There wasn't anymore reason.
Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very dark, but there were stars — points of light and reason.
And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.
Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty.
When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black.
Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.
I couldn't see the stars anymore.
And there was no more reason for anything.
- Edward Cullen to Bella.
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Wednesday, October 31, 2007, 6:33:00 PM
Dear darlings, Every single time I start watching , my tears will start streaming down my face. It is a very sad, yet touching romance anime. The 2nd season is yet to be out though. The first season ending was a really sad and unexpected one. After all I could relate to that lead girl feelings, it seems so like what I have experienced not so long ago; a long distance relationship.
Well, I shall not racked up the past. Today, went to school to specially hand in the SLE camp form, but I placed it in the GO pigeon hole. Hopefully the teacher will be able to see it. Whether I will be going for the camp anot, depends on IF the teacher did see the paper, for me either way is fine. Tomorrow I shall go back and check.
Today, I find myself asking again what is love? Today is the 7th month of me being single. In this 7th month, I have learnt how to be more independent though sometimes I still need reliance from friends. I also find my character changing, not quite sure if its better or worst. But I know, I have become timid, afraid of anything new.
However there is one thing I am definitely sure, that is, I am not interested in love right now, maybe it isnt the right time yet, or I have yet to find the right person. But right now, my studies are the most important!
Tuesday, October 30, 2007, 10:24:00 PM
Dont worry, I wont scold you both here... stress, StREsS, STRESS!My will wants to go, yet my heart doesnt want to. Which should I listen?
ICE-SKATING.
Dear darlings, Went ice-skating with some classmates. It has been quite some time since I last ice skate. Was feeling very tired, but nevertheless I still turn up 1 hour late. Hahas. It was really fun skating around and also teaching Darwina how to skate and finally at 5pm she learn how to skate confidently! Hahas. Thats an awesome accomplishment! I had to fall down 3 times cause of that, hey Darwina, must remember I sacrificed my life teaching you, especially my arm! Ahahas. Joking! Now let the picture do the talking, I am too tired to type so much today, and it is time for me to post pictures, it has been a long time since I last done so.
Friday, October 26, 2007, 9:46:00 PM
Report slip comparison.
Dear darlings, I am back to square one for geography, just when I though I finally achieved my goal, yet it is only half of my goal. My A+ got pulled down to a freaking B after combining with my mid-year. What makes it worst is I am only 2 marks away from A!! The first time I ever got my marks pulled down thanks to my Mid year. Oh well, its okay, that means I will still continue to work even harder to achieve the other half of my dream. I managed to maintain my economics overall grade and also improve by 1%, Hahas! Like geography, its still abit more to an A! At least I met my target! But still not happy with my END YR GRADES cause of one fraking GEOGRAPHY! For chinese overall, I did improve. My overall GP marks is much more better than my horrendious mark on the paper itself. Just left 2 more marks to get a pass! Hahas. I am seriously going to hate the no.2 after this. Maintained my ART grade, guess my ART grade can NEVER be pushed to a B. As expected, my mathematics grade was pushed down overall because of my mid year grade, thankfully, I still managed to pass. Not only that, it was so unexpected of me to get an improvement certificate for MATHEMATICS today! It is not only shocking but unbelievable! What's the probability that I can ever get any award for MATHS? Probably 1%, I might not even get it anymore for the rest of my life. Still want to say thank you my dear friend! However, I am still not happy, because of my dream grades got pulled down to a freaking B because of MID YEAR! Next year, for every single test and exam I am so freaking going to take it seriously. Dont want to regret it, like what I am doing right now. Today finally convinced Darwina to accompany me for the COMPASS convention to me an Usher. LOLS. Finally, besides Lincoln I have another close friend with me! But she not going for the SLC camp, which I dont know what went into my head when I signed up for it. I am so regretting it right now. Yesterday, I skip school to help my dad's company out at the Asia Outdoor Advertising exhibition at Suntec. It was so boring, even though I had my laptop with me. I wonder how am I going to work in the future when I am such a lazy bum. Then my uncle came down from Malaysia, and my father left me alone and went out with them!!!! Oh well, went to esplanade library to meet a friend, and it reminds me of how long I havent touch my piano. I am so sleepy now, nights!
