There wasn't anymore reason.
Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very dark, but there were stars — points of light and reason.
And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.
Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty.
When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black.
Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.
I couldn't see the stars anymore.
And there was no more reason for anything.
- Edward Cullen to Bella.
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Sunday, August 30, 2009, 5:19:00 PM
Kimberley and I had been fighting for almost THREE DAYS already! If you're wondering who's Kimberley, she is my freaking paranoid and stubborn sister. It all started with me asking her if she took my Tupperware. And somehow, she got paranoid, and assumed her that I was accusing her of stealing my Tupperware. I was WHAT THE FUCK! Come on, what similarities does the sentences of "Did you take my Tupperware?" have with "You stole my Tupperware!" APPARENTLY a fucking 0%!!! And anyone who learns English knows I was asking her a question and not making a statement. AND CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! That's how she started quarrelling with me all because of this one stupid $2 plastic Tupperware! Apparently I was in a good mood, and just ignored her. But somehow she felt even more angry and started posting stupid comments on my facebook and changing her msn status about me shitting on my bed and stuff! Nevermind bout that, what to do she is only 14 years old. It only proves how very young and immature she is. Only such people could think of such rubbish to put up there and I didn't want to ruin my mood to go start a war on facebook, so I just deleted her comment and her off my facebook and continued to ignore her. All was good until just now! She started fighting with my youngest sister. And guess what they were fighting with- REAL, SHARP KITCHEN KNIVES! Apparently, they thought this was some kind of funny action movie they are starring in. Can anyone tell me, which of your siblings takes the kitchen knives and threaten one another and make hell lot of noise like they aren't bothering the neighbours at all. Sadly, I'm their big sister and I had to stop them. Otherwise, one of them might be dead now. That was how I started to be involved in their quarrel and it ended up in a war of words between Kimberley and me. I didn't mind her calling me all sorts of nasty names, after all I don't really care what others call me. As long as I know who I am can already, my life is not dictated by others! However, really did hope I could ignore her insanity, but when she insulted my parents, I got really angry. She started babbling that my mother didn't give birth to her at all and that GOD was the one giving birth to her and all.... And started preaching all about GOD and blah blah blah. I ain't surprise at all with that comment, afterall she almost chased my mother out of her own house not so long ago. I am angry that she doesn't even acknowledge that my mum took pains to bring her into this world. I am angry that she hates my father and doesn't even give him the least respect when all he ever does was for her own good. She even commented that why didn't my parents aborted her! Why bring her out into this world and then she goes digging up everything from the past again. I am so sad that she is so very blind! The only reason of our existence is because my parents love us and they want us. I told her that, and she thinks its rubbish again. She only see the faults of others and not her own. She preaches about the heavenly father and yet don't know a single thing about them. Did God teachings ever taught us to abandon our parents? If it's a yes, I am never going to believe in the existence of God ever again! I tried knocking some shit sense into her, but she still refuses to even believe that I am helping her. What's the point she doesn't even see me as her sister anymore. So I gave up talking to her, went back to my room and here I am venting my anger. Thank god, I have a blog to vent my anger on. Who knows what stupid things I would do.
Thursday, August 27, 2009, 10:07:00 PM
I was just watching videos on Human Rights. I came across one that made me so angry. I wonder how could anyone do that to the little baby. That is what you can define as HEARTLESS. I finally understoodwhat is means as not everyone is as lucky as we are to be living the way we are able to right now. Watched it and you will understand the cruelty of life away from our comfort zone.
Monday, August 24, 2009, 10:10:00 PM
Finally in my possession. Only, this time I didn't had to wait that long for it to arrive in Singapore. The Vampire Academy Series is PURE LOVE! My favourite fictional book of all times! Even the book cover is so beautiful isn't it? :))Bought it yesterday and I'm already at Chapter 5. While as for my Blue Moon, I haven't even touched it yet.
Sunday, August 23, 2009, 2:19:00 PM
PISSED AND IN A HORRIBLY BAD MOOD!
