There wasn't anymore reason.
Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very dark, but there were stars — points of light and reason.
And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.
Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty.
When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black.
Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.
I couldn't see the stars anymore.
And there was no more reason for anything.
- Edward Cullen to Bella.
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Wednesday, July 30, 2008, 8:27:00 PM
I am moody today. Wasn't in any mood for playing or any nonsense. Yet, so many stuff happened and made me very angry. First was Darwina throwing stuff at me during geography when I was doing my work, then it was the broken bench. It was all in the name of play, however I seriously wasn't in the mood for any of that. But, I tolerated. After school while chatting up with Karyee, Huda and Handry; Hafiz came up and sat next to me. Then he accidentally spilled his whole cup of Ice Lemon Tea onto me. It was forgivable, because it was accidental. However, he didn't bother to say sorry! But, it was still fine. Then Handry and I was asking him, aren't you going to say sorry to me. He replied " sorry is the hardest word to say." That is when I got really angry. It was only after 10 mins of argument, that he muttered a sorry. And that didn't end there. We continued talking then we touch on the senate duty topic. Almost 70% of the time whenever I see him or he calls me, it is all about senate duty and the stuff we need to do. I feel annoyed and it is very irritating.The weired thing is I seem to be the only one getting "informed" of whatever we need to do and calling up for duty every wednesday and friday. The what about the others. He replied because I don't have a CCA, which also means no cca committments whereas they all have, thats why I need to do more duty. I wouldn't mind if there was at least something I need to do during duty, but every single time I go for duty, I end up wasting my time doing practically nothing at all. He almost made me cried. Luckily I am a strong girl. Hehes. Now you guys know why I want a CCA right now. Anyway, like always. I stayed back for duty just now and as usual wasted my time. The exco were having their meeting and I was like at the SAC playing pool and the piano just to pass my time. Furthermore I have a geography test tomorrow. Audrey is making me really tired. I just spent two hours catching it and cleaning up its poo. Hais. Now I have to burn the midnight oil for my geog revision and to finish up my WR GPP. Nevermind, tomorrow will be a better day.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008, 10:20:00 PM
Beautiful picture isn't it? This is a picture out of the 2 accidental shots I took. Didn't know I have such hidden amazing photography skills. Hahas. The quote is from Helen Kellar.
Monday, July 28, 2008, 11:31:00 PM
This is Audrey, a golden retriever and also my family's dog. She is really beautiful isn't she. She is very quiet, sweet and obedient too. However, whenever she starts whimpering and crying, it really pain my heart so much that I will start tearing too. I guess she is still afraid of the new surrounding. I am so going to shower lots of my love to her. She is like my own baby to me. Hahas. Hopefully as time goes by, she will get use to us and we are going to have lots of fun together. (:
Sunday, July 27, 2008, 10:40:00 PM
My weekends was rather well-spent. Sat at Parkway's McCafe yesterday evening and redid the whole Binomial Distribution Chapter exercises. Never knew that chapter was easy as long as if I put in the effort to practice. Spent today's evening doing up my Art Powerpoint slides. Hope my presentation will go well tomorrow. Went to SPCA again today. The 2 Huskies we have been eyeing for 3 weeks have already been adopted just early this morning. Hais. Anyways, Clarice says my parents bought a golden retriever just now. I am not sure if it is true anot, because they are all so secretive about it, like wanting to give us a surprise. I have been bugging my parents to get a golden retriever for weeks and if it is true, I would be over the moon. Just moments ago, we were are thinking of names for the female golden retriever and my mummy suggested "Ashley"! Hahahas. There were many weired and funny names from my sister like how Clarice wanted it to be called "WorldPeace, Algebra", my dad wanted it to be called apple and there were many other branded names like "Versace, Chanel, Armani..." I suggested Happy and Princess but wouldn't mind calling it Ashley. It's much better than calling it Apple anyways. Hahas. My cousin was in Singapore just now for few hours before flying back to Sydney to continue her studies. She just got married not long ago and yet she and her husband will be living apart for the next few years. Very sad right, fate is cruel. However, I am sure, this distance that seperates them now, will enable their love for each other to grow stronger at the end of the day. (: After 2 long years of practicing, I have finally perfected my Mariage D'Amour. Next on my list for perfection will be Always with Me and Part of your world. Will be learning Phantom of the Opera as soon I get the scores from Qiao Ying tomorrow. Hopefully, it would'nt be too difficult for me to play, afterall my piano skills is seriously lousy. Alright, Goodnights. Take Cares.