Tuesday, October 23, 2007, 9:12:00 PM
More great things!
Dear darlings, Today, I finally REMOVED my braces. 1 week more before my teeth have to tolerate another 6 more months of retainers. Its SWEET! Perfectly love it alot, though I am seriously going to miss my braces. ): I went for a well deserved shopping trip! Splurge on quite a number of things, bought thank you cards, Darwina's birthday present, earrings and a geography book(surprise surprise)!!! I chance upon the book when I entered Kinokuniya. I just couldnt resist not having that book, cause its sort of a comical story books and well, I could continue to learn more stuffs. I also chance upon a "geography bible". I definitely going to have one of those thick encyclopedia all on geography, the damn thing is, it is so freaking expensive! I am going to ask mummy to buy for me as a reward. Hopefully, she will... Every good thing seems to be coming my way, I wonder how long these will last. I am only missing one thing in my life right now. Maybe I just miss loving someone special to me. Yet, speaking of which, I have no one in mind, what the hell right. Ahahas. Serious! So even if I miss loving, I dont even know who. Oh well, at least singlehood is fun, otherwise I will all lonely.
Monday, October 22, 2007, 10:17:00 PM
tears of joy.
Dear darlings, Today was judgement day. I am very pleased with my results, except my GP results, the only subject I failed! ARGH. On a more pleasant note, my long awaited dream finally came true today. For 2 years, I have been studying for an A for geography, yet it will only reach to a B, NEVER an A. Atlas, I finally saw my fruits of labour today. I am very very happy, serious! Before my geography promos, I promised myself, that if I still cant get an A, I will give up my dream and create a new one. Because 2 years is a long wait. Whats more this was an unexpected grade for me. I didnt put in as much effort as I had put in for the rest of my geog exams. To be able to emerge one of the top geog student I am really really happy. Thats all I can just say now as I am totally overwhelmed with Joy. I thank god for his blessings. p.s I know I should be humble, but I want to share my joy to the world! For Mathematics, I made improvements, thanks to my tuition teacher and also Lincoln. Anyone needs maths help go find him! Hahas. I also need to thank myself for putting in the effort to improve, correct! I sacrificed my economics revision for math okays, it is appluadeable. Hais, but my tuition teacher, confirm say my math result so poor la, must go for tuition regularly, blah and blah and blah... For Art, Economics and Chinese, somehow my grades has been more or less maintained the same. Though I am happy with my results, I also must not be too complacent and start slacking off. I am going to study harder during the holidays and improve on my results even more, for the sky is the limit! For now, I shall be the happiest girl and rejoice! Thank you my friends for being there for me. Lets work hard together for next year aye! CHEERS!
Sunday, October 21, 2007, 7:37:00 PM
Make a difference.
