There wasn't anymore reason.
Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very dark, but there were stars — points of light and reason.
And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.
Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty.
When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black.
Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.
I couldn't see the stars anymore.
And there was no more reason for anything.
- Edward Cullen to Bella.
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Friday, March 28, 2008, 10:25:00 PM
28 March is here again. Compared to one year ago, I feel so much more happier today. During this whole one year I spent having my heart locked up, forcing myself to focus on anything else except love. I did not believe in love anymore. I spent the whole time learning how to move on while hating myself for being true to love ALWAYS without fail.
Today, I have already opened my heart and started to learn how to love again...........And I seriously think I should continue typing this post tomorrow. I have been thinking for 1 hour and I only have written this much. Guess its because I'm very tired and sleepy right now. Nights! Hahas.I promised to write this post, but its really difficult for me to continue where I have stopped. So lets move on.
Thursday, March 27, 2008, 10:19:00 PM
Everything is going wrong these few days. Today I left school at 6.15pm and I only reached home at 9.20PM! Whats more I took 506 home today. Nevermind me being stuck in the jam for around 1 1/2 hr, but as we reached Toa Payoh, the bus just have to break down! I needed to get my passport picture so I took a bus from Toa Payoh all the way to a few stops down my house. Everything was back to normal, until I took the Correct bus BUT WRONG DIRECTION! God knows why there is the same bus going in 2 different directions! Got off the next stop and I made sure this time I get back home in one piece. My wonderful 3 hours adventure today huh! I am so sad that I can't join for the china trip anymore. Its not as if I choose to withdraw from it, I was not even given a choice to choose for myself all thanks to the last minute entry to Pre-U seminar. HAIS, so disappointed.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008, 8:59:00 PM
I am tired, I am stressed, I am having terrible headaches, that I wish I could just disappear. With the amount of homework piling non-stop, the g.i.s competition nearing its deadline, decisions to make and just today I recieved a phone call to participate in Pre-U Seminar, it is totally craziness! I have yet to even start on my H1 Mathametics A level revision. I am everythink behind time! Because of the last minute Pre-U Seminar think, I might not even be able to go for the China trip anymore! ARGH! I seriously am an UNLUCKY GIRL! My whole term 2 will all be commitments in projects and MORE PROJECTS! My head is hurting terribly, I just want to burst into tears. I don't know how am I to manage all of these stuff. I seriously just wish time could just stand still even if it will only be for a minute. I just want to close my eyes and forget everything. I am finally willing to learn a new piano piece. It is my blog's background piano music. Hopefully I can play as well as the original one day, afterall I am pretty bad at piano. Playing the piano helps my mind to be more calm and I am so going to do that right now. I seriously need a break.
Monday, March 24, 2008, 10:20:00 PM
I don't know how to express what I am feeling right now, but whatever it is IT SUCKS!I will leave you guys to read a story that I have posted repeatedly onto my blog. I just love this story alot. A farmer had some puppies he needed to sell. He painted a sign advertising the 4 pups. And set about nailing it to a post on the edge of his yard. As he was driving the last nail into the post, he felt a tug on his overalls. He looked down into the eyes of little boy. "Mister," he said, "I want to buy one of your puppies." "Well," said the farmer, as he rubbed the sweat off the back of his neck, "These puppies come from fine parents and cost a good deal of money." The boy dropped his head for a moment. Then reaching deep into his pocket, he pulled out a handful of change and held it up to the farmer. "I've got thirty-nine cents. Is that enough to take a look?" "Sure," said the farmer. And with that he let out a whistle. "Here, Dolly!" he called Out from the doghouse and down the ramp ran Dolly followed by four little balls of fur. The little boy pressed his face against the chain linkfence. His eyes danced with delight.As the dogs made their way to the fence, the little boy noticed something else??stirring inside the doghouse. Slowly another little ball appeared, this one noticeably smaller. Down the ramp it slid Then in a somewhat awkward manner, the little pup began hobbling toward the others, doing its best to catch up.... "I want that one," the little boy said, pointing to the runt. The farmer knelt down at the boy's side and said, "Son, you don't want that puppy. He will never be able to run and play with you like theseother dogs would." With that the little boy stepped back from the fence, reached down, and began rolling up one leg of his trousers.In doing so he revealed a steel brace running down bothsides of his leg attaching itself to a specially made shoe.Looking back up at the farmer, he said, "You see sir, I don't run too well myself, and he will need someone who understands." With tears in his eyes, farmer reached down and picked up the little pup.Holding it carefully handed it to the little boy. "How much?" asked the little boy. "No charge," answered the farmer, "There's no charge for love."