Saturday, July 26, 2008, 12:01:00 AM
Despite our many pleas for him to stay, he stills decides to leave. I would love to see you stay and want to graduate as a class with you inside. A6 will stand together with you as a class and be there for you. We will catch you as you fall. Even though our class may not be close, but we are connected through hearts. We are indeed one class, one family. If this is what's you feel best for youself, then I will respect your decision and wish you all the best. I am definitely going to miss you so much my dear friend. You were the life of our class, without you around everything is going to be bland and liveless. A mistake as small as it can be, could be so fatal. A consequence that is so difficult to bear; I understand the pressure, the regrets and the pain of having to give up your dreams. Life is unfair, isn't it? Does second chance not exists at all? Criminals have the Yellow Ribbon Project. Why can those people who make bigger mistakes deserve a second chance? All human beings makes mistakes. It is how we learn from our mistakes that matters, isn't it? Why does the school gives up on those who makes mistakes? Should'nt the school be teaching the students what is right from wrong instead? Ain't school a place where we learn? Why has it become a place of condemnation! A place where we have to be perfect creatures and not err. He was an outstanding student who made the school proud! Yet, on no account of those, he was given the most unreasonable, serious punishment. If this is how we are going to be brought up by the school, and the values that are going to be inculcated in us, won't we grow up to be a generation of selfish Singaporeans in the future?Maybe because I am nice, which is why I strongly believe that there should be Compassion and Forgiveness, for I will do the same too. In this real world, does Humanity not exists anymore?"Mistakes are painful when they happen, but years later a collection of mistakes is what is called experience."- Waitley, Denis"Mistakes are a fact of life it is the response to error that counts."- Giovanni, NikkiSo, learn from your mistakes and correct it, they are important lessons to your life. Don't ever regret making this mistake, but let this mistake be worth making. Years down the road as you look back, be the one laughing at this mistake and see how much you have grown from it. Remember, just as how making mistakes are part of our lives, don't ever make the same mistake twice. (: Take cares.
Friday, July 25, 2008, 10:09:00 PM
Went with mummy to school and collected my report book. Much more satisfied with my overall results as compared to my raw grades. The best thing is the B I got for Geography, that is like 3 grades up. My Art, Chinese,, Maths remains at my standard grade, C,B and D respectively. Hahas! Surprisingly, I managed to pass my GP. However, my Economics grade(D) is a disappointment, 2 grades below my usual B. I better start putting in some effort for Economics, it is not as if it is so difficult to pass, it's just my laziness. I have not studied for a single economics test(except for the recent one) since the start of the year, and I failed all, with the lowest being 3! The grades can compete with my math already. Continuing. Went with mummy to Haig Road to have lunch and visited the bank. Then she dropped me off at Parkway. I wandered alone at parkway for quite some time. Very poor thing right. :( Ahahas! Anyways went to the pet shop to check out if there is any golden retriever. There was one and it's sold! Went to popular and borders after that. Got myself 2 GP essays books, 1 Math assessment book and a story book( where rainbows end). My mummy keeps nagging at me to practice my math. Hais. Oh well, it's for my own good. The Wise Womanby Author UnknownA wise woman who was traveling in the mountains found a precious stone in a stream. The next day she met another traveler who was hungry, and the wise woman opened her bag to share her food. The hungry traveler saw the precious stone and asked the woman to give it to him. She did so without hesitation. The traveler left, rejoicing in his good fortune. He knew the stone was worth enough to give him security for a lifetime. But, a few days later, he came back to return the stone to the wise woman. "I've been thinking," he said. "I know how valuable this stone is, but I give it back in the hope that you can give me something even more precious. Give me what you have within you that enabled you to give me this stone." Sometimes it's not the wealth you have, but, what's inside you that others need.There are some things money can't buy and this story is an example of that phrase. A person may be rich or poor not by what he has but by who he is. " We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give." (Winston Churchill)
Wednesday, July 23, 2008, 9:00:00 PM
Monday. was Racial Harmony Day. Being a SC, we were strongly encouraged to wear traditional costume. For new experience, I wore a Peranakan top with black pants. *Chat me up on Msn for the other photos.