Dear darlings, Finally I was willing to start watching a new anime and had since finished watching it. Lovely Complex is such a sweet and heartwarming show, which is not only funny but also touching. It could make you laugh and could also make you cry. I sacrificed my Friday sleep to watch finish the whole anime, and have since rewatch it thrice, and would love to rewatch it again. Its has really been a long time since I have last watch a shoujo romance show. Hahas. Its a MUST WATCH! By the time I finished watching that anime it was Saturday morning 5AM, and yet I still could not fall asleep, my whole head is thinking about that anime. Then at 1.30pm went BUGIS to meet some church friends to shop around for encourgement cards and birthday presents. To those taking their O levels and A levels, all the best to you! Do take care of yourself! God bless you! (: Continuing on, had Bible studies which ended really quick. Hahas. Yesterday the pastor talked about changing lifes. He told us plenty of inspirational stories, such as the one that we are familiar of, the star thrower. Yesterday preaching, touch my heart. I would like to share with everyone what I learnt from yesterday preaching and what I will practice from today on. Be it whether you are a christian or not, these are important values that you can also learn. I learnt that everyone of us is so caught up with the BIG things around us, that we have since failed to see the SMALL things present around us. Lets not look into the WORLD, but into our SOCIETY. OUR SOCIETY consists of family, friends and those in need. These are the people in which we can change their lives, make a difference in their lives, and of course definitely in a good way. How can we make a difference? By showing them we care, we love them, correct them when they are wrong, teach them and serve one another, even to those we hate! Why? Because I learnt that the greatest commandment of all is to love your enemy as your friend. You never know how much they long for these, how much these could change their lives, how much they ever wanted to hear these from anyone, how much joy it could fill them with, and how much they are appreciated. Nevermind others, but at least they know YOU APPRECIATE THEM. One of the story told yesterday was about a man who was on his way home saw one of his classmate(lets call him mark, I cant rmb his name.) accidentaily dropping the books he was carrying on his hands. He went over and help Mark to pick up the books and Mark invited him up to his house for a drink to thank him. He went, and as they drank they talk and laugh, and soon they became close friends. On the graduation day, Mark went up to him and said, "on that day, I was carrying so many books because I had just cleared up my locker wanting not to leave a mess for the next person using it. I had taken my mum sleeping pills and was on my way home to commit sucide, until, you came up to me and helped me pick up the fallen books. After in which we chatted happily over the drink, then I realised life has much more meaning than dying. "To mark, he made a difference. It is just these simple thinks that we could change a person live so great. I wouldnt be writing all these FOR NOTHING. I wouldnt be wasting my time on these just for the sake of passing my time, BUT, I want to make a difference. Be it to JUST only one person, at least to that one person it made a difference. What about you, the readers, going to do after reading finish my post. Will you forget what I had written, or will you put it into practice and share it? For you never know how much these little things could make a difference, it is ONLY just these little things,the love, care and concern which each and everyone of us could give and change the lives of others. Sincerely from my heart, I thank all my friends who has been there for me, be it when I am sad or when I am happy. I appreciate the care and concern you have given to me. To those whom I had quarreled with, its a pity that we started on the wrong note, but what past is past and life goes on. I still thank you for changing and shaping my life to be a stronger person. To those who dislike me, hating someone is tough, I know it cause I've been there. But the greatest commandment of all is to love your enemy as your friends. Maybe its our differnces that we are so caught up with that we had failed to see the similarities in us. Speaking of which, I seriously do wonder if anyone does dislikes me. Hahas!To all my dearest friends, I love you all and I cherish our friendship alot. I am really happy to be able to have known you people. I shall end this post with one last story which was shared with us yesterday. A shepherd has 100 sheeps, it was time for him to go back so he went to count his sheeps. Yet, there was only 99 sheeps there and 1 sheep had wandered off. If you were the shepherd would you either leave that 1 sheep alone or leave the 99 sheeps to find that 1 sheep? It doesnt makes sense to leave the 99 sheeps to just find 1, most of us will think like that. But that is what exactly the shepherd did, and to that one lost sheep it made a difference. Almost all of us will intially choose to leave that lost sheep behind, because we are too focus on the BIG things(99sheeps) than on the SMALL things(lost sheep). With these I shall end my LONG LONG post. CIAO! Take cares (: UPDATEDForgotten to mention about how much I love my new background music!! Hahas. Its the background song from the LOVELY COMPLEX anime!! Sweet instrumental music aye. I want to play it on piano! Ahahas. That is if only I could play it so beautifully as the original. X)
Thursday, October 18, 2007, 2:46:00 PM
