There wasn't anymore reason.
Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very dark, but there were stars — points of light and reason.
And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.
Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty.
When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black.
Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.
I couldn't see the stars anymore.
And there was no more reason for anything.
- Edward Cullen to Bella.
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Friday, October 30, 2009, 11:24:00 PM
Two days back, I decided to dig out the old photo albums to reminisce the past. Along the way, I decided to snap some pictures to share with you guys. Since it was snapped straight from the photo albums itself, there will be unclear pictures (And No, there aren't any pictures of little grace in her bathing suit). But, that shouldn't be a problem right; who could resist the super duper cute Little Grace. Even I can't stop admiring myself. HAHAS! Okays, enough of nonsense. Lets begin the displays of Nostalgia. It's a wonder how little grace had been learning how to swim since 2 and still yet not know how to do so. And this was the one memory that I can still remember so clearly. It was my first time being lost by the pool side. Don't you miss those free-spirited days of your life? The innocence of a child. This is what I call genuine HAPPINESS. Love this picture. All play and no work makes little grace a happy girl! Love the dress. :D Possibly a year old? Don't you feel a sense of nostalgia yourself? Thankfully, I have plenty of pictures to remind me of such beautiful moments of my life. Life's a funny thing. It never stays constant. As time passes, everything will change. Tomorrow will never be the same as what it is today. We don't know what lies ahead of us, but be it sufferings or happiness it is a person's perspective on their lives that makes all the difference. All it takes for a happy person to lose sight of who they are is when they start viewing their lives negatively. And all it takes for a person suffering to be the most fortunate person in the world, is when they stay appreciating life. I have much to learn from this aspect. But despite all the unluckiness life throws at me, I still think I am the luckiest girl in the whole wide world. Because, I have a loving family, great friends and a beautiful life. All these are God sent. (: And Happy Halloween. :D
Wednesday, October 28, 2009, 11:16:00 AM
The A levels is SO CLOSE! Can't deny that I am already feeling all the before exam jitters, all the worrying and plenty of 'what ifs' in my head. Earlier this year, I confidently told myself I could get 3 As. Now, I can't help but to doubt myself that the As are a little to far fetch for me and then, I kept lowering my own targeted grades. But what the hell am I doing, no matter what happens, I really should have a wee bit of confidence in myself right? I should never underestimate myself. Hopefully I keep this in my head and not start doubting myself again later, tomorrow or the days after. 'Because you believe in me, that's why I believe too.'
Monday, October 26, 2009, 10:35:00 PM
When you love someone, you should treat them the way that words can't explain. Just some RANDOM thought! :)
EVERYDAY I LOVE YOU.I don't know, but I believe That some things are meant to be And that you'll make a better me Everyday I love you I never thought that dreams came true But you showed me that they do You know that I learn something new Everyday I love you 'Cos I believe that destiny Is out of our control (don't you know that I do) And you'll never live until you love With all your heart and soul. It's a touch when I feel bad It's a smile when I get mad All the little things I am Everyday I love you Everyday I love you boy Everyday I love you 'Cos I believe that destiny Is out of our control (don't you know that I do) And you'll never live until you love With all your heart and soul If I asked would you say yes? Together we're the very best I know that I am truly blessed Everyday I love you And I'll give you my best Everyday I love you
Saturday, October 17, 2009, 11:19:00 PM
I do not know if you all know this, but I am just going to say it anyway.I am afraid to be alone. Loneliness is second to my fear for death. I am afraid of losing everyone I love so much one day, life just wouldn't be the same anymore. That is why, every single birthday, I would make the one very wish to God for him not to take them away from me. I am afraid to show my true feelings. I don't know how to express my inner thoughts. Especially with things concerning me. Many of you may know this about me, so you try to take the first step asking me what is wrong and all. And most of the time, you would just end up getting a vague answer from me, or a nevermind, or a I don't know. I do it to make myself less vulnerable to problems in the future. But look, I am trying right now. Freedom used to be all that I ever wanted. I am not someone to be 'limited'. But now, when I'm nineteen, having all the freedom I could have, it just doesn't feel right anymore. Sometimes, I just want to be a little girl, having my daddy and mummy at the side caring for me, looking out for me. To receive hugs from my mummy every single night, hearing them telling me they love me and me telling them "I love them too". I miss all the "sayang-ness" I got from them when I was sad. When I still a little girl, I used to want to grow up faster. But now, when I'm grown up, I keep telling myself why did I have to grow up so soon. Inside, I don't trust anyone easily. I know how painful it feels to be betrayed by my own good friends. From that day onwards, I learnt that nothing lasts forever. So I stop trusting as a pre emptive approach to protect myself from future hurt. This is also the reason why I find it difficult to express my inner self to others. But when I start trusting and opening up myself, you would wish I wouldn't. When it comes to love, I don't know what to say. When you experience the situation where "the last four times you ever loved somebody, they ended up loving your good friends", then you would probably understand a little of how painful of an experience it had been. Coincidence, maybe? So when you don't have any confidence in yourself, don't love. Life always goes on. And I am becoming to like the sound of being thirty but still single and unavailable. Afterall it's the 21st century, I don't need a man to survive. I can be my own prince. But like The Fray's sings 'Never say never'. Okays, five is enough for today. I don't want you to be overshock by all the confessions of the real me. So till another time, goodnight.
Thursday, October 8, 2009, 10:36:00 PM
If I walk would you run If I stop would you come If I say you're the one would you believe me If I ask you to stay would you show me the way Tell me what to say so you don't leave me The world is catching up to you While your running away to chase your dream It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change And maybe I'm not ready But I'm trying for your love I can hide up above I will try for your love We've been hiding enough If I sing you a song would you sing along Or wait till I'm gone, oh how we push and pull If I give you my heart would you just play the part Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful Am I catching up to you While your running away, to chase your dreams It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change And maybe I'm not ready I may be unhappy with myself for all the silly careless mistakes that caused me so many marks. BUT! I am grateful enough for my Geography and Economics results. It could have been worse.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009, 9:11:00 PM
If you put in the right ingrediants, you can create rainbows with your bare hands too. :) Remember at the end of the rainbow, there lies a pot of gold- whatever your dreams are, that is gold.
Monday, October 5, 2009, 10:20:00 PM
I had been studying and am going to do that till 25 November. This is the first time I am trying so hard to reach my dream. That one time that would determine the rest of my life- Who I'm going to be, What I'm going to be, Where I'm going to be? And how am I going to live the rest of my life. So, jiayou to me! and to everyone else! :) Guess, I would probably be on hiatus here. Take cares people!
Thursday, October 1, 2009, 10:12:00 PM
Okays as promised, but kept very simple. Yesterday, Munirah planned a Seoul Garden outing to celebrate Hong's and Zhen Yi's birthday. Beside us there was Muneera and Wei Liang. Since it is Seoul Garden, we ate so much. Then we played bowling, took plenty of pictures at the rooftop of The Esplanade, and it ended with Wei Liang bringing us to sample moon cake. My feet were hurting from all the walk by the end, but it was very exciting. Thanks Munirah for inviting! :D And that was the summary of yesterday. Now lets talk about today. SCHOOL IS A BORE, well and it ALWAYS will be. I became friends with Mr. All Bluff One, and it all started with him asking me during night study if I was studying Geography. Then we started talking about the ineffiencies of that teachers, saying that they should do for us sample essays or even give us the answers to all the other JCs papers, like he does for his students. In his sense- it makes the student feels 'complete'. It is no surprise that the A level passing rate for Geography had fallen so much. I guess you could call it the MI culture; even the teachers has it too, you know.
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