There wasn't anymore reason.
Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very dark, but there were stars — points of light and reason.
And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.
Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty.
When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black.
Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.
I couldn't see the stars anymore.
And there was no more reason for anything.
- Edward Cullen to Bella.
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Friday, February 29, 2008, 10:25:00 PM
29 Feburary 2008
If you guys haven't notice anything special about today yet, FYI its the leap day of a leap year and I just have to blog on such a special occasion. Its been ages since I last blog and I have also yet to upload the promised pictures, but will do it real soon. Common tests and JAE orientation have all past. Today got back the results of my last paper. I am seriously surprise with my grades as it was all last minute studying or none at all, so I don't really deserve such grades. JAE orientation was awesome, we got some really enthusiastic kids, amazing loud cheers and best of all I didn't get to lose my voice. LOLS. The only bad thing is someone of the past i tried so hard forgetting is in the same school as me, Today is such a sucky day. so many problems and weired stuff happened. I shall elaborate more tomorrow, Im lazy to type any further. Hahas.
Sunday, February 10, 2008, 7:17:00 PM
BACK!
Came back from GUANGZHOU last night. The holiday was fantastic, with plenty of shopping and yummy food for the past 3 days. GuangZhou is definitely a food heaven! Despite all the fun, I couldn't get to see any snow, so disappointed. The weather there is FREEZING, ranging from 1 degree to 6 degree celcius. Surprisingly the traffic there is super smooth and their trains system are quite similar to Singapore, they even have the ez link function where you just touch and go, though instead of getting a temporary card we get a plastic coin, and when we exit the train station instead of scanning out, we drop the coin into the machine and the doors will open. Unlike in Singapore we have to go through all the trouble depositing back the temporary card. However, there is one experience that still irks me up till now. On our first dinner over there, my parents brought us to FANTASY RESTAURANT; judging from the name of the restaurant you could have guess that it sells exotic food, and it certainly DOES! They even display it for you to choose. There were crocodiles(alive and dead), monkeys, elephant trunks, rats, all kinds of insect be it from land or water, turtles... ... Seeing all these made me feel disgusted and I totally lost my appetite for that night eating pratically only vegetables. It made me realised how evil man was, how the cycle of life is that bad, I could have become an animal activists right at that moment. When the pictures of the trip are posted up, just look at the cruelty done to the animals. Who knows you might even convert to be a vegetarian. Hahas. I had a head, shoulders and leg massage yesterday before we flew off, and I was laughing like some mad women the whole time. Its just ticklish! But, it was really relaxing and the staff there are so nice and entertaining and it is definitely a rare sight as the china people are so rude. Plenty of other things happened during the trip too and I took plenty of pictures but it will not be blog out today as it takes a long time to upload the pictures and I have got other things to blog out on. I am addicted to a chinese song-北极星的眼泪(tears from polaris) by Nicholas Teo and I rarely get addicted to chinese songs, so this is definitely good. Its lyrics are touching too. You can hear it from my friendster. After the 3 days of holidaying, I finally feel much better and I have sorted out my thoughts too. Going to church today made me realised the reasons of my foolishness. By the way church today was fun and the pastor made all the married couples renew their vows in front of the whole church. Awww, thats so amazing! Even as an onlooker, I could feel that love is in the air. Ahahas. Today pastor preach on love, lust, roles of the husband and wife and how through 1 male, sin entered the whole world( romans 5:12) Through his preachings and one of the story he went through, I finally understood what made me had no trusts in any of my relationships. If lies and deceptions never existed in the first place won't there be trust? The same goes for friendship. If I wasn't backstabbed, bullied time and time again despite countless ignorance and forgiveness would I have changed? If there was at least someone who appreciates me and not put me down, would I even need to protect myself. If there wasn't anyone taking me for granted, lying and decepting me would I even think of changing my life, for the worst! I was given the choice to choose- do I want to be nice and be bullied and taken advantage of, or be someone firm and be hated. I knew that by choosing the 2nd choice, I won't be me anymore and by not being who I am, I can never be happy. But I didn't want to be bullied, I want to stand up for myself. I want just at least one person or even my closest friends to appreciate me. Yet I hide this longing inside me. I want encouragement, sincerity, innocence and most importantly to smile. From today onwards I don't want to be firm anymore, I want to be nice and that doesn't means I can be bullied. I shall see no evil, hear no evil and speak no evil. I don't have to stoop to that low as their level, I will take everything in stride. I will be a forgiving person. I want to be a elegant grace who is filled with happiness. It is easier said than done, but through christ, all things are possible. I believe in my GOD.
