There wasn't anymore reason.
Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very dark, but there were stars — points of light and reason.
And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.
Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty.
When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black.
Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.
I couldn't see the stars anymore.
And there was no more reason for anything.
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Tuesday, January 29, 2008, 9:56:00 PM
Jack of all trades, master of none.
Its 5 days to my birthday and 4 days to the celebration and I have yet to order the food. I have plenty of stuffs to clear but yet I am just lazing around. Can anyone just slap me awake. Today, I received a call from one of the teachers to join a oratorical compeition, and I joined! I seem to be joining so many things and yet not putting in any effort for any. However, doubt I could make it into the 20 participants they need. I am just trying it out, and hopefully I am not that lucky, afterall I have speaking problems. Common test is in less than 2 weeks time and I have got so much catching up work to do. Apparently, this common test seems really important to me and I must do well. Tomorrow I have got the last geography training session on the GIS system and after that I guess our group will start getting busy with the project work. Hopefully I can stay wide awake for tomorrow lecture on the GIS system. That lady is seriously boring!
Sunday, January 27, 2008, 9:11:00 PM
Footprints
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonged to him, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life. This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I havenoticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand and why when I needed you most you would leave me." The Lord replied," My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."Today's post will be a little different, I want to share what I learned from church yesterday. I had the honour of listening to Rev. Dr. A.R. Bernard preaching yesterday, he is one of the most influential man in the US. Its no wonder why I am being influenced too. I was very sleepy when he first started out his preaching, but by the end I was so interested in what he was speaking that I was at the edge of my chairs. He spoke about how Jesus's disciples didnt have the capacity to understand Jesus at all, which was really funny, he spoke about the holy spirit. His preaching was God sent, every single questioned, every single doubt I asked Carolyn before church was answered. " Christianity and other religions have nothing wrong, but one thing that set us apart from the other religions is that Buddhist believes that buddha is dead, the jews believes that Moses is dead, the muslims believes that Muhammed is dead, but we christians believes that Jesus is alive, we believe in a living person!" This is one thing he said that woke me up and its like the lightbulb effect where you finally understand something. Yes, we believe in a living person, a person who walks with us as long as we accept him. We are not bound by laws and rules like other religion. Another thing I learn is that the disciples were told by Jesus that when the holy spirits comes, they will recieve power and be witness, for they will be power. It was really an enlightening experience yesterday, and I can't wait to learn more about Jesus.
Friday, January 25, 2008, 9:27:00 PM
Dear darlings, Its one more week to my birthday. I have been thinking about my birthay wish for quite sometime, and every single year without fail I will always be wishing for everyone except myself. This year I want to make a birthday wish just for myself and today I finally thought of what I will be wishing in one week time and you shan't know what it is, afterall its a wish. Hahas. I don't know what I want for my birthday presents, basically I have everything that I could ask for, except for prince charming. Since I myself am puzzled with my own presents, don't ask me what I want unless you want to bring me prince charming. Afterall its the thought that counts! Its one more day before I go to Jean Yip and change my hairstyle. I'm kind of hestitating now, cause after I changed by center parting it looks much better, should I even go perm my hair? Hmmm... I am definitely going to get contact lenses, even though I am afraid of wearing one. Who cares! Fear can be conquered! LOLS. I was in a really bad mood today, don't even know why. Today is just a sucky day. I want monday to come quick!
Wednesday, January 23, 2008, 8:09:00 PM
I found the perfect one.
