There wasn't anymore reason.
Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very dark, but there were stars — points of light and reason.
And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.
Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty.
When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black.
Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.
I couldn't see the stars anymore.
And there was no more reason for anything.
- Edward Cullen to Bella.
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Saturday, February 28, 2009, 11:31:00 AM
I am in love with Faber Drive so very much! This is the only rock band I have ever love ALL their songs. Go hear " You'll Make It", its truly inspirational and reflective of this world. I am going to drop by HMV and get their album later. :)) Back to my life. My grandmother just called to ask about me. :D I'm so touched. Newton Active Run is just tomorrow. Oh my, I am not ready! I don't even have a targeted finishing time. What if I do worse than my Standard Chartered timing? Common test is finally over and I am dying of boredom at home. Since I am so bored, I had plenty of time to think. I've realised plenty of things, but accepting it is another matter. Before I continue here's a *Warning: I'm going to be very honest with my heart here. It's not for the faint hearted. Ok la, not so extreme. Hahas.I have always been very stubborn in accepting facts. That is because I always believe in a saying "If I'll never try, I will never know. And if I were to ever give up trying, I will still never know." However, I am doubting my own belief now. Should I give myself a chance to be loved? While the real questions here are "Can I love? Have I really let go?""Have I really let go?"- Honestly, I don't know. I have. I would have always listened to my heart, but I have realised that sometimes love is beyond our control. It does not only takes plenty of hard work, but also plenty of fate, destiny and luck. Unfortunately, fate, destiny and luck just didn't come my way this time. This question has become too draggy, I'll deal with it soon. "Can I love?"- No, I can't. Not now, nor anytime soon. Until I have given the latter (learnt from darwy:D) a yes answer, my answer for this question is a defo No. Love is a feeling. And if I don't have it, then I am sorry. Fate, destiny and luck just didn't come your way, just like it did not come to mine. I am contented with my life. I don't need anything more than what I have right now. I am not ready to love again. I am tired of heart breaks and disappointments. I am going to be two years single soon. I have very much gotten use to it already. Probably, if my prince charming loses his way and never turn up, I wouldn't mind living my life alone. Oh wells, I always have man's bestfriend to accompany me. Now you know why Audrey and Tiger are the loveliest things that happened in my life. " A dog doesn't care if you're rich or poor, give them you heart and they will give you theirs." :))
Very random, but so very true.
Thursday, February 26, 2009, 8:09:00 PM
Dear lord, Please don't ever leave me alone. I have no one else but you. Only you will acknowledge my presence. Only you will never take me for granted. The world is filled with lies and deceptions, I don't know who and what to trust anymore. Please show me the way. Amen.
If things don't go your way, just always remember: You are everything to somebody. Right now at this very minute...
Someone is very proud of you. Someone is thinking of you. Someone cares about you. Someone misses you. Someone wants to talk to you. Someone wants to be with you. Someone hopes you aren't in trouble. Someone is thankful for the support you have provided. Someone wants to hold your hand. Someone hopes everything turns out alright. Someone wants you to be happy. Someone wants to give you a gift. Someone thinks you ARE a gift. Someone is celebrating you success. Someone loves you. Someone wants to hug you. Someone admires your strength. Someone is thinking of you and smiling. Someone wants to be your shoulder to cry on. Someone thinks the world of you. Someone wants to go out with you and have fun. Someone would do anything for you. Someone wants to protect you. Someone wants to laugh with you about old times. Someone remembers you and wishes you were there. Someone values your advice. Someone wants to tell you how much they care. Someone wants to share their dreams with you. Someone wants to hold you in their arms. Someone wants you to hold them in your arms. Someone treasures your spirit. Someone can't wait to see you. Someone loves you for who you are. Someone loves the way you make them feel. Someone wants you to know they are there for you. Someone hears a song that reminds them of you. Someone is glad that you're their friend. Someone stayed up all night thinking about you. Someone is wishing that you would notice them. Someone wants to get to know you better. Someone wants to be near you. Someone misses your guidance and advice. Someone values your guidance and advice. Someone has faith in you. Someone trusts you. Someone needs you to have faith in them. & Someone will cry when they read this.