Sunday, February 3, 2008, 8:50:00 PM
18TH birthday!
Dear darlings, I have got to proudly say this is the best birthday I ever had throughout the 18 years I had lived Today mark the 18th year since I made my first cry, 18 years really past n a flash, and here I am as a young adult already. I had happy times, sad times, times which I can't even remember for the last 18 years, but I love every single time of it, for which shape me into the person I am today. Since I am turning 18 today, that means I am legal to drink alcohol, to club, to get my license and to watch M18 movies! Ahahas. I can't wait for my first experience in Zouk with the girls. Its going to be an eye opener. Hahas. Yesterday my birthday party was a BLAST! It was amazing! Thanks to my PAE kids, classmates, friends and church friends for turning up. Thank you for your birthday wishes too and not forgetting all your presents! I love it alot! I've got cups, necklaces, earrings, keychains, bag, flowers, chocolates, mirror, towel, a chocolate cake and the most unique one, a barbie doll set( its really surprised me). Thank you all everyone for making my day. I have basically 3 birthday cake yesterday! A big choclate cake from a few of my friends and 2 mango cake. So I am like 18 x 3= 54yrs old! Ahahas. But the good thing is that I can make 3 wishes! Hahas. Lets be amazed by the pictures below: PAE kids and my the little miss naughty girl in the middle!! Mr.Kelvin Wanker seems to be scared of little miss late, why stand so far away!!! LOLS.
All time friend Qiaoying, which keeps running away from the Pit. Zzzz. LOLS All the babes looking so stunning in this picture! Aww, I look so weired. MUNIRAH and ME! Scene 1 act 1: Look at the lovely couple with Fathi playing the rold of a satayman holding an umbrella in the foregrou Scene 1 Act 2: Yet another picture of them! The 2 'satayman' for the day. "satayman" no. 3 and his beautiful girlfriend holding the umbrella to shelter him, so sweet. Two really busy man; they look like they are talking to each other right! Thats how technology divides man! LOLS. MY beautiful birthday cake from my friends. Cake with candles on.
This is how hard it is to light up my birthday cake.
Still lighting... 5mins later and its still being lighted. FINALLY, its lighted!
Its a pity tis picture is blurred, or it will turn out really nice.
The 3 beautiful girls with a stalk of sunflower soft toy.
A rose among the thorns, awww. My presents! My presents when opened! Well, that basically sums up my birthday bash yesterday. There are still lots of pictures out there so once I've gotten will post it up ASAP. Today since it was my birthday, I went on a shopping spree. Bought like a slippers, lots of keychains, lots of accessories and a pair of boots.
My boots nice right!!! Oh well, its a replacement for my dear favourite sandals. Its spoilt today, so sad. I need a new pair of sandals, I love sandals alot!!!
3 days more and I am flying off to guangzhou, and I have not packed my luggage! I better pack it real soon. I've got to dig out all my thick clothings as it is winter over there and I can't wait to see snow. I am going to take plenty of pictures!!!!!!! Got to pack my bag for school already, have a meeting with the other sc's with the vice principal tomorrow morning. There goes my monday morning again. I don't even know the principal name. Hahas! Byebye! and THANK YOU!
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