Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very dark, but there were stars — points of light and reason.
And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.
Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty.
When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black.
Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.
I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.
- Edward Cullen to Bella.
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Wednesday, September 30, 2009, 10:45:00 PM
Celebrate Yan Hong's birthday with classmates today. But I will give an update on this another time. Today I want to blog about something else.
I don't know about you. But every time I read about a natural disaster happening anywhere in the world, my passion to major in geography just burns stronger than ever. Not because natural disasers has nothing to do with economics (well, besides the costs it brings about from all the damage). Nor is it because I want to know how mother nature works her way. But because I want to help people; I want to save their lives.
I want to educate people how to read the signs of an impending disaster. I want to teach people how to respond to a disaster. Earthquakes, Tsunamis, Volcano eruptions, Floodings, Typhoons don't just occur suddenly. They do have signs to warn the people about its impending arrival. It is the people's unawareness, unpreparedness that makes it a disaster.
I have known for my entire life that my ambition was to help people. I can never be a doctor, a nurse, nor a vet. But I can be a teacher. And no matter how much criticism, how much more people telling me that I cannot do it, I DON'T CARE! It is my dream and I will make it come true.
Because I believe in myself, I want to help others. And above all else, I have faith in God.
Friday, September 25, 2009, 7:28:00 PM
Added another blog song. 'Blame it on the girls' by Mika. You must hear Mika's new album. TOTALLY AWESOME. His music sounds old school, BUT with a modern twist in it! Really good music.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009, 11:03:00 PM
Just changed blog song again. Now it's called "Boysboysboys" by Lady Gaga.
Before this, I had been contemplating alot whether I should blog today. And I guess you should know whats the answer.
Today was one hell of a busy day for me. Lets begin from the start. I slept very early last night with the thought in mind that I would wake up at 4am this morning and revise my work again. But God thought otherwise. I ended up sleeping through 3 alarms and had to be woken up my mother. In the midst of all the rush, I just kept feeling how I wasn't prepared for my papers at all and that I should give the papers a miss. But, I did it.
Geography and Economics in the same day is a killer. My hands are so tired from all the writing and doubt I have any brain cells left in me. What's even better is, today is my A level coursework submission. Three H2's in a day is madness. But I feel so very relieved getting the burden of my shoulder. It's like I could finally breathe.
My next paper would be next Tuesday and that would be my SOVA. I'm planning to sudy for it. I can screw up my other H2 subjects but for Art, after all the time and effort I had put in, screwing that paper up is just not worth it at all. Till then I am going to catch up with all the beauty sleep I can get and read a book! Hahas.
I want to go for a run tomorrow! :D
Tuesday, September 22, 2009, 1:47:00 AM
Wish I knew how to play my blog music on the piano. Oh wells, I could try learning it. Only after my middle finger has healed from the cut. Okays, please don't blame me for this very short post. You see, twitting comes with a bad effect.
Monday, September 14, 2009, 10:34:00 PM
Aww... Mr Photographer, you just made my heart skip a beat again.
Isn't it great to be crushing on someone whom you don't really know and may never know. This may sound a tad too crazy but just think about it- It gives them no chances to hurt you and you can just continue to live in your own delusional world.
Friday, September 11, 2009, 12:13:00 AM
Reports of dolphins killings are coming up again. Sometimes I wonder, is it just part and parcel of nature's survival of the fittest, or just us. You tell me.
Finished my canvas! I am so halfway relieved. I'm left with the assembling of my Rubik's cube and 8 preparatory boards with 13 more days to go.
I had a random thought just now-"Anyone can know what my Art is about; but how many can actually see my Art and yet truly understands the feelings beneath all the paint and charcoal?" Don't know if I had said this before, but this is the first time I am doing an Art influenced by MY LIFE, not the facade of my life. Okays, I am so sleepy. Need to catch up on all my 'lost' beauty sleep. Tomorrow is going to be an extremely long day of studying and of course, I want to catch a movie before my exams kickstart next week. Because like the proverb says "All work and no play, makes Jack a dull boy!"
Wednesday, September 9, 2009, 9:59:00 PM
I just needed to blog to remember today. By the way if you still haven't notice, it's 090909. Anyways, I completed my ENTIRE canvas painting! HAHAS! So now, I am left with my Rubik's cube and a whole lot of touching up to go. 2 more weeks to deadline!