Tuesday. Wasn't really in the mood for anything. Spent my whole night study doing up my written report part which is still not up to standard yet. By the end of the day, at least my spirits have been lifted up. I also realised, that Darwina sense of humour have finally improved! Hehes.
Today. Was very silly today. Time passed very quickly too, especially for Math lesson. It must have been because of the funny and weired talks Darwina and I were having that didn't made math lesson a bore today. The most embarressing thing that happen is that I accidentaily sent an sms meant for my mum to Miss Zhang and she actually replied me! Oh my. A Gift of Love By Author Unknown
"Can I see my baby?" the happy new mother asked. When the bundle was nestled in her arms and she moved the fold of cloth to look upon his tiny face, she gasped. The doctor turned quickly and looked out the tall hospital window. The baby had been born without ears. Time proved that the baby's hearing was perfect. It was only his appearance that was marred.
When he rushed home from school one day and flung himself into his mother's arms, she sighed, knowing that his life was to be a succession of heartbreaks.
He blurted out the tragedy. "A boy, a big boy...called me a freak." He grew up, handsome for his misfortune. A favorite with his fellow students, he might have been class president, but for that. He developed a gift, a talent for literature and music. "But you might mingle with other young people," his mother reproved him, but felt a kindness in her heart.
The boy's father had a session with the family physician. Could nothing be done? "I believe I could graft on a pair of outer ears, if they could be procured" the doctor decided. So the search began for a person who would make such a sacrifice for a young man. Two years went by. Then, "You are going to the hospital, son. Mother and I have someone who will donate the ears you need. But it's a secret" said the father.
The operation was a brilliant success, and a new person emerged. His talents blossomed into genius, and school and college became a series of triumphs. Later he married and entered the diplomatic service. "But I must know!" He urged his father. "Who gave so much for me? I could never do enough for him."
"I do not believe you could," said the father, "but the agreement was that you are not to know...not yet." The years kept their profound secret, but the day did come . . . one of the darkest days that ever pass through a son. He stood with his father over his mother's casket. Slowly, tenderly, the father stretched forth a hand and raised the thick, reddish-brown hair to reveal that the mother had no outer ears.
"Mother said she was glad she never let her hair be cut," he whispered gently, "and nobody ever thought mother less beautiful, did they?"
Real beauty lies not in the physical appearance, but in the heart.
Real treasure lies not in what that can be seen, but what that cannot be seen.
Real love lies not in what is done and known, but in what that is done but not known.
Sunday, July 20, 2008, 12:56:00 PM
This is going to be a long post. Friday:Time passed really fast. Did the martial arts demonstration in the morning. Surprisingly, listened throughout the whole maths lesson for the first time. Had amazing time after school tasting the food from the different races with classmates. Was inspired by my BFF hardworking-ness, so took out my math homework and did it for the first time this year, and the rest followed as if like a chain effect. Hahas. Went for the Indian Dance workshop. So glad that I went before joining it as a CCA, cause I am so not going to. Maybe Dragonboating would be a much better choice as compared to Indian Dance. I'm not sure though. I fear the waters. I just want a CCA! Saturday:Went to Jurong East and met up with the rest of the RCR group for rock-climbing. It was AWESOME and enjoyed myself. Made some new friends too.
Aherm* The rose among the thorns.
After from much persuasion from Hafiz, Left halfway to meet up with Hafiz, Jack and Adilah at JE MRT station. It was supposed to be a math study session with Hafiz and me. It ended up TOTALLY SCREWED! If I had known, you were just playing with me, I would have just went to west coast with the RCR group and enjoyed myself over there. However, I had lots of fun talking to Jack and Adilah during the trainride. (:
After wasting my time, making me tug all my maths stuff and you backing out in the last minute, I am so not going to forgive you for that. I swear. Don't ever bother asking me to go out studying with you or teaching you anything anymore. Everytime I do, you waste my time.
Sometimes, I wonder, whats the point of being someone nice? No one appreciates it anyway, to make matters worst being bullied for being nice! What the hell? And when my tolerance reaches its breaking point, thats it! Everyone has an ugly side to them and I swear you would'nt want to see mine. I am going to be more firm from now on.
Anyways continuing on yesterday events. Went to Parkway in the night to meet with my sister. While waiting for her, I went walking in the rain. I just felt like doing so. One thousand and one things were running through my head. I was fustrated and so lost.