Monday, February 23, 2009, 10:29:00 PM
Common test has arrived. I am prepared only to pass; not to do well. I'll just temporary forget my new year resolutions right now. Hopefully by Mid year examinations, I'll remember my want for 3 As. Looking on the bright side- maybe doing badly this common test could push me to work harder.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009, 10:07:00 PM
The night sky is filled with plenty of pretty stars tonight. Did a run around my house again. Nothing much of an accomplishment, instead it was a big disappointment. Possibly my "need" for a run today was not as much for yesterday. Now I have two aching knees. The right was because of the run, while the left was because of my dogs. Audrey and Tiger were running lose towards the road and fighting with each other. While I being closest to them, had to run and catch hold of their collars. In between all the running and catching, we three got somewhat tangled up and I fell. They were still fighting with the "fallen" me in between them. It ended with Tiger jumping onto me while I still was on the ground. Somehow, with the falling and all the jumping, I've got my aching left knee. I can't really blame all the fault of my knees on the run and the dogs. It is also partly mine. I've always got weak knee joints. Probably that's why my falling rate is very high. Also, I've have been neglecting my mummy's advice on consuming soya and beans products. I love them too much to resist it. I should seriously start loving milk, otherwise like my mummy says "You're gonna suffer in the future." :D
Tuesday, February 17, 2009, 9:18:00 PM
I keep having this analogy in my head- " When I go to school tomorrow, I might not be able to find MI anymore." It has been snowing ashes around school today. The forest fire near our school will sooner or later extinguish me. Am so happy that I live in the East; at least the air is fresher. I went running today and it was fantastic. I see a big improvement from my previous run around my home. My target today was to complete the run without stopping or walking; and I did it. The biggest satisfaction I can get from myself is to accomplish my targets. Oh wells, I still need plenty of training. The Newton Active Running Marathon is just only next Sunday!!! I want to go practise my economics essay already. Ciao.
Sunday, February 15, 2009, 9:44:00 PM
"Sometimes loving someone would means letting go." That's the phrase that sums up the film "away from her" is about. It's showing on Okto now, I think you should watch it. It should be good. If you're watching it, tell me more. I've got too much homework to complete. I did not go to church today. I was all prepared and waiting for the bus when Carolyn told me she just woke up. So we decided not to go. Now, I can't blog on relationships until I watch the webcast for today's service. In the afternoon, I went with my family to the Singapore Kennel Club dog show at expo. We brought Audrey and Tiger along with us too. There were so many other dogs too, but none as cute as Audrey and Tiger. Hahas. Lately, I've been eating so much. This must be one of the side effect of stress and fustration. I better start being happy and stop stuffing myself with food; otherwise you won't recognise me anymore. Now, I shall leave you with a story to read. The Red Marbles Author Unknown.
I was at the corner grocery store buying some early potatoes. I noticed a small boy, delicate of bone and feature, ragged but clean, hungrily apprising a basket of freshly picked green peas. I paid for my potatoes but was also drawn to the display of fresh green peas. I am a pushover for creamed peas and new potatoes. Pondering the peas, I couldn’t help overhearing the conversation between Mr. Miller (the store owner) and the ragged boy next to me. “Hello Barry, how are you today?” “H’lo, Mr. Miller. Fine, thank ya. Jus’ admirin’ them peas. They sure look good.” “They are good, Barry. How’s your Ma?” “Fine. Gittin’ stronger alla’ time.” “Good. Anything I can help you with?” “No, Sir. Jus’ admirin’ them peas.” “Would you like take some home?” asked Mr. Miller. “No, Sir. Got nuthin’ to pay for ‘em with.” “Well, what have you to trade me for some of those peas?” “All I got’s my prize marble here.” “Is that right? Let me see it” said Miller. “Here ’tis. She’s a dandy.” “I can see that. Hmmmmm, only thing is this one is blue and I sort of go for red. Do you have a red one like this at home?” the store owner asked. “Not zackley but almost.” “Tell you what. Take this sack of peas home with you and next trip this way let me look at that red marble”. Mr. Miller told the boy. “Sure will. Thanks Mr. Miller.” Mrs. Miller, who had been standing nearby, came over to help me. With a smile ssaid, “There are two other boys like him in our community, all three are in very poor circumstances. Jim just loves to bargain with them for peas, apples, tomatoes, or whatever. When they come back with their red marbles, and they always do, he decides he doesn’t like red after all and he sends them home with a bag of produce for a green marble or an orange one, when they come on their next trip to the store.” I left the store smiling to myself, impressed with this man. A short time later