Tuesday, September 8, 2009, 9:34:00 PM
When someone close to you keeps hurting you so much, there will come a point in time where you just have to let it go. Be it because you want to protect yourself or even just because you can't accept the other's flaw, nothing will ever change the way it is.
Yesterday, was the last straw. You know the kind of sadness where your heart aches so much, where you felt so certain that trust doesn't exists and that you just could stop your tears from coming. I just knew, I couldn't accept your sorry and forgive you anymore.
I was extremely angry with you for the whole of today. Angry because I allowed myself to be used time and time again. Angry because I never once talked to you about any of this. Angry because I tried so hard to please you and yet still failed in the end. I'm sure fate has a reason why we ended up this way.
So thank you, but goodbye to my first BestFriend Forever.
fking fustrated, fking angry, fking pissed!ARGH! From the way I see how I'm tolerating my anger into one giant mass inside me, I might one day erupt like a volcano. Why can't I just go cry, scream or anything, just to get this ball of fustration out of me.
Friday, September 4, 2009, 8:50:00 PM
Regarding yesterday post, I know a portion of the wordings had been cut out due to the oversize video. But you guys could still navigate it by highlighting the words towards the right to read it.
What can I say about today's GP exam. I'm speechless, except I know that I made a wrong essay choice again! When will I ever made a correct choice? My running nose is still running like tap water, and it gets even worse in air conditioned room. But at least I feel much better right now. Don't even know if it's my sinus acting up again or just another throat infection thanks to all the chilli I have been eating.
I had a talk session with the principle today because of my attendance. What I find most appalling is that when the hell did I ever clock in more than 4 'without valid reason' leave just for this term alone. In fact, the only 'without valid reason' leave I could think of would be yesterday!
Anyways, yesterday I watched this video about a filipino girl, Charrise dueting with Celine Dion. It is kind of touching, but the main point here is that she has AMAZING vocals. Hear it when you're free.
I haven't watched the film, only the trailer. But after watching this heart wrenching trailer on how the Japanese kill the dolphins just for money, I just had to blog this out to share it with you guys.
The Cove is a documentary film showing light on the CRUELTY and HEARTLESSNESS of humans. In particular, in Taiji, Japan. If you have read the recent Sunday times Newspaper, there was also a similar article on dolphins captivity. What's even worst is that the Japanese don't know that this is happening in their own land. Because the cove, in which these killings are done are blocked off from the rest of the world. And so to say that the only people that can access this area in Taiji are the 'murderers!'
Not only that, they sell these dolphin meats to the japanese as whale meat. If you didn't know, dolphin meat contains high level of mercury. By consuming it, it is as good as consuming poison. Can you believe it?!? Not only do this 'murderers' kills the dolphins, they are even a hazard to humans' lives!
This documentary is showing at only two Golden village cinemas- Plaza Singapura and Vivo city. I suppose that its run time is ending soon. So I'm urging you guys to catch this film, I'm going to catch it too. I've read reviews of this film and they are excellent. And if you are still worrying about the quality of the film, 'The Cove' is the winner of the audiences award at the Sundance Film Festival 2009.
What I want to say is that watching this film doesn't have to mean because it is good, but because you have the heart to care about the dolphins. One by one are being killed for as long as this is stopped by some governing body. To do that, you need to spread the word around, let the clueless people all around the world know what is happening. We have to let them know that the dolphins shows all around the world are not just entertainment but also cruelty towards them.
Imagine, you were that one dolphin captured for some show, losing all the freedom you once had. Living under the scrutiny of the people that you wouldn't even harm. Loving that very being that had captured you.
Imagine, you were that one innocent, friendly, young dolphin living in the cove, who has so much more to live for before you know it, a spear appears.......
We all know that dolphins would never harm us. So what are you going to do after this? Are you going to sit around or Save the dolphins?
Tuesday, September 1, 2009, 5:20:00 PM
Won movie tickets to "I love you, Beth Cooper" for later tonight. Not really aniticipating it at all. I'm guessing it's just another lousy kind of film. Who knows it may surprise me with a good plot. I haven't been studying since the weekends. Just felt I needed a break and have a life somehow. And by the way, I'm on twitter! (somehow.)