Did some studying with her at McCafe. Finished studying the whole market failure notes. I am proud of myself.
Today: Was supposed to go to Suntec and check up the Scholarships and American Universities education fair, but I ended up being too lazy. Anyway, there is still next year. I have been thinking of an overseas university education in America for the longest time, but I have yet to talk to my parents about it.
Went to SPCA in the afternoon. Our family is going to have a pet dog, so we were thinking of adopting it from there. As we went around closing time, there were'nt much choices left. But what left an impression on us is the 2 Siberian Huskies, a male and a female. One black and white while the other brown and white. However, they have to be adopted together!
If it weren't for the little time left, we would have 2 new family members already. My parents may be going down to SPCA tomorrow and get those 2 puppies. Can you believe it? Its like eveything is happening so suddenly. We have never had any experience in taking care of dogs before and yet we are going to adopt 2 at one time. Aww, we will see as time goes. (:
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Went down to my grandparents home to celebrate my grandpa 78th birthday. They are my favourite grandparents and maybe hold much more importance to me as compared to anyone else. From young, they were the ones taking care of me, to see them age that much, it is kind of sad. My grandma even forgot my name in one instance. They are the best kind of grandparents anyone can get and I love them very much. I think something is seriously wrong with me. Why am I so crazy, screwing up my love life. This whole week seems to be some lucky or maybe unlucky week where people come talking to me about love. I have been wishing for my whole life for prince charming to come. I have been wishing for a day where a guy will love me first and profess their love to me. Prince Charmings have arrived, and professed their love. But, I feel nothing at all. That's because they aren't the person that I love so much. I know the answer very well to the puzzles of my heart. No matter how hard I try, no matter how much I need him, no matter how positively I try to think, no matter how much hope I hold inside of me, no matter how much I love him, it will be of no use. He will never have any feelings for me. Am I correct? You know best who you are, and if you don't, then you're dumb not to know. It has been 7 months already. This 7 months, I wanted to give up so much, but I am unable to let you go. I didn't have any faith in myself, but today, I don't want to hide these feelings anymore. You are the reason why I am lost and confused. You are also the reason why I cried and smiled. Whenever you are there right in front of me, I will always act so silly. I will suddenly be lost of words to say and be so forgetful to even remembering saying hello and bye bye to you. I cannot explain why is that so. It must have made me look so stupid infront of you. The happiest moments in my life, are the times when you talk to me. When you were upset, lost and confused, I really wished, I could have brought smiles to your face. But I didn't. When you were disappointed with your results, u misunderstood my reply. That reply wasn't referring to your results. But I never did told you. There was so much things I wanted to say, but couldn't bring myself to say it. There was so much chances I have missed getting to know you. Today, God has fulfilled my little prayer that I made months ago. That is having the courage to face up to love. I love you, and all I want is just to see you smile every single day. May you one day finally find the answer to 'your happiness'. These are the words I have been wanting to let you know. Please forget everything after reading. Take cares. (:
Thursday, July 17, 2008, 8:45:00 PM
School was totally useless today. If it had not been for the listening comprehension exam, I would not have even turn up. Art lesson was spent with me fiddling around with my Sunflower trying to get 20 shots around the school, but I ended up with 100 over. Now I am going to have trouble choosing. Economics lesson was spent listening to cher teaching the whole negative externalities for consumption again. Total waste of time. Last period was break. The first 2 photos below illustrates was taken during break, while the rest are some of my favourite results from the fiddling of the sunflower. By the way if you're wondering why sunflower; its my favourite. Hahas! The Sunflower is not one flower, but a cluster of more than 2 000 tiny flowers growing together. Isn't that how the journey of life is too. 2 000 small things that makes up 1 beautiful life. Its no wonder how this is my pursuit of happiness.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008, 10:03:00 PM