I moved to Colorado, but I never forgot the story of this man, the boys, and their bartering for marbles. Several years went by, each more rapid than the previous one. Just recently I had occasion to visit some old friends in that Idaho community and while I was there learned that Mr. Miller had died. They were having his visitation that evening and knowing my friends wanted to go, I agreed to accompany them. Upon arrival at the mortuary we fell into line to meet the relatives of the deceased and to offer whatever words of comfort we could. Ahead of us in line were three young men. One was in an army uniform and the other two wore nice haircuts, dark suits and white shirts…all very professional looking. They approached Mrs. Miller, standing composed and smiling by her husband’s casket. Each of the young men hugged her, kissed her on the cheek, spoke briefly with her and moved on to the casket. Her misty light blue eyes followed them as, one by one, each young man stopped briefly and placed his own warm hand over the cold pale hand in the casket. Each left the mortuary awkwardly, wiping his eyes. Our turn came to meet Mrs. Miller. I told her who I was and reminded her of the story from those many years ago and what she had told me about her husband’s bartering for marbles. With her eyes glistening, she took my hand and led me to the casket. “Those three young men who just left were the boys I told you about. They just told me how they appreciated the things Jim “traded” them. Now, at last, when Jim could not change his mind about color or size. They came to pay their debt.” “We’ve never had a great deal of the wealth of this world,” she confided, “but right now, Jim would consider himself the richest man in Idaho .” With loving gentleness she lifted the lifeless fingers of her deceased husband. Resting underneath were three exquisitely shined red marbles.
Saturday, February 14, 2009, 10:22:00 PM
To whoever celebrates it, happy valentines day! (:
I spent my first hour of Valentines watching "The curious case of Benjamin Buttons". Now I know why it had such good reviews and had been nominated for several awards. As much as I dislike Brad Pitt a whole lot, but I got to say the movie is AWESOME! The plot is amazing. It was one of the longest movie I had ever watched. It almost reached 3 hours, but 3 hours for the biography of a man is never too long. I was crying most throughout the movie. It was very moving, heartwarming, sad and very pitiful. There were several funny parts to the movie too. Like how the phrase "Did I tell you I was struck by lightning seven times" were repeated throughout by different men. Then they would show the scene of how the lightning strike them. Hahas. Anyways, you have to watch this movie to really understand what I've been babbling about. I could watch this movie again. By the time the movie ended it was already 2am. Not long after, I quarrelled with my sister and we went our separate ways home. I tell you, a girl walking alone on the streets in the wee hours of the morning is a very scary experience. I never felt so frighten of being alone before. My eyes were close to tears. I had to keep reassuring that everything is fine. In my heart I kept praying. I was lost, at that time really wished I had someone there next to me. Really wished I had someone to call for help. The only person that came into my head throughout the whole time, was impossible. My life sucks right. When I needed someone most to be there for me, I could not find any. But seriously thank god, I reached home safely not long after. Promised myself that I will never be out late alone anymore. I spent my late morning playing with Audrey and Tiger. Audrey is so much livelier already, she can even go and pick fights with the bigger and stronger Tiger now. It was fun playing catching with Audrey. That is only if I had treats in my hands. Hahas! In the afternoon went to Parkway with my mummy and sisters. I was suppose to cut my hair. After thinking for a whole 2 hours there and in the shop, I changed my mind. I can't bear the thought of regret. While the rest were in Jean Yip beautifying themselves, I left for The Esplanade alone. I finally satisfied my craving for root bear with caramel ice cream. Yum yum. You should go and try it one day too, I promise you'll love it. I did a little revision on geography before going back home. The Valentines spirit in Singapore must be very good. I saw plenty of couples on the street, plenty of flowers and plenty of balloons. The male species has finally learn to romanticise. Hahas! The weirdest thing I saw today was a young man carrying a bouquet of roses in the red market plastic bag! The most outstanding was a malay man carrying a big bunch of balloons to somewhere. I'm envious of his girlfriend. =X
I already know what to add in my 2010 resolution list- I don't want to spend valentines day alone again! (:
I'm going to sleep now. I've got church service in the morning and I might be testing out "what it's like to cycle 40km" tomorrow afternoon. So goodnights and happy valentines day once again especially to all the singles in the world. :D
Friday, February 13, 2009, 6:40:00 PM
Dear Lord, what is friendship? How do you define friendship?