Hellos Darlings, Yesterday, out of the blue, I finally bought my PRINCE TENNIS RACQUET. My stubborness ensures me to only buy that brand and nothing else will do. It all started with my sister saying she wants to buy hers NOW after spotting a racquet to her liking, which is a WILSON racquet, orange in colour with some cool design. I spent 1 1/2 hour in the shop thinking over which I should choose the classic Prince racquet or the Air tech Racquet(the one which I wanted initially). In the end, I bought the classic series after much persuasion from my sisters for me to hurry up. Hahas. I choose classic black and white. Hahas. Quite plain huh. Kimberley's racquet is much more pretty with orange and black design, even the material is different from others. Hahas. Who cares, I wan a racquet Im comfortable with rather than one that is pretty. I am still missing that red Air tech racquet. =( Went back to school on tuesday, had fun in school and finally able to see Sabrina, Darwina and Hafizah. First lesson was GP, we had to walk down the stairs twice and up twice again before settling down in class, because we dont know where classes was held. Finally watch finish Apocalypto, and Sabrina did a great job in being the next Mel Gibson. And by the end of the show, I ended up with a bump on my head due to my excitement watching to show which caused my head to knock on the computer. Then had PE, finally was able to play netball. Thankfully, I didnt sign up for the Standard Chartered Marathon, otherwise my PE lessons will be turning into running lessons. We also played Hangman during one of our breaks! Hahas. School is great and fun with everyone present in class!
Saturday, October 13, 2007, 10:16:00 PM
Selemat Hari raya!
Dear darling, Its finally a festive season again. Wishing all Malays Selemat Hari Raya, and do take care of yourselves. Class, dont munch on the food too much till you fall sick okays! We still got a Jalan Raya outing! Hahas. Yesterday I gave school a miss as there is practically nothing to do in school except to stone. Next week results will not also be released yet, therefore I might not even turn up for school. Had a BBQ party at home yesterday, with me BBQ-ing the food for everyone. Had some special ingrediants added in it such as charcoal and grass. Was awaken up today by my intercom phone. Having an intercom phone is great, BUT when its fustrating when it start ringing early in the morning. Went to YUM CHA to have breakfast. Suppose to go church today but I gave it a miss, as I go a HARI RAYA DINNER at my dad's friend house. Every year we goes to his house during HARI RAYA. Every year the food is so delicious that I will eat so much. This year my 3 younger sister did not come along with us, therefore I had to entertain his 2 young kids. We played the game of life for 5 times!!!! It was so TIRING. Hahas. I am thinking of a new URL for my blog and I will supposedly make it PRIVATE. Somehow I just feel my blog slowly changing into my private diary and with this public blog I am restricted to blog on many other things. Well, lets see about that.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007, 2:46:00 PM
School is boring!
Dear darlings, Recently I have been eating and eating and more eating, therefore, I have decided to start exercising consistently, this is also because of my training course coming right up soon. Yesterday woke up at 7am with my sister and we went jogging all the way to the market for breakfast cum lunch, yeap! Otherwise my efforts will go down the drain. Anyways, everyday I also will definitely skip one of my meal one, so its not a big problem. EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE!Went to school today, though I signed out after that. Had an activity on probability and we played some casino games, we lost money but it wasnt that bad. Hahas. I cant remember the sum we lost, I am forgetful. Then it was break and after break will be some sports stuff. I really wanted to join in the sports, but practically everyone is signing out, therefore I join in the crowd. Basically, its a very very boring morning in school. Hopefully tomorrow will be better and I seriously cant wait to receieve my results. Heys, its not that I will do well, I just want to see were I stand at and how much I have improve if there is. Hehes. I have finished my Prince of Tennis and still waiting for the continuation of the anime to be released, now I am left with no idea on what anime to start with. I am such a fussy person on the anime I want to watch that I was given the name MISS.PICKY! Oh how nice for Mr. Copycat to find a name for me. LOLS. And how Mr.Copycat got his name, that will be another long story. Anyone got great COMPLETE anime for me to watch, I am lost! On the 'greener' side, lets talk about our environment. Pardon me for my constant rambling on environmental stuffs, I am a geography student what do you expect? Recently I have started to refuse plastic bags and nag at those who use alot. As a geography student that is what I should be doing! On second thoughts, that is what EVERYBODY should be doing. Thats the least we can do to save our home. Every other day, just flip open the Straits Times Newspaper, we will see articles on global warming from all over the world. On today's newspaper there is an article on the melting of glaciers on the ALPS. The ALPS is in Switzerland, please dont let it melt before I visit it. Hahas. The weather in Singapore is also getting hotter. Another article on the newspaper today said that this year winter will also be warmer unlike other years. I didnt read that article therefore I am not sure if it is due to LA NINA effects or global warming. My prediction is both. We are suffering the effects of global warming due to present and past activities, but lets think about the future generation of people, if we do nothing today, the effects will be twice or maybe more than what we are experiencing today. Is that the world we want "our children, our grandchildren... ..." to live in?