My mid-year results is the worst I ever obtained in MI. I just barely managed to scrape through for my 3 H2 subjects. All my subjects results except for Chinese fell few grades down with GP and Maths scoring U-grades. I am very disappointed with myself. But I have to accept that 'I reap what I sow' and this is the result for slacking off the whole June holiday and not spending any effort in revising at all. The worst thing is my mummy is finally going to attend the MPS! I have been wanting her to attend this session so much, and yet this time when she finally agrees, I am going to disappoint her with my poor results. Hais, why am I such a disappointment? But whats the use of being disappointed, upset or whatever you can think of to describe that sucky feeling inside. The more important thing now is to put all those sucky feelings aside and buck up. I don't want another big disappointment. 7 weeks is all that is left, it is neither long nor short. But for this remaining 7 weeks, I am going to study really really hard and put in 101% effort for my promotional exams. Will talk more about other stuff another day. Nights and Jiayou!! (:
Monday, July 14, 2008, 10:43:00 PM
The Cab Ride Author Unknown
Twenty years ago, I drove a cab for a living. When I arrived at 2:30 a.m., the building was dark except for a single light in a ground floor window. Under these circumstances, many drivers would just honk once or twice, wait a minute, and then drive away. But, I had seen too many impoverished people who depended on taxis as their only means of transportation. Unless a situation smelled of danger, I always went to the door. This passenger might be someone who needs my assistance, I reasoned to myself. So I walked to the door and knocked. "Just a minute", answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor. After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 80's stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940s movie. By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets. There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware. "Would you carry my bag out to the car?" she said. I took the suitcase to the cab, then returned to assist the woman. She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb. She kept thanking me for my kindness. It's nothing", I told her. "I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother treated". "Oh, you're such a good boy", she said. When we got in the cab, she gave me an address, then asked, "Could you drive through downtown?" "It's not the shortest way," I answered quickly. "Oh, I don't mind," she said. "I'm in no hurry. I'm on my way to a hospice". I looked in the rear-view mirror. Her eyes were glistening. "I don't have any family left," she continued. "The doctor says I don't have very long." I quietly reached over and shut off the meter. "What route would you like me to take?" I asked. For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator. We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds. She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl. Sometimes she'd ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing. As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, "I'm tired. Let's go now." We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico. Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move. They must have been expecting her. I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair. "How much do I owe you?" she asked, reaching into her purse. "Nothing," I said. "You have to make a living," she answered. "There are other passengers," I responded. Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug. She held onto me tightly. "You gave an old woman a little moment of joy," she said. "Thank you." I squeezed her hand, then walked into the dim morning light. Behind me, a door shut. It was the sound of the closing of a life. I didn't pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly lost in thought. For the rest of that day, I could hardly talk. What if that woman had gotten an angry driver, or one who was impatient to end his shift? What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away? On a quick review, I don't think that I have done anything more important in my life. We're conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments. But great moments often catch us unaware-beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one. People may not remember exactly what you did, or what you said, but they will always remember how you made them feel.Had Wushu and Silat practice for Racial Harmony. Had plenty of fun joking around. I have forgotten all the steps already, I am just someone who can never remember steps. Hais. My first night study went well, but it could have been better. Did the skeleton for the new PW plan. Was doing Integration until Hafiz came asking for my help for his MOB. It was on PED, at least something manageable at least. Gotten back my Econs and Art results, pass both of them. I am so very disappointed especially for my Econs grade. Never before have I gotten anything less than a B. I guess this is what I get for putting in that minimal effort for Economics and Art. My Art grades are HORRIBLE. I must study so much more harder and do so much more better for my Promos. It is a must!!!
Sunday, July 13, 2008, 9:31:00 PM
The weekends are almost over and I have yet to do anything productive. Night studying starts tomorrow and that means from tomorrow on, its intensive studying. Going to get my H2 results soon, I am in for a big disappointment. Alot of stuff have been going through my mind lately, schoolwork, my future, blah blah blah. I know the answer to the ache of my heart clearly. I know no matter how hard I try to forget him, it is an impossible task. I know that no matter how bad others may think of him, I will never listen. To me, he is someone perfect and special. I really like him alot, I guess.