Saturday, March 22, 2008, 9:07:00 PM
I had a very bad nightmare last night. It was different from the usual kind of dream nightmare as this time I could actually feel it. My whole body was like paralysed, numbed and I could feel cramps and pain. I don't even know if I was a asleep or awake. By the time I was fully awake I was so frightened that I went to find my sister immediately. It was only till 5am that I was able to fall into sleep peacefully. I have similar nightmare like this before but this is the first time I ever experienced it so badly. Hopefully it would not happen again tonight. I seriously do not want to go through it ever again. Its scary. Putting the nightmare aside; After missing so many math tuition, I finally attended it again today. Did an exercise on Intergration and it was not that bad, but I have to put in much more effort than this to at least get a pass for my math. I lost my precious bracelet on my way to tuition. HAIS. Oh well, there is nothing much I can do anyway. After tuition, went to Kallang Leisure Park with my sisters to catch a movie. Finally I watched Step Up 2! The dancing is as fanstatic as the first movie anyway the whole movie is awesome. The one phrase that was on my head throughout the whole movie is: Live your life the way you want it to be and not what others want you to be, for Life is too short to be someone else.Nice phrase huh! It is true isn't it. There are so many do's and dont's, so many rules, so many other people's expectations to meet, that our life are entangled to them. Thus, we cannot live life the way we want it to be. Sometimes rules have to be ignored, people's expectations to be set aside and for once go wild even if it is just going to be a few minutes. At least during that few minutes you have, you were being yourself and not someone else. Do not care or even bother what others might say about you, JUST BE WHO YOU ARE. It is because they do not want to be themselves that they go about doing the same to others. Should'nt people love us for who we are and not change us to who they want us to be. We only have one life and that one life do not last forever. Lets start living for ourselves and no one else. Let be the perfect person in our eyes and not in someone else's eyes. Lets change to be a better person and not just for the sake of someone else. Lets start loving an imperfect person for who they are, cause no one is perfect.Hopefully, I wrote something productive and inspiring finally.
Lets start today's post with class PHOTOS from Teambuilding day and CIP trip: Its a pity that A6's monument did not showed up properly. Hahas. I am in a dilemma. I have 2 more days to make a decision on whether I want to attend the cultural immersion trip. The reasons why I would love to go is that, I love travelling and want to see and experience the world, BUT I don't know anyone on this trip. HAIS. Tell me what am I to decided on. 6 more days and I am.... Only till 28March arrives, then will I decide if I want to complete my sentence. As that day draws nearer the past starts reliving. I don't know if I should put on a happy face or a really sad one on that day. Hais. My heart is in a big mess, My thinking is in an even worst situation than that. Making myself so confused and not knowing what I want and what I should do. I guess this happens alot to a girl who simply just want to deny her own feelings.
