tiring day. Very sad day for me too. P.E was tough today, guess its in preparations for next week NAFA test. Its already the 8 week in school. Time pases so fast, life in MI is great unlike secondary school life. Studying of my favourites subjects, extremely caring teachers, extra long breaks which we usually dread and most of all Great and Caring friends. But, for me, one thing still is lost when I am in MI. That is true happiness, my willingness to just smile and laugh all the time. My cheerfulness. I guess, cause its tiring. I have everything single thing I could wish for in MI, yet, I cant be as happy as I was in secondary school. I just feel that I lost myself. Haha. But, I will be in search of that once me again, so it wont be long! X)
My knee cap have been increasingly painful. My bones will often hurt, and its painful to bend my knee and also when I am dancing. Mummy says that I might have a torn knee ligament, and I should refrain from strenous exercise, and yet, tomorrow I will be doing my Hip Hop dancing. Missed 2 lessons have to catch up, otherwise, I will missed all the steps. I really dont want to have a torn knee ligament. It takes very long to heal and that means no dancing for me! Nafa test is also just round the corner, I dont want to missed it, after all the PE training I have gone through. But all these thinking will just have to wait till I have gone for my checkup.
I am feeling so Emo today. HAHA! Darwina cheered me up by saying I look different today cause I was wearing a earring. OK LA! so I look younger when I wear earring? HAHA!
That Nazirul says that I look like 18 years old!!! SADDENNING remark. AM I THAT OLD! ARGHHH!
Basically, i finally understand why I can no longer listen to my heart, cause it has frozen. Guess, this adds up to my non-cheerfulness. Was in a very stuckked up position today, but I have already gotten over it. Caused I promised myself, no matter what happens, I have to learn how to be strong. Whats more, guess, he isnt worth my selfless love. Could just give it to someone who deserve it, but in the end I wont be happy? Well, I will be happy of course, who isnt happy when they are in love. But, I will feel pity. HAHA! I have learnt not to play the waiting game and I am too afraid to fight for what I want already. I have dropped to many tears in love, guess I just want to be happy thats all. Haha. The only reason why I dont want to like singaporeans guy is because, I always hurt them in the end. They will spoil me and I will take things for granted. One thing I will always believe is beauty is only skin deep, cause true beauty lies in the inside of one self. Hehe.
I will always remember this: "As long as the person you love find happiness, you too will also be happy, even if you cant be with him!" HAHA! Chimilogy? NAH! Thats Grace's type of love! HAHA!
NO MORE EMOing FOR ME! Bleahs! =P
(p.s But well I have always been an emotional person, so dont blame me for emoing all over again! Haha!)