Saturday, July 12, 2008, 12:56:00 PM
Wohooo!!! I had tons of fun playing touch rugby yesterday. It was awesome. Suddenly, had this craving to play tennis. It has been weeks since I last went onto the court. Should I cycle or play tennis today? Hmm... Anyways I'm left with just one more day to play before I get serious with my books. I have been thinking alot recently, but I am still unable to accept the answers to my questions. Will talk about this another day. The Emperor and The SeedAuthor Unknown.An emperor in the Far East was growing old and knew it was time to choose his successor. Instead of choosing one of his assistants or his children, he decided something different. He called young people in the kingdom together one day. He said, "It is time for me to step down and choose the next emperor. I have decided to choose one of you." The kids were shocked! But the emperor continued. "I am going to give each one of you a seed today. One very special seed. I want you to plant the seed, water it and come back here after one year from today with what you have grown from this one seed. I will then judge the plants that you bring, and the one I choose will be the next emperor!" One boy named Ling was there that day and he, like the others, received a seed. He went home and excitedly told his mother the story. She helped him get a pot and planting soil, and he planted the seed and watered it carefully. Every day he would water it and watch to see if it had grown. After about three weeks, some of the other youths began to talk about their seeds and the plants that were beginning to grow. Ling kept checking his seed, but nothing ever grew. 3 weeks, 4 weeks, 5 weeks went by. Still nothing. By now, others were talking about their plants but Ling didn't have a plant, and he felt like a failure. Six months went by, still nothing in Ling's pot. He just knew he had killed his seed. Everyone else had trees and tall plants, but he had nothing. Ling didn't say anything to his friends, however. He just kept waiting for his seed to grow. A year finally went by and all the youths of the kingdom brought their plants to the emperor for inspection. Ling told his mother that he wasn't going to take an empty pot. But honest about what happened, Ling felt sick to his stomach, but he knew his mother was right. He took his empty pot to the palace. When Ling arrived, he was amazed at the variety of plants grown by the other youths. They were beautiful in all shapes and sizes. Ling put his empty pot on the floor and many of the other kinds laughed at him. A few felt sorry for him and just said, "Hey nice try." When the emperor arrived, he surveyed the room and greeted the young people. Ling just tried to hide in the back. "What great plants, trees and flowers you have grown," said the emperor. "Today, one of you will be appointed the next emperor!" All of a sudden, the emperor spotted Ling at the back of the room with his empty pot. He ordered his guards to bring him to the front. Ling was terrified. "The emperor knows I'm a failure! Maybe he will have me killed!" When Ling got to the front, the Emperor asked his name. "My name is Ling," he replied. All the kids were laughing and making fun of him. The emperor asked everyone to quiet down. He looked at Ling, and then announced to the crowd, "Behold your new emperor! His name is Ling!" Ling couldn't believe it. Ling couldn't even grow his seed. How could he be the new emperor? Then the emperor said, "One year ago today, I gave everyone here a seed. I told you to take the seed, plant it, water it, and bring it back to me today. But I gave you all boiled seeds, which would not grow. All of you, except Ling, have brought me trees and plants and flowers. When you found that the seed would not grow, you substituted another seed for the one I gave you. Ling was the only one with the courage and honesty to bring me a pot with my seed in it. Therefore, he is the one who will be the new emperor!" If you plant honesty, you will reap trust. If you plant goodness, you will reap friends. If you plant humility, you will reap greatness. If you plant perseverance, you will reap victory. If you plant consideration, you will reap harmony. If you plant hard work, you will reap success. If you plant forgiveness, you will reap reconciliation. If you plant openness, you will reap intimacy. If you plant patience, you will reap improvements. If you plant faith, you will reap miracles. But If you plant dishonesty, you will reap distrust. I f you plant selfishness, you will reap loneliness. If you plant pride, you will reap destruction. If you plant envy, you will reap trouble. If you plant laziness, you will reap stagnation. If you plant bitterness, you will reap isolation. If you plant greed, you will reap loss. If you plant gossip, you will reap enemies. If you plant worries, you will reap wrinkles. If you plant sin, you will reap guilt. So be careful what you plant now, It will determine what you will reap tomorrow, The seeds you now scatter, Will make life worse or better, your life or the ones who will come after. Yes, someday, you will enjoy the fruits, or you will pay for the choices you plant today.