Dear darlings, Finally I am blogging again even though I am very sleepy and tired now. Lets start with last saturday event. Last Saturday Group outing didn't have a good response with only 7 turning up, but despite the small number, we had lots of fun together. Everyone was suppose to reach at 11am at City Hall interchange, but we only left the interchange after 1 hour and it was one of the rare times which I am early for meetings. We went to Marina Square to bowl, being it a saturday, it was surprising to see so little people at the shopping centre, I wonder why. We played for two games and we heard kelvin's really 'interesting' drunk story. Hahas. But thanks to Kelvin and Luke, the ice starting breaking and we turned into crazy people. By the mid-second game I doubt anyone was interested in bowling anymore and we were more into the really weired and crazy talks we were having. Hahas. Then we had lunch at the foodcourt, and we spent almost the whole afternoon siting there and chit-chatting. We went to the esplanade library after that, as I needed to search for some piano scores. While I was busy searching for scores, the girls had some heart to heart talk with Kelvin, which ended up with him being embarressed. Hahas. We did crazy things like taking the plastic bags for umbrellas and blowing it up and hitting like crazy people. We also went around plucking those furry stuffs from trees and throwing at people. Hahas. Lastly we went to catch a movie, 27 dresses. Its been such a long time since I last watch any movies and 27 dresses is a good show! You got to catch it! On monday, I FELL AGAIN! Whats up with the falling thing every week! This time its at the stairs outside the art room! I wonder where will the next venue be, its like I have been cursed! I was late for school yesterday and that means detention for me. Hahas! Today went for a geog training on GIS at SLA. It was BORING, the most boring geog class I have ever in my life. I was so close to lala land, but the part where we get to use the computer and try out the skills was enjoyable, and that means we could name parts of Singapore as we want! And a guy placed tuas and yishun right next to Bukit Batok! I wonder what if Bedok was there. Well, I can keep dreaming. I have got another session next wednesday, isit a yeah or a boo? I was like one crazy girl in class today, telling lame jokes to Darwina. The joke about the alien and the predators made her laugh, which I don't know why and she didnt laugh at the realli funny ones. We have weired sense of humour. LOLS. My once upon ideal prince charming is a person with amazing personaility and looks don't count at all, cause everyone deserve to be given a chance. But, now, looks do matter a little bit and I have become a little more fussier. Thought I could never find my prince charming after whatever that has happened in the past, thought I could never love again and don't want to anymore. This love thing struck me so suddenly and I am still figuring whether if it is infatuation or not? Or is it I am trying so hard to push someone irritating away that I just have to resort to such methods. But I like him and thats for sure. Its been so long since I last felt this way, so is this a good thing or does it spells trouble for me again? No wonder people always says a girl in love is always the happiest. Don't bother asking me who it is, I won't say.
Friday, January 18, 2008, 7:36:00 PM
I have fallen; hope it's true this time.
Dear darlings, I fell yesterday AGAIN down the stairs, but it isn't as bad as the one in the canteen. My falling rate is seriously high. I wonder next where will it be? Finally it's friday! Hahas. I MUST wake up early tomorrow morning and go for tuition before I meet my PAE kids for a bowling outing. Hopefully we will have plenty of fun. Since last week I have been practicing on a new piano song and I finally finished the right hand, now I am left to figure out the notes for the left hand. Hopefully I can find that score at the esplanade library so I would'nt have such a hard time figuring the notes. I so do not like HIM, so Darwy, Sabby and Carolyn, don't play play already. Later the situation become worst. Hahas. I am very happy, enthu, joyful, blah blah blah today! One reason is because the weekends are here, and the other reason is because of a secret which only Darwina and Sabrina will know! Ahahas. How I so wish my economics class is with my own classmates! ArgHhhh. Of all times I just have to be in the seperate class. I pray that the decision made will not be wrong this time round; guess I have fallen really deep. & it will be a dream come true.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008, 4:14:00 PM
efforts
Dear darlings, Ever since school started all my blog post are all about stress, more stress, and even more stress. I didn't go to school today, and that means I had missed out on my beloved geography and mathematics lessons. I will be having plenty of rest today, as I wan't to be cured of my sickness once and for all. I have been fatigue ever since school started, so hopefully today's rest would help. I started revising for my geography test a couple of hours ago, and hopefully I will be able to absorbed the information into my already mentally strained brain. To tell the truth, I may be good in geography, but I am kind of worried on tomorrow's test. It has been around 3 months since I last did geography, therefore my format of writing is kind of messy in my brain right now. I can't deny that for this test I want an A, and I can't allow any disappointment. Whats more its my favourite subject plus my favourite topics. With common test 1 month away and right after chinese new year which means I will be having my holiday in GuangZhou, I can't really study last minute. Who would want to study after my birthday and on my holiday, so I jolly well have to start now! I have decided to put in plenty of efforts from today onwards no matter how tough it will take. I will presevere and push myself further. I will not be disturbed by the computer. It is time for me to wake up from my holiday mood and put in effort, cause I really need to do well this year. With all the tests and homeworks going on, I seem to have forgotten about god again. It has been so long since I went to church and my faith has started to sway. Hopefully I can strengthen it again despite all the disturbance going on around me.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008, 9:08:00 PM
Year 2008 = poor health for me?
Dear darlings, School is as usual really stressful, and common test is 1 month away. I had trouble concentrating in classes today due to a bad flu. I was "sobbing" throughout the whole time in school. I started this year off with fever and a bad sore throat that lasted up till today. Then I lost my voice during the PAE orientation camp and right now I caught a bad flu. The year 2008 just don't seem to like me. Nothing besides studying happened in school today, and my brain is too stress and tired out to think of any interesting stuff to blog. Wishing school will be better, cause I am so hating school right now.