Thursday, March 20, 2008, 11:06:00 PM
I am EXHAUSTED, but I have to type out this blog post and share it with you guys. Our class went down to Dover Park Hospice for CIP today. This Hospice is not like the any usual one you will think of, its the only kind in Singapore which takes in advanced terminally ill patients. This means all of them are on the verge of dying, with only having an avg of 18 days more to live. Some of them don't even know this. Since I can speak chinese and apparently most of them there are chinese-speaking I was helping out with the communication, provided they can even understand whatever broken chinese I am talking. There was this one man who was friendly and even watching the TV and remember they are all advanced terminally ill patients. After speaking to him, the emotions inside me stirred and I started crying. I don't know how to explain this feeling. To have an experience whereby you see ill patients on the verge of death is really emotionally painful. They even have children warded in there. Then we went to the first level whereby there is some patients resting at the lobby. That was when I ever played the piano first time to an audience. It was kind of last minute and I haven't practice my piano for ages. Although there were some mistakes here and there, the most important think is they were enjoying themselves, clapping along with the song too. I never felt so much joy of giving before. Just this little thing could make them so happy. I was really really touched. Never had a CIP like this before, it was a great experience for me. During this whole trip it set me thinking. Life is indeed really short. One moment you can be healthy and the next moment you could be gone. I am so going to live my life to the fullest from today onwards and I am not going to take life for granted anymore. I will take time off to enjoy the wonders and beauty of life and will learn how to appreciate every aspect of life! The most important thing I have learnt today is unconditional giving. I am going to open my eyes to people around me-the community and start giving, in terms of love, care, concern, comfort, hope and smiles. This things can be given by anyone and you never know how much the other person will appreciate this small little gestures of yours and how much you have just made their day. So stop living under a rock, open up your eyes and spread the love.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008, 8:13:00 PM
Once again misfortunes comes falling onto me. Lets start with yesterday events: In the morning, I missed bus 506, so I decided to take 985 to school with Sabrina and Shaqirah. Little did I know the bus I am going to take will end up with a minor accident. Therefore we were late for school and had to sit through a preaching session with dm. You guys know how @#$!~#* he is, so I shall not elaborate further. Speaking about accidents, I don't know if it is coincidental but I realised since November'07 up to today, I had witness or am involved in at least one accident every single month without fail. Thankfully, all those were really minor ones; Hopefully, I will not experience any again. Today, almost missed 506 again and totally embaressed myself during PW. On a happier note, I finally played tennis today with Darwina, Sabrina and my brother. Well, it not only ends there. After the game, Darwina and I went to the ladies, and there was this Hong Kong exchange girl who said I was very pretty! (: When I first heard it from Darwina I was like you sure anot, because its not like I can get to hear this often. Afterall, I believe that beauty lies in the inside, rather than the skin. As the skin will age as time pass, but a heart never will. Still, I am very delighted to hear that. Tomorrow will be going to a terminally ill hospice for CIP. I think its going to be a really sad experience for us. In the afternoon will be going down to Singapore Land Authority for GIS. Hais, my whole day will be gone again. I have decided to follow my family down to KL on friday morning to celebrate my grandma's birthday and I really miss my cousin alot. Its so last minute right. Hahas. Anyway would like to share something with you guys and hopefully after reading, it will leave a BIG SMILE on your face. A SMILE costs nothing, but gives much. It enriches those we receive, without making poorer those who give. A SMILE creates happiness in the home and is the countersign of friendship. It brings rest to the weary, cheer to the discouraged, sunshine to the sad, and is nature's best antidote for trouble. Yet it cannot be bought, begged, borrowed or stolen, for it is something that is of no value to anyone until it is given away. Some people are too tired to give you a smile. Give them one of yours, as none needs a smile so much as he who has no more to give. (:
Monday, March 17, 2008, 10:19:00 PM
I don't want to see my friends around me unhappy, especially my close friends!I feel really useless not being able to do anything, even my words of encouragement are USELESS! I hate myself for not being able to do anything at all! Not only am I an unlucky girl, but I bring bad luck to people around me too! I am totally lost. So many things happening in just a few days, I feel really stress. I feel really painful. I am sad and filled with anger towards myself. I really don't know what to do anymore. Is there even a direction for me to move on?
Sunday, March 16, 2008, 11:24:00 AM
Finally I am able to upload the pictures.Look not a single soul around! Imagine how afraid I am. Lower peirce reservior is beautiful ain't it. The board filled with our hypothesis and explanations. That is where I have to stare at the whole time, in case the water level go beyond that line. Unfortunately or fortunately the water level remained the same. Check out the ambience of our study area. Check out the background. It a stamp print of a musical score. Its classic! WeiLiang failed attempt in taking the pictures. Yet another failed attempt. ==" Its very stylish isn't it. Yesterday was awesome. It was the first time I drank with my friends. It all started with us meeting up last minute for a study session in the afternoon. We choosed the Starbucks under the esplanade bridge to be our venue, after we spotted this good place to study during teambuilding day, it is indeed a good place to study in the day only, cause the lighting there isn't really good. Since it was a saturday, there will always be live band performances at the esplanade. Which we decided to catch it after dinner. Then we had this crazy idea of having alcohol and chips while watching the band perform, and we did it! Since it was the Mosiac season, the band are really good and all within my favourite genre. We started first at the Nokia Powerhouse, before I got really tired. While walking to the MRT, there was another guitar performance inside the esplanade foyer, then we stayed to listen to 3 songs before leaving.