Wednesday, July 9, 2008, 7:36:00 PM
Never in my life ever, was there any problems with my Oral Examinations. My language may be poor, but I am still able to manage it. Today, I screwed it up. I am really disappointed at myself. The conversation was not at all difficult and I could answer it. But, my mind decided to give up even before speaking! I didn't even want to give myself the confidence. What happen next was a nightmare. I am going to flunk this exam. :( As expected, I failed my Math Paper. For someone who did not revised math, I am quite happy with my marks. The only fustrating thing is the tons of careless mistakes I made. The Power of Words by Author Unkown A group of frogs were traveling through the woods, and two of them fell into a deep pit. All the other frogs gathered around the pit. When they saw how deep the pit was, they told the two frogs that they were as good as dead. The two frogs ignored the comments and tried to jump up out of the pit with all of their might. The other frogs kept telling them to stop, that they were as good as dead. Finally, one of the frogs took heed to what the other frogs were saying and gave up. He fell down and died. The other frog continued to jump as hard as he could. Once again, the crowd of frogs yelled at him to stop the pain and just die. He jumped even harder and finally made it out. When he got out, the other frogs said, "Did you not hear us?" The frog explained to them that he was deaf. He thought they were encouraging him the entire time. This story gives us thoughts to think about: 1. An encouraging word to someone who is down can encourage them to achieve their goal. 2. A destructive word to someone who is down can have negative effects. Be careful of what you say.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008, 8:18:00 PM
Today was the first time I didn't feel sleepy in any of my classes at all. It must have been the excitement of going back to school and the happy mood of mine. I've got curls again! Promised myself that I won't be so stupid to cut off my curls like the last time. Our class has a new co-form teacher which Darwina and Sabrina adores temporary. Thank god he is our new GP teacher, he is a million times much better than our predicted one. One good news is that I have lost 3kg! The even better and happier news is that I have got an A for Chinese. With my seriously lousy standard in chinese and the super difficult section B paper, to have this mark, I am very happy. It is not everyday that I can see miracles happening for my chinese. Tomorrow is my Chinese Oral and hopefully I'll do well.Here's an inspirational story for you guys to read. Hopefully after reading this you would learn the amount of happiness you have, is how much you want it to be. Whether you want to be happy or not, it is the choice and decision that you make which affects it. It is how you see happiness to be. Each Day Is A Giftby Author Unknown The 92-year-old, petite, well-poised and proud lady, who is fully dressed each morning by eight o'clock, with her hair fashionably coifed and makeup perfectly applied, even though she is legally blind, moved to a nursing home today. Her husband of 70 years recently passed away, making the move necessary. After many hours of waiting patiently in the lobby of the nursing home, she smiled sweetly when told her room was ready. As she maneuvered her walker to the elevator, I provided a visual description of her tiny room, including the eyelet sheets that had been hung on her window. "I love it," she stated with the enthusiasm of an eight-year-old having just been presented with a new puppy. "Mrs. Jones, you haven't seen the room .... just wait." "That doesn't have anything to do with it," she replied. "Happiness is something you decide on ahead of time. Whether I like my room or not doesn't depend on how the furniture is arranged, it's how I arrange my mind. I already decided to love it. It's a decision I make every morning when I wake up. I have a choice; I can spend the day in bed recounting the difficulty I have with the parts of my body that no longer work, or get out of bed and be thankful for the ones that do. Each day is a gift, and as long as my eyes open I'll focus on the new day and all the happy memories I've stored away, just for this time in my life." She went on to explain, "Old age is like a bank account, you withdraw from what you've put in. So, my advice to you would be to deposit a lot of happiness in the bank account of memories Thank you for your part in filling my Memory bank. I am still depositing." And with a smile, she said: "Remember the five simple rules to be happy: 1. Free your heart from hatred. 2. Free your mind from worries. 3. Live simply. 4. Give more. 5. Expect less."
Monday, July 7, 2008, 10:37:00 AM
I am down with high fever. Its been some time that I ever had it that terrible. My whole body was aching, especially my legs and I was shivering throughout. But I am feeling so much better now after taking my medicine and a good night rest. Realised that I will always fall sick right before school starts. I went cycling on Saturday at ECP again with my family and Aunty Anna. It was awesome! I am going to do it again this Saturday. I can't wait for the meteor showers season to come again. I am not going to miss it this year. Went to Jean Yip yesterday, halfway through I started shivering and by the time I was back home I already had a high fever. I had to cancel the bowling session with Darwina and Yimin today and was suppose to join the SC's in the afternoon for some soccer activities too. Too bad for me for falling sick at the wrong time. Now I am going to spend my whole day at home resting, finishing my EOM and start on my Population Geofiles. I have been skipping plenty of my meals recently. Its either I am in no appetite otherwise I am too tired that I can't even hear anyone calling me up for dinner and by the time I wake up, they have already finished dinner. ==" So bad right. Hahas. Nevermind at least I have lost some weight. I need to lose somemore weight!! Hahas.