Saturday, October 6, 2007, 10:43:00 PM
I understand now...
Dear darlings, For the first time after such a long time, I finally went to church. It was kind of a last minute decision, where Carolyn asked me to go together. This church is totally different from the other churches I have been before, it is so much enjoyable. I guess me going to church today by chance is God answering my prayers and doubts. Remembering just few weeks ago where my faith for God started to waver, having questions unanswered and problems of my own. Today I finally understood all those. Thanks Carolyn for making me experience GOD at a whole new level. Last night I was suppose to go out with with someone, but we didnt in the end. It is quite fustrating for THAT person to not have any sense of responsibilty to inform me and to still ask me out even when THAT person is not free. Mind you, its the second time from this person. Even a sorry was not said to me. I shall do a favour to myself to NOT ever listen to THAT person ever again! Thankfully I managed to find someone to go out with me to esplanade. Dont ask me why esplanade, I just had this urge to go there to enjoy the breeze, see the city skylne and the lights also the loud rock music blasting in the background. I just love staring at the lights and listening to music! BUT, there wasnt a single star in sight, even for today. Stars and Sunflowers are my favourites!!!WHEEEE. Anyways THANKS for accomanying me last night even though it was so last minute! (:
Friday, October 5, 2007, 6:29:00 PM
WHEEE!!!
Dear darlings, Finally exams are over and its time to PLAY! Today I went back to school all the way for nothing, the teacher was no where to seen, so angry. Well, after that went shopping with Sheralyn at Bugis. Then headed back home for an afternoon nap. Tomorrow will be meeting up with my secondary school darlings at Sentosa. Wheee.. Its been such a long time since I last step onto Sentosa, more than 1 year already perharps. I am in no mood to write long post recently, maybe of my weariness? Hears what I did for my art final piece.
MY FIRST EVER POST DOING THIS.