Friday, March 14, 2008, 10:42:00 PM
Dear darlings, Ever since just now, I have been on the net searching for an article I read not long ago to share it with you guys and I found it! It is really interesting and an eye opener. Hopefully it will set you guys thinking and change your perception in some things. Heres the webbie; read the article: http://www.truthorfiction.com/rumors/e/einstein-god.htmAnd I am still thinking... ...
Wednesday, March 12, 2008, 11:30:00 AM
Taking the easy way out.
Blogger.com is having some problems with pictures uploading again, so will upload it ASAP. Guess I'm to pretty, that they are too jealous to post it up. =X Ahahas.Dear darlings, After 2 days of being under the heavy rain doing fieldwork and my stubborness for not always wanting to finish the whole antibiotics course, I am falling ill again. Poor me, but I seriously hate or am lazy to take antibiotics. Finally today I can have a rest for once during the March holidays, before going back to schol tomorrow for some Art session and another GIS meeting. This whole weel, I have been stuffing myself with lots of food, I better start exercising soon, otherwise Im going to be FAT! :X I was so fed up with half of my post that I deleted it!It was on my thoughts and feelings, but the uncertainity inside me is making me so confused that I don't even know what I was writing. It was terribly messy and the worst I have ever written. ARGH! Never felt so fustrated in a long time. I shall just end this post with a story I read from the net today on family love. This story moved me to tears, so it's a must read! Bob Richards, the former pole-vault champion, shares a moving story about a skinny young boy who loved football with all his heart. Practice after practice, he eagerly gave everything he had. But being half the size of the other boys, he got absolutely nowhere. At all the games, this hopeful athlete sat on the bench and hardly ever played. This teenager lived alone with his father, and the two of them had a very special relationship. Even though the son was always on the bench, his father was always in the stands cheering. He never missed a game. This young man was still the smallest of the class when he entered high school. But his father continued to encourage him but also made it very clear that he did not have to play football if he didn't want to. But the young man loved football and decided to hang in there. He was determined to try his best at every practice, and perhaps he'd get to play when he became a senior. All through high school he never missed a practice nor a game but remained a bench-warmer all four years. His faithful father was always in the stands, always with words of encouragement for him. When the young man went to college, he decided to try out for the football team as a "walk-on." Everyone was sure he could never make the cut, but he did. The coach admitted that he kept him on the roster because he always puts his heart and soul to every practice, and at the same time, provided the other members with the spirit and hustle they badly needed. The news that he had survived the cut thrilled him so much that he rushed to the nearest phone and called his father. His father shared his excitement and was sent season tickets for all the college games. This persistent young athlete never missed practice during his four years at college, but he never got to play in a game. It was the end of his senior football season, and as he trotted onto the practice field shortly before the big playoff game, the coach met him with a telegram. The young man read the telegram and he became deathly silent. Swallowing hard, he mumbled to the coach, "My father died this morning. Is it all right if I miss practice today?" The coach put his arm gently around his shoulder and said, "Take the rest of the week off, son. And don't even plan to come back to the game on Saturday." Saturday arrived, and the game was not going well. In the third quarter, when the team was ten points behind, a silent young man quietly slipped into the empty locker room and put on his football gear. As he ran onto the sidelines, the coach and his players were astounded to see their faithful teammate back so soon. "Coach, please let me play. I've just got to play today," said the young man. The coach pretended not to hear him. There was no way he wanted is worst player in this close playoff game. But the young man persisted, and finally feeling sorry for the kid, the coach gave in. "All right," he said. "You can go in." Before long, the coach, the players and everyone in the stands could not believe their eyes. This little unknown, who had never played before was doing everything right. The opposing team could not stop him. He ran, he passed, blocked, and tackled like a star. His team began to triumph. The score was soon tied. In the closing seconds of the game, this kid intercepted a pass and ran all the way for the winning touchdown. The fans broke loose. His teammates hoisted him onto their shoulders. Such cheering you never heard. Finally, after the stands had emptied and the team had showered and left the locker room, the coach noticed that this young man was sitting quietly in the corner all alone. The coach came to him and said, "Kid, I can't believe it. You were fantastic! Tell me what got into you? How did you do it?" He looked at the coach, with tears in his eyes, and said, "Well, you knew my dad died, but did you know that my dad was blind?" The young man swallowed hard and forced a smile, "Dad came to all my games, but today was the first time he could see me play, and I wanted to show him I could do it!"