Thursday, July 3, 2008, 10:33:00 PM
I am fucking pissed today! And when my prohibited word comes out, it seriously means I am angry. It is the end of my exams, should'nt I be feeling happy, relieved, or whatever word you can use to describe. But I am not happy at all, in fact I feel worst! I am not going to blog those things out here and dampen my mood further. Sabrina and Darwina thanks for always being there for me whenever I needed a listening ear. Just now after Art paper, I made my way down to Cityhall to meet up with Darwina and Yimin. We had our dinner at Gluttons Bay and finally savouring our ice cream waffles from Gelare. It has been almost a year since I last saw Yimin. Had lots of fun talking to her, except sorry that I wasn't in my usual mood. Guess it must have been the tiredness from the Art paper. During our waffles date, I suddenly talked to them that I want to live a simple life. I don't need riches, status,the perfect job nor comfort in the future. I want to have a farm house in a countryside, far away from the city. In my farm I will rear my own animals, grow my own vegetables and fruit trees. Behind my farm there will be the picturesque mountains that will constantly put me in awe by its magnificent beauty. In between the mountains and the farm, there lies a never-ending river. My only riches are the diamonds that hangs on the dark clear skies. Every night, I will lie on the grass, look up the clear dark blue sky and read the stars. During days when I am free, I will teach the poor children how to read and fill them with knowledge through amazing stories of this world. As and when I like, I will leave my farm in the care of friends and travel around the world, exploring new places and creating new stories to tell to this children. This is my dream, my pursuit of happiness.I will work hard for this dream of mine and when it happens, I hope prince charming will be in it too. Prince Charming doesn't have to be charming at all, he has to be a guy who will always be there for me, he has to be a guy who shares the same dream as me. He must be a great lover of nature, we will grow our own plants and take care of the animals together. We will travel to places and teach the poor children. We will laugh, cry and be angry together. He must be a guy who is contented with just the simplicity of life. And every night when I will lie on his arms reading the stars together, my heart will says: "He is that guy, that will love me forever." & I will love that one guy who is different from all the rest forever too. This is my pursuit of happiness. It will happen one day. (:
Wednesday, July 2, 2008, 7:47:00 PM
Feels like I'm falling back into sleep again. I am so tired! I only caught 2 hours of sleep last night thanks to Geography. I am glad, the whole exams nightmare is almost over. I screwed GP, Chinese, Maths, Geography and Economics. What can one expect from last minute studying. Looking back if there is one subject that I will regret most not studying is Maths. Tomorrow is Art, I must do well. I can't wait for the waffles at gelare, the Zoo outing on Monday and more cycling at ECP. I can't wait for the night studies programme to start again, had lots of fun studying together with classmates last year. I not only have to start on my Maths, but also catch up on my other subjects already. It is a sad thing that my study mood came too late for Mid-Years. Hahas. I really don't know what else to blog for today. Its been a long time since I last wrote anything inspirational. I better get myself inspired ASAP. Hahas. Heres something I haven't posted up here for a long long time: Inspirational Poem!!!Hope it will inspire you in some way or another. Enjoy reading. (:24 things to always rememberYour presence is a present to the world.You are unique and one of a kind.Your life can be what you want it to be.Take the days just one at a time. Count your blessings, not your troubles.You will make it through whatever comes along.Within you are so many answers.Understand, have courage, be strong. Do not put limits on yourself.So many dreams are waiting to be realized.Decisions are too important to leave to chance.Reach for your peak, your goal and you prize. Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets.Do not take things too seriously.Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets. Remember that a little love goes a long way.Remember that a lot … goes forever.Remember that friendship is a wise investment.Life’s treasure are people together. Realize that it is never too late.Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.Have hearth and hope and happiness.Take the time to wish upon a start. AND DO NOT EVER FORGET ….FOR EVEN A DAYHOW VERY SPECIAL YOU ARE !
Tuesday, July 1, 2008, 10:32:00 PM
Wish I never did remember anything at all. It hurts badly everytime I do.Can't those memories be erased?Can't those hurt be overwrited?It took so long for me to find myself back again,Those smiles that I once lost, are back on my face. I don't want to start falling back into the past.I hate him,She is searching for me,When will this story come to an end?I have moved on, You should too.I just want to be happy.Is that so difficult? Qiao Ying, I need your help now. Only you understand what this whole thing is about. :(
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