[one] what is your natural hair color? Black. [two] where is your default picture on friendster taken? What the hell is a default picture? If my guess is not wrong isit the PRIMARY PHOTO? Oh well, its just a solo pic of me. [three] what's your middle name? Ai Wen. [four] your current relationship status? SINGLE! (: [five] does your crush like you back? Lalala! How would I even know?!? [six] what is your current mood? Sleepy... [seven] what colour underwear are you wearing? What makes you think I would even say. [eight] what makes you happy? every great things makes me happy! X) [ten] if you could go back in time and change something, what you would change? Hmm... Did any of you guys notice there isnt Question 9? I would treasure my life even more, but on second thoughts, I am happy with life right now to even want to change it! (: [eleven] if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be? I would love be a horse, galloping across the field, with no worries! [twelve] ever had any near-death experience? erm? No! DUH! [thirteen] something you do a lot? Sleeping, watching anime, reading manga, going to the library and checking out the earth sciences corner! Thats so me yeah! Hahas.[fourteen] the song stuck in your head? Cos I love you-NORTH( my blog song!) [fifteen] who did you copy and paste this from? MELINDA. [sixteen] name someone with the same birthday as you? SEAN KINGSTON. Surprise surprise! [seventeen] when was the last time you cried? Quite recently, but cant remember, FYI I am suffering from memory loss. [eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience?Erm. No! You never know how horrible it can get. [nineteen] if you could have one super power what would it be? I want to have power of being able to transport to the past, future and definitely places, like this I can travel around the world in no time! [twenty] what's the first thing you notice about the preferred sex?First impression.[twenty-one] what do you usually order from starbucks? Caramel Frapp; Ice mocha... [twenty-two] what's your biggest secret? You already said its a secret, how could I tell? [twenty-three] favorite colors? I cant really decide on what colour I love, because I love ALL COLOURS! [twenty-four] do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? Yes of course! I am young at heart. AHEMS~ [twenty-five] what are you eating or drinking at the moment? [twenty-six] you speak any other language? Dialects-Cantonese. [twenty-seven] what's your favorite smell? It definitely wont be strong smells. [twenty-eight] if you could describe your life in one word what would it be? BORING! twenty-nine[] when was the last time you gave/received a hug? Cant remember... [thirty] have you ever kissed in the rain? Cant remember... [thirty-one] what are you thinking about right now? When will these question ever ends and somebody... [thirty-two] what should you be doing? Anything? Exams are over anyways. [thirty-three] what was the last thing that made you upset/angry? Cant remember! Serious! I am having bad memeory. [thirty-four] how often do you pray? Once in a blue moon. [thirty-five] do you like working in the yard? What is a yard? [thirty-six] if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want? Hmm? Im fine with my own name. [thirty-seven] do you act differently around your crush? Of course, with those butterflies in your stomach an friends influences, how can I ever be normal in front of him?Hehes. [thirty-eight] name one song that reminds you of an ex? Love Me-Colin Raye. [thirty-nine] who was the last person to make you cry? Cant remember.
Wednesday, October 3, 2007, 1:41:00 PM
Dear darlings, Tomorrow is finally the art paper, my last paper. Then the rest of the days will be boring until wednesday when school starts again. Up till now, I have still not yet even touched my prepatory work. Hais! I am so bored!!!!
Monday, October 1, 2007, 11:07:00 PM
{TIRED;SLEEPY;LETHARGIC}
Dear darlings, Finally my geography paper has passed. Feeling so sleepy, yet I am forcing myself to avoid sleeping. Geography paper was alright, manageable, and hopefully passable. I am left with Art. 5 prepatory work to do before thursday. I was stuck between contrast and transformation just now. Then I decided to do something that reflects me, thus deciding on transformation. Had a tough time thinking on my ideas, browse through few webpage for my ideas, it was only while I was reading my national geographic book that I saw my middle. Dont worry, its not any volcanoes. My mummy surprised me with the subscription of that magazine. Hahas. I am a happy girl. Now, I am wishing hard for her to subscribe to national geographic and discovery channel! Hahas, too bad it comes along with disney channel that my mummy doesnt want, thanks to my sister! Bahhh!!!
The paper I have waited for.
Dear darling, In a few more hours, I will be doing that paper, trying hard to recall what is Plate tectonics, Mass movements, Weathering and Urbanisation, rushing to finish my DRQ and 2 essays in just a mere 3 hours. I want to do well for this paper and obtain my long awaited A. Yet, once again, I just feel not enough prepared to just score that grade and will be satisfied If I could even manage to brush through the passing mark. "I pray to god, to bless me from above, to give me a clear mind for me to think... " It must be surprising to see me praying to God once again. It started when I realise, me, alone cant help those around me, therefore, be it whether God exists anot, for the sake of these people... I will pray. Who knows, just one day, I wil finally be able to believe God exists.
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