Tuesday, March 11, 2008, 10:59:00 PM
I've been asked and preaching quite a number of times on true love lately and I will like to share this phrase which I made by myself to all of you: Be true to love, then true love will come.Short, sweet and simple huh! Hahas. May all of you people find your true love soon. (:
Dear darlings, Here are yesterdays pictures which can be finally uploaded. In the cab with sabrina, look at the windows its raining cats and dogs! Trespassing into SICC, see that white gate over there, its where sabby got stucked! Hahas. Our makeshift workplace! It caught many teachers surprises. Such tranquility. Keith and Hendry being the first to go down and collect the samples. The 2 guys looking proudly at our first prized possession. This is where we learnt about incorporating 2 ideas on mass movement. The sprinkler waters the grasses so that it will stay firmly rooted to the ground and so as to prevent landslides. While the drains takes in the surface runoff that will cause landslides to occur. They actually do use such ideas, and not just print it onto our notes! Hahas. Geography is such an interesting subject! Had geography field trip again today, but this time at the lower peirce reservior. It wasn't as fun as yesterday, in fact it was really scary! I was all alone guarding the flood gate while the rest go down to collect samples from the river. Imagine the whole big forested area with so little people around and me alone standing there, staring at the water level. It got worst when the sky turned dark and started to rain very heavily! There was even thunder and lightning which I am afraid of and not to mention I am alone UNTIL, 3 army personnel just pop up from nowhere. Its freaky, I didn't even notice it till quite some time and I was very frightened. As the rain got lighter, the 3 army personnel apparently went back to their hiding place which is the bushes across the river. They were there the whole time and yet I didn't even notice their existence. This shows how good the Singapore defense system is, or maybe I am just blur. Hahas. But I am proud of myself to be able to pull through alone that 1 1/2 hr. I am a brave girl. :D Words cannot explain how happy I was to finally see Miss Hong and Hendry coming to pick me up. We took a cab back to school and it was raining cats and dogs again. We were very cold and hungry. Had lunch and we stayed in school till 6.30pm testing the water samples and coming up with hypothesis and explanations for our findings. Came back home really tired, sleepy and full of mosquitoes bites! Shall upload today's pictures tomorrow, cause I'm lazy right now. LOLS. I really want to blog on my thoughts and feelings, but somehow I just find it really difficult putting everything into words. I am in a state of confusion and I really don't know what I want anymore. Whats more, I am not in the mood to write any inspiring posts right now, and if I do so right now, it will turn out to be sucky. Guess I will just have to leave it for another day, maybe tomorrow? Won't be posting another lovely story today, too much of these stories is bad. Hahas. Nights.