Sunday, January 13, 2008, 11:44:00 PM
STRESS attributes my bad mood!
Dear darlings, It is like the 3rd week of school and it feels like the mid year examinations like that! And I wonder why the teachers just love giving surprise test this year. I hate economics so much right now, I just can't think on the macro scale cause I don't even know how to! My economics homework has given me such a big headache yesterday, and even though I have completed it, it is still a chunk of bullshit rubbish that I have still yet to understand. Whats more I am going to have a Economic test on some rubbish which no matter how hard I try to squeeze it into my brain it still will never make sense. I wonder why? Geography test revision is not as big a problem as Economics, but this year topic is kind of hard for me to understand. I guess my brain has turned smaller thats why I just can't understand any shit I've learnt so far! Don't you find it irritating when no matter how much effort you put in to understand, your brain would just do so otherwise. Sooner or later I will go crazy. All these irriating stuff attributes my moodiness. Its like stress=moodines without fail. And boy, I can have a really bad temper when it comes knocking! The fustration is killing me!I hate fickle-minded-ness( if there's such a word). Its makes me feel like I am being fooled around especially when my shitty attitude is out! I hate being a forgiving person, all I get in return is to be taken for granted. I hate pretending to smile as if everything is alright, like as if smiling can make everything alright. I really need a shout and slaps to make me wake up!JUST HOW LONG IS MY BRAIN GOING TO SLEEP , I HAVETONS OF WORK WAITING TO BE UNDERSTOOD! Just how long would I be fooled enough? I am crazy, mad, whatever~
Friday, January 11, 2008, 7:36:00 PM
Dear darlings, I am so sleepy and STRESSED, even though it is only the second day of school. This weekend will be so busy for me, I have tons of homework to complete and 2 tests to study(geography and economics). Maths common test chapters are Functions, Differentiation and Integration, I am so thankful as these are my better chapters as compared to like logarithems. Its about 1 more month to common test and I can hardly find any time to revise. Whats worst is that after common test is the JAE orientation and that means at that period I will be juggling between tests and orientation planning. OH NO! Right now I am starting to fear the grades of my subjects dropping and my parents will 'kill' me. p.s I am so caught up with school till I don't even have time for any other activities, so blog entries will be related to school for quite some time. I also don't have the time to write inspiring posts right now. So Bye!
Wednesday, January 9, 2008, 10:20:00 PM
Dear darlings, School is tiring till sometimes I find it so hard to keep myself awake. Tomorrow first 4 periods are the most boring, hais. My parents have given the green light for me to hold my birthday bash! I am so happy, even though they still won't let me hold it at home as my mum will have to clean up the house. We don't have a maid, poor us. But who cares, its my 18th birthday and I am going to have loads of fun! Will update you guys on it. I practically too tired to think of anymore things to post up, so bye!
Monday, January 7, 2008, 9:00:00 PM
Dear darlings, I have been too lazy this few days to update my blog with latest news. Last week was spent going through the pre u 1 orientation and ended up with me gaining a sexy voice! The 2nd day of orientation was madness, it was so unlike the first day where everyone was so quiet. It was very tiring for us as even after the orientation finish, we even had debrief and the 2nd day debrief ended almost close to 12AM! Luckily for that 3 days I camp in school. By the end of the orientation I was so tired that I slept so early and didn't wake up till the next morning. But I love flintstones so much, especially my orientation group. It was a very enjoyable to have them around. Yesterday, I finally went tuition again after one month and I didn't even know how to answer a single question! I am so like dead for the H1 A lvl examintions this year. Then after tuition went to visit my grandparents. Today was officially the start of school for me. Geography lessons are always interesting! Surprisingly GP lessons are interesting too; maybe because the topic for this term is science and religion and I am kind of interested in it. Mrs Ng even taught us how to do an essay in debating format which I think it will kind of help me organise my points in debating classes too and debating for GP lessons are like so cool larh! I am going to learn alot of things this year, and I am so not going to fail my GP. Economics wasn't as bad as I thought of, but the class is so SUPER NOISY and I can't concentrate. I guess it will be soon that I will start losing interest in it. Art lessons are boring and I am so definitely going to hate my Chinese lessons cause I hate that chinese teacher. He speaks with so much slang that I don't even understand what he is talking about! GRRRRR! HAIS! I don't know what to type already and this is one of the unorganised and poor english post I have written, so just pardon me. Bye!
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