Thursday, February 12, 2009, 8:40:00 PM
"Yshf nx N cea'f shkz fsz telghdz, fsz teaxnczatz fe xndsf xeg fsz iekz N yhaf je whaf? N cea'f maey sey fe xndsf xeg nf. N'kz hiyhqj deffza yshf N yhafzc. N'w hxghnc fe jsey qel wq xzzinadj. IEEM! N tha'f zkza ygnfz fsnj elf na yegcj. N'w aef yegfs qelg iekz. N jselic'af rz ieknad qel, rlf N tha'f szib nf. N gzhiiq iekz qel je wlts. Xgew fsz reffew ex wq szhgf, N'w ynjsnad je rhciq fshf N telic fzii fszjz yegcj fe qel."I'm sorry people, but it is almost impossible to break this set of specially designed codes. This paragraph is different from all the rest of the coded message I've posted earlier. This expresses my innermost feelings and it's only for me to know. Just wait for the one day when I could finally write that paragraph out in words. I wore a super big blouse to school today. All because the muddle-headed me, bought the wrong size. Luckily, Hafizah and I would be exchanging our blouses. Thanks Fiza! My 2.4km timing is better than what I had expected. But the run was torturous, I went beyond my limits and it was very painful. There was this one girl who was in pain after the run and somehow I ended up helping her. The most embarrassing part, the whole time I was helping her, I thought she was someone else. I kept calling her that person name throughout. That was until her boyfriend was so surprised why I kept calling her another name. It was only then I realised I've been calling her the wrong name! At that time, really wished I could hide my face somewhere. Hahas! I'm really muddle headed. This must be one of the side effect of 2.4km. Lessons were interesting today. I made new friends in my Economics Class. There was this Korean girl who is so talented in folding origami's. She taught me how to fold a crane that can fly! We also did origami for stars and roses. But, I still do not know how to fold it. Valentines Day is in two days time. To all the people in love, giving time to the person you love so much is the most precious gift you could give to each other. Let it be the day where you treasure each other more and to cherish his/her presence in your life. Well, this is what I have always percieve of Valentines Day. As for me, I have yet to celebrate valentines day with someone I love. I am still spending this day like any other days. (:
Wednesday, February 11, 2009, 8:55:00 PM
"H BZMS HLZFHMD Z CZX VHSGNTS XNT HM LX KHED." Since a number of free people already figured out my previous codes, I had came up with a new set to entertain you. Hahas! That sentence is totally random; I think. I have finally gotten a new high score for Geo challenge! It took me quite some time to achieve that. School has been relatively the same. Exams is around a week and a half time and I am unprepared. I've still got my huge pile of homework to complete. I am down with a terrible flu. Just visited the doctor yesterday. The medicine don't seem to be working at all, it has gotten worse today. Hopefully the flu would go away after a good sleep tonight. I've still got a 2.4km run tomorrow to complete and it isn't worth not completing my Napha just because of a cold. What to do, I always fall sick at the wrong time. I need to complete my long delayed economics essays already. Will leave you guys with a story to read. (: Memo from God Author unknown.
To: YOU Date: TODAY From: THE BOSS Subject: YOURSELF Reference: LIFE I am God.
Today I will be handling all of your problems. Please remember that I do not need your help.
If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it. Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. All situations will be resolved… but in My time, not yours.
Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it by worrying about it. Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now
If you find yourself stuck in traffic; Don’t despair. There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.
Should you have a bad day at work; Think of the man who has been out of work for years.
Should you despair over a relationship gone bad; Think of the person who has never known what it’s like to love and be loved in return.
Should you grieve the passing of another weekend; Think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.
Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance; Think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.
Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror; Think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.
Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn’t live long enough to get the opportunity.
Should you find yourself the victim of other people’s bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; Remember, things could be worse. You could be one of them!
Monday, February 9, 2009, 9:31:00 PM
" Nothing compares in this world to the love God has given us. For we may find reasons why we love, but God loves us even without reasons." I'm just going to do a very quick update. Let's start from Saturday. I registered for the Newton Active Run already. Went to Esplanade with my sister to study. However, I ended up just highlighting my GP comprehension passage. Met up with Carolyn and Navin later that night and caught the movie- Bride Wars. The movie was disappointing, it just has that typical story line. Anyways, Carolyn and Navin gave me a belated birthday surprise. I've got a birthday present, my first birthday cake this year and also a card from them. So sweet of fairy godmother and fairy godfather to remember Cinderella's birthday. (: *Pictures would be posted another day.
Woke up early on Sunday and attended Church. :D Pastor talked on relationships that day. It was very interesting in hearing the pastor talked on the analogy that everyone has a "love bank". With everyone we interacted with, they create an account with us. Depending on how the person treat us, there will be injections and withdrawals of love credits from our "love bank". Pastor also talked on the top five things Men and Women needs in a relationship. But we only touched on the first point, the rest would be continued this Sunday. So, I will blog more on this after this Sunday service. (: Had Napha test today. Surprisingly, everything went well. I just want to get it over a done with. I finally signed up for my long delayed Tennis Course. I supposedly wanted a Tuesday lesson, but before I could even finish my sentence, the reception guy told me there wasn't any more slots. When I heard that, I was so disappointed. There is still more than a month before lessons commence and its already full! Thankfully, they just opened a new class. It will start on an earlier date and will be on Friday nights. This is a blessing in disguise. I don't know whats up with me signing up so many things. However, I'm already nineteen. If I don't try now, how long more do I want to wait before I try new things. There is never a right time for things to happen, unless you create it. It is not as though I'm dying tomorrow. But life is short, I want to live it to the fullest and with no regrets. (:
Saturday, February 7, 2009, 12:55:00 PM
I am so glad orientation is finally over. Orientation had been filled with much fun and enjoyment, mystery game was awesome. Despite this, it is seriously time to start catching up on my studies already. I have got tons of homework to complete. The reason above all- common test is only two weeks away! So grace is back to pure studying. I am going to start this at my secret studying hide out today. Hahas. By the way, I withdrew from the National Weather Study Project yesterday. To participate in the NWSP has always been one of my dream in MI. However, to participate it in the expense of A levels, I guess it isn't worth it. After all I am also contemplating on joining back debates and trying out for tennis team. Will see how it goes. I recieved another birthday present on Wednesday from Qiao ying, Sabby and the 5th Sc's, it s a beautiful handmade photo album. Thanks guys! That same evening, met up with Darwina at Vivo and watched "Slumdog Millionaire". Like the book, it is a good movie. Thanks Darwy for the movie! Lately, I have become more hot-tempered and intolerant of nonsense. Maybe because of the lack of sleep, I have become moody? Or also because, I cannot stand people arguing with me just for argument sake. It is totally senseless. Well, that's a good thing in a way. At least people stops bullying me. I have also become more firm and less fickle minded, still there's room for improvement for this. I still need to work on my hot temperedness, it's bad for my health.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009, 9:49:00 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! I'm NINETEEN; still young okays. Hahas. Want to know the saddest thing about my birthday? I am so correct; up till now none of my parents or three sisters even remembered my birthday. Hais, very sad. :( Despite this, thanks to all of you who made my special day. Thanks for all the birthday wishes and presents. I love it and I appreciate the thought very much. I enjoyed today! Today is also my Thank You day. Think I have said thank you's for a hundred time in different ways already. Oh wells, I can become Miss Thank You already. I also very expert in writing thank you speeches already. :D These are my beloved presents from classmates, Fathi-land and Lincoln. Thanks again guys! I also had a birthday muffin from Herry. And guess what! Atikah and Sabrina took the cream from the muffin and smeared it on my face. Thanks Uh! Got pimple I come find you. I've got pictures, but I look so retarded so don't want to embarress myself by posting it up. Hahas. Had plenty of fun at orientation today. By the end of this week, my voice sure become very sexy one. :D Debriefing was super long today. Had dinner with a few SC's and went back home hoping someone would remember my birthday. But you guys know the ending already. I slide and fell down at my toilet just now. But now I very smart already, learn how to fall on my knees. Otherwise I will end up with a dislocated elbow again. I saw some white sheet of paper on my floor just now. Thought it was some rubbish and it turned out to be an envelope with my certificate of participation for Standard Chartered Marathon! Hahas. Thank god I checked, otherwise my precious would be sleeping in my bin.