Monday, March 10, 2008, 11:55:00 PM
Today was a very tiring day. For the first time in 2008, I managed to do a binomial challenging math sum and present it to a class. Though it was really silly as I don't know how to explain, but I am proud of myself! =D Then met up with GIS group and Mr saw for some forum discussion on geography. Had lunch with Sabrina, Keith and Hendry before going for out fieldtrip. Despite the endless rain, the fieldtrip was AWESOME! The scenery at the lower peirce reservior is stunning and Hendry was repeatedly saying how nice it will be to be there with a girl, or, how he would like to hold his wedding there. We trespassed into a small corner of Singapore Island Country Club just to get water samples and Sabrina's Poncho got stuck at the gate. We learnt on how different ideas of mass movement can be incorporated through life examples. We learnt how to ask for a ride out of the place cause its so deserted, but got rejected cause they were waiting for their workers and guess what! 10mins later and they are off! ): evil people. After getting two water samples, we headed back to school and test out the PH value and oxygen level of the samples with chemistry equipments in our own makeshift workshop, which you all got to see! Even though we didn't have the chance to get down into the river today, but there is always a TOMORROW! We're going to have plenty of fun and it better not rain.Wanted to post up pictures and let you all be amused, but apparently blogger have some technical problems right now which unable me to do so. Guess I have to try uploading it again tomorrow. Let me end this post with another heartwarming story to touch your hearts again. A SILENT LOVEFrom the very Begining, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him. Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?" As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence. After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?" The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged. The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up. One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice...... The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down. During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer. With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying.... The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy. With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him. A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead. When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled. I guess from these stories, we all can see how amazing and great love is. I would love to continue to blog and evaluate on this story, but its late and guess I will have to leave it till tomorrow. I have plenty of thoughts and feelings to blog on too, but everything got to wait.
Sunday, March 9, 2008, 10:25:00 PM
Yesterday night Tennis game was AWESOME and my serve have improved by leaps and bounds. Hahas. But, I still have lots more to work on. All I know is the more I play tennis, the more I love it. Spent the whole morning and afternoon on the computer. It was only 5pm that I decided to meet up with Darwina and Hafizah for shopping. But I didn't shop much, got myself a storybook and a white polo t-shirt. Tomorrow will be a very long and tiring day, with math extra lessons early in the morning, geography meet up straight after math and geography field work at Bishan Park for the whole afternoon. As for tonight, I have to do finish the whole Binomial Distribution Homework which really sucks, cause I don't know how to do it! Shall start doing my homework now, or else tonight I don't need to sleep. Will post more touching posts another time. (: Bye!
Saturday, March 8, 2008, 7:40:00 PM
Was in school from 7.30am all the way till noon doing my ushering duties. I love ushering duties alot, especially the part where you greet them with a smile on the face, and they return the greeting by doing so too. It is indeed gratifying to see the tiny amount of happiness you could give to someone just by a simple greet and smile. After the duties, had lunch in Subway with Maisha and Lincoln. Took 506 back with Maisha and we realised many things about ourselves. Both of us are aquarians, and surprisingly we have similar character traits such as tolerant of others, impatient, forgiving, unconditional loving, independent, dislike liars, blah blah blah. It makes me wonder, is astrology true? There seems to be so much nice movies to catch these few weeks. Watched 'the leap years' yesterday and I assume everyone knows how good and touching the show is so I won't be blogging on it. I can't wait to catch 'Sky of Love' and 'Step Up 2' really soon. Can't blog any longer today as I will be meeting Darwina up for a tennis game at 9pm, so I have to leave soon. Would end today's post with a story. A GIFT OF LOVEThe passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. Then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg. It had been a year since Susan, 34, became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. And all she had to cling to was her husband, Mark. Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again. Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city. At first, this comforted Susan, and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task. Soon, however, Mark realized the arrangement wasn't working. Susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But she was still so fragile, so angry - how would she react? Just as he predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again. "I'm blind!", she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I am going? I feel like you're abandoning me." Mark's heart broke to hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took, until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all, accompanied Susan to and from work each day. He taught her how to rely on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat. Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus-riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, And his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday... Each day on her own went perfectly, and Susan had never felt better. She was doing it! She was going to work all by herself. On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying the fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure do envy you." Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? Curious, she asked the driver, "Why do you say that you envy me?" The driver responded, "It must feel good to be taken care of and protected like you are." Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, and again asked, "What do you mean?" The driver answered, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine-looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you as you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches until you enter your office building. Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady." Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't physically see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was lucky, so lucky, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light where there is darkness.