This birthday was suppose to be my first time being up the Singapore Flyer. I have been waiting for this since last year. But the unexpected has happened. Nevermind, I still have my next birthday for my first ride up there and also many more birthdays to come. I'm one year older, but forever young at heart! Cheh! :D
I need to sign off and start sending my birthday wish to God already. Goodnights and thanks people! :) P.S One of my friends broke my secret code already! Hehes. For those still trying, Jia You! Especially Sabrina; it's your brilliant idea anyways. Good luck solving. :P Anyways, here's one more coded message: BLFI DRHSVH NVZMH GSV NLHG GL NV. :)
Monday, February 2, 2009, 8:29:00 PM
Today is my last day of being eighteen. Soon, I will have to end the 18th chapter and open up the 19th chapter of my life. I'm having mixed feelings on growing old. There will come a day when you just wish you were forever young. I have been thinking on my 19th birthday wish for the longest time. From young, I've always wished for my family and that they will always be by my side. For the first time last year, I made a wish for myself. Sadly, it didn't came true. Oh wells I still have a few hours left to hope for a miracle. :D As for my wish this year, you got to wait till next year to find out. Hahas. If I say out my wish, it wouldn't come true already. :) Orientation today was AWESOME! Athenians rawks man! =X However by the time I resumed clases today, my head was lying on the table and my head was drifting into lala land. There was this teacher who walked into the Art room and told me " Do Art also can fall asleep one arh?" The beginning of P.E was unbearable. I only had 3 hours of sleep last night and I could hardly keep my eyes open any longer. I kept telling my friends, if I halfway run and faint, it must be I have fallen asleep on the tracks. Thankfully, this scenario didn't happen. Otherwise I would be so embarrassed. I had wrote on my last two blog post on my search for answers. I have never told you guys the question yet. I have given much thought on whether the question to the answers I am searching for, should be posted. Then this morning in the train, Sabrina gave me a brilliant idea. That is to write my question in secret codes which only I could break. So here's my question:ZN R HFKKLHV GL ZXXVKG GSV UZXG GSZG BLF WLMG OLEV NX? LI GSX UZXG GSZG R HGROO OLEV BLF HL NFXS.
& these are the words my heart could not say. It's like the Da Vinci Code all over again. I have placed the codes in its simplest form already. If you manage to break it, good for you. If you don't, just hope that one day I would tell you the question. Have fun breaking the codes! :)
Sunday, February 1, 2009, 6:42:00 PM
"My life is your song, to you my heart belongs. Let all earthly crowns fade in the shadow of the cross. My life is your song, I'll sing for you alone. Nothing in this world, can take me away from you, our love goes on and on..."