Friday, March 7, 2008, 11:44:00 PM
making a difference
This post of mine caught my eyes while i was reading back the archives, and I just have to post it up again, it is one of the most meaningful post I have posted onto my blog. May this meaningful post touch your heart, be it if you read it before or not. OCTOBER 21, 2007"I learnt that everyone of us is so caught up with the BIG things around us, that we have since failed to see the SMALL things present around us. Lets not look into the WORLD, but into our SOCIETY. OUR SOCIETY consists of family, friends and those in need. These are the people in which we can change their lives, make a difference in their lives, and of course definitely in a good way. How can we make a difference? By showing them we care, we love them, correct them when they are wrong, teach them and serve one another, even to those we hate! Why? Because I learnt that the greatest commandment of all is to love your enemy as your friend. You never know how much they long for these, how much these could change their lives, how much they ever wanted to hear these from anyone, how much joy it could fill them with, and how much they are appreciated. Nevermind others, but at least they know YOU APPRECIATE THEM. One of the story told yesterday was about a man who was on his way home saw one of his classmate(lets call him mark, I cant rmb his name.) accidentaily dropping the books he was carrying on his hands. He went over and help Mark to pick up the books and Mark invited him up to his house for a drink to thank him. He went, and as they drank they talk and laugh, and soon they became close friends. On the graduation day, Mark went up to him and said, "on that day, I was carrying so many books because I had just cleared up my locker wanting not to leave a mess for the next person using it. I had taken my mum sleeping pills and was on my way home to commit sucide, until, you came up to me and helped me pick up the fallen books. After in which we chatted happily over the drink, then I realised life has much more meaning than dying. "To mark, he made a difference. It is just these simple thinks that we could change a person live so great. I wouldnt be writing all these FOR NOTHING. I wouldnt be wasting my time on these just for the sake of passing my time, BUT, I want to make a difference. Be it to JUST only one person, at least to that one person it made a difference. What about you, the readers, going to do after reading finish my post. Will you forget what I had written, or will you put it into practice and share it? For you never know how much these little things could make a difference, it is ONLY just these little things,the love, care and concern which each and everyone of us could give and change the lives of others. Sincerely from my heart, I thank all my friends who has been there for me, be it when I am sad or when I am happy. I appreciate the care and concern you have given to me. To those whom I had quarreled with, its a pity that we started on the wrong note, but what past is past and life goes on. I still thank you for changing and shaping my life to be a stronger person. To those who dislike me, hating someone is tough, I know it cause I've been there. But the greatest commandment of all is to love your enemy as your friends. Maybe its our differnces that we are so caught up with that we had failed to see the similarities in us. Speaking of which, I seriously do wonder if anyone does dislikes me. Hahas! To all my dearest friends, I love you all and I cherish our friendship alot. I am really happy to be able to have known you people. I shall end this post with one last story which was shared with us yesterday. A shepherd has 100 sheeps, it was time for him to go back so he went to count his sheeps. Yet, there was only 99 sheeps there and 1 sheep had wandered off. If you were the shepherd would you either leave that 1 sheep alone or leave the 99 sheeps to find that 1 sheep? It doesnt makes sense to leave the 99 sheeps to just find 1, most of us will think like that. But that is what exactly the shepherd did, and to that one lost sheep it made a difference. Almost all of us will intially choose to leave that lost sheep behind, because we are too focus on the BIG things(99sheeps) than on the SMALL things(lost sheep)."
Before I get into the business of blogging, I shall fulfil my GuangZhou photos promises dued long ago. Look at the type of housing in GuangZhou, are they considered slums? They are still in the era where wire cables are still above land. A picture of me in the taxi. Look at how empty the roads are and it was CNY. The wasabi on this dim sum could kill. A picture with my 3 younger sisters. Picture with my mummy and youngest sister. My hair is so messy! The cage is to protect the driver in case of robbery. My cute little sister, Valerie. A view from above. This place is called "BeiJing Road", and as you can see its frigging crowded. This is the Best and Yummiest Tiramisu cake I ever tasted! Live crocodiles with their mouth bind. Some samples of seafood. This is what I only ate after being disgusted by the 'exotic' display. Its just plain pork and vegetables! Look at the train fares! Its only a few singapore cents. This is like the Singapore's ez link card, where you tap to enter, but throw the coin into the machine to leave the metro stn
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