Unexpectedly, I went to church today. It has been a year since I last went there! I have always enjoyed Pastor Kong preachings, but I was never ready to hold the responsibility of a christian. Even though I may have started to go back again, I'm still not ready. But this time I will try. The reason why I went back to church today was to seek for answers. Remember in my last post- No matter how hard I tried to find a way or wait for an answer, I'm still where I've left off. So, if waiting can't get me an answer, I was to seek for it. I didn't get my answers. But I've learned- Put all my trust in you, my god, the god who loves. For he will never forsake his children. Surprisingly, today's preachings was on "Don't be religious, but be open hearted." Pastor Kong also told us the relationship between God and Ancient China, how the Chinese weren't allowed to embrace God, how Christianity was banned from China during Emperor Kang Xi reign. It was because of our greatest enemies. It wasn't the devil, it wasn't because of other religions, but by our own religious people. They were so religious, that they couldn't accept the way of living Christianity differently. It was either their way or no way. It was very interesting going through past Chinese history records and its relations to the bible. It was like going through a history lesson on China and God. I learned how Christianity was brought into China by an Italian man. I can't remember his name though. This Italian man was very wise. He learned Chinese, their culture, the history and he was even one of the top scholars in China. He the first man who introduced China to the world map. That day was the first time China know where it was located in the world map. Anyways, in order to win the Chinese over to Christianity, he had to befriend them and be one of them. He didn't want to force Christianity down their throat, but instead encourage them to accept it willingly. Therefore, he would often dress in a Buddhist robe or even in a Confucius scholar attire. Then the pastor gave an analogy that if he were to dress in a Buddhist robe for the next service, people would definitely call him crazy, would we even want to come to church anymore? However, what Pastor Kong said next was very true. Christianity; the love for god, isn't what you wear, because it comes from within. Appearances can be deceiving, but the heart is not. Therefore we shouldn't be religious, but be open. Because Christianity isn't a religion, but a relationship with God. That's all for what I've learned in church today. You may agree or disagree with what I had just said. I just found it very interesting and would like to share it with you as well as to preserve this part of my memory into the post. I have become very forgetful lately and I'm unsure how long I could even remember this after today. Anyways, next week service is on relationships. The difference between Man and Woman. It is going to be so interesting and I'm definitely going for it. This may very well be god sent. Hahas :D Moving on to my life. After church service today, I went to my grandparents house for CNY visiting. Besides being able to eat my grandmother's yummy food, I also collected plenty of Ang Paos. I also recieved my third birthday present for this year. This time it's from my grandmother. However, I'm disappointed with myself. I promised my aunty that the next time I visit them, I would bring my bake muffins for my grandfather. And I did not! The worst thing is I dreamt last night that I was too late. I'm such an unfilial grand daughter. :( Audrey and me at my grandparents place.
My grandmother's delicious noodles. Let's now go back to yesterday. Met up with Miss Koh and the rest of my art classmates at Art Friend in the morning. It was shopping time for course work materials. My materials in all adds up to about $400. Thank god the school is paying. I had lunch at McDonald's with Diana and Sabrina. And I just found out from Diana that McDonald's is an Israeli product! I always thought it was a product from America. I bought two story books from Kino too. "If you could see me now" and "Slumdog Millionaire". I'm reading slumdog millionaire now and it is an awesome book. It is a definite must read! Anyways, after getting the books I drop by Tiong Bahru hoping to get a replacement ezlink card. Unfortunately or fortunately I didn't had a passport size picture with me. So, I went home empty handed. Guess what happen when I reach home. My housekeeper told me that she found my Ez link card on the floor. Was it coincidence or was it one of the wonders of God? Anyways, I went for a run in the evening before going for CNY visiting in the night. I have been running almost every single evening ever since I came back from my holiday. The first reason it is to lose weight. The second is to train for the upcoming Newton Active Run marathon on 1st march. And lastly the reason above these two reasons- running is Ecstasy. Although I have been smiling and laughing alot lately, but inside I feel very empty, sad, confused and moody. So running makes me feel abit much better and also gives me time to straighten out my thoughts. This is one super long post. I've got to stop here already. I need to complete my homework and catch an early sleep. I need to report to school at 6.30am tomorrow! This is the burden of being a SC I've got to hold. I've got to be an OGL AGAIN! Not really my type of job, but once again, it's my burden. I don't have a choice. I will update on my holiday soon. Goodnights and take cares. (: P.S The movie "Frida" will be aired tonight at 10pm on Okto.
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