Saturday, August 22, 2009, 9:32:00 PM
When studying gets too boring, just grabbed the handphone, start cam-whoring and share all the fun. Welcome to the psychotic world. Join the club! SCARY SHIT! But I like. The next potential horror movie star. :D
Friday, August 21, 2009, 10:45:00 PM
As told by my sister, I had been sleep talking for the past few nights. The talk had something got to do with 'winning'. It must be due to my worries for A levels. With A levels nearing and the so many uncertainties looming on my GP, you can't really blame me for all the worries. I didn't even felt like this when I was talking my O levels. I honestly have to practice TONS of writing from now onwards. Went to NUS today for the USP talk. The only reason why I wanted to go for this talk was for more information on the joint degree program. And now, I am even more certain that the JDP is what I really want. That is my dream. I had decided that I don't really have to find an aspiration right now. Be it choosing between being a geologists, a teacher or even a social worker in the future, it doesn't really matter to me right now. Just like how people always say "Live for the present!" And that is what I am going to do. I will just pursue whatever my passion lies in, whatever that will make me happy. All the aspirations, I'll leave it to fate. After all, I'm a really fickle minded person and can never settle on one. NUS also means Mr. Photographer!!! HAHAS! :D One more reason for me to study super doubly hard. No matter what happens, I need to persevere! Lastly, My blood promise is coming out soon! I'm so excited even though I haven't even touch Bluemoon yet.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009, 11:59:00 AM
I must had been still very mad at you to dream of you last night. What else? You made me cried.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009, 9:41:00 PM
I've got two new songs on my playlist- You'll find your way back home, Miley cyrus. And F*ck you, by Lily Allen. Even though the second song is filled with expletives, I still like it. It has an interesting tune to it and you can't deny that the lyrics are quite extra-ordinary too. I am currently in a horribly bad mood. It all started when I went back to Art just now and for already a week, I still can't paint the hair correctly! One more month to coursework submission and I still have not touch on 4 more canvases, my Rubik's cube and my incomplete preparatory boards. I am so in deep shit! It's no wonder why I feel all horribly grouchy and all stressed up. HONESTLY, I really want to give up. I am so tired of trying already. It's not only Art! I have been putting in so much effort in my studies, yet I seem to be doing much more worse than ever. This is so demoralizing! Please tell me/encourage me/force me/lecture me/.... to hang in there. And please don't be like me wanting to give up so easily. People like me can't go far in life. But you have the choice and that can make a whole lot of difference. So, hang in there too.
Monday, August 17, 2009, 8:05:00 PM
I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND; not another girl's substitute!!!It hurts fucking badly coming from you!
Sunday, August 16, 2009, 1:31:00 PM
The past one week was spent too mundane from studying to even have any interesting updates. Besides the fact that I've got TONS of test this coming week, I am not going to bore my readers by describing all my studying here. Before I end, here's my new and meaningful blog song. Can't hear anything? Just scroll all the way to the bottom of the page and navigate the player. Enjoys and take cares. Where are you now, Honor Society To my favorite teacher told me never give up To my fifth grade crush Who I thought I really loved To the guys I've missed and the girls we've kissed Where are you now To my ex-best friends Don't know how we grew apart To my favorite band Sing along in my car To the face I see in my memory Where are you now Where are you now? Cause I'm thinking of you You showed me how How to live like I do If it wasn't for you I would never be who I am To my first girlfriend I thought for sure was the one To my last girlfriend Sorry that I screwed it up To the ones I loved Didn't show it enough Where are you now Where are you now Cause I'm thinking of you You showed me how How to live like I do If it wasn't for you I would never be who I am I know we'll never see those days again And things will never be that way again But that's just how it goes People change but I know I won't forget you To the ones who came Who we're there from the start To the love that left And took a piece of my heart To the few who'd swear They'd never go anywhere Where are you now? Where are you now? Cause I'm thinking of you You showed me how How to live like I do If it wasn't for you I would never be how I am If it wasn't for you I would never be who I am If it wasn't for you I'd be nothing Where are you now?
Monday, August 10, 2009, 8:25:00 PM
Saw anything next to my Evermore? :)) IT'S FINALLY OUT! And in my posession. Hahas!
Sunday, August 9, 2009, 10:15:00 PM
"See the moon and the stars, look how far we have come Look around at our faces, they shine brightly in the sun With our hopes and dreams, imagine what tomorrow it may bring What do you see? What do you see?" I watched today's NDP telecast only to hear Electrico play this song. I could just keep humming the tune of the chorus. The more I hear this song, the more I fall in love with it. I did not went to watch the fireworks this year. Although it fails in comparison to last year, fireworks are still beautiful to me. However, I did watch G.I Joe. I agree with the critics for its lack of storyline, but you got to admit that the effects, the sound and Channing Tatum was AWESOME!
The National day drama shown this morning called "Singapore, my home" or something like that was actually quite good. Especially the touching love story between the childhood lovers. How I wish, I had a guy waiting for me for nine years! Okays, this isn't my point!
Happy Birthday Singapore! & Happy Birthday to my sister!
Saturday, August 8, 2009, 3:41:00 PM
"Life's the greatest gift of all. And the truth is you know that love is all we need."
Friday, August 7, 2009, 11:51:00 PM
There were only ten of us in class today. Very typical of a school celebration. The only reason why I even bothered to come was because of Art. It was very difficult to give Art a miss after being 'lectured' the day before. Overall, I find Art very fruitful today. I am almost done with my huge canvas, so 5 more canvases and a big Rubik's cube to go! NDP and my sister's birthday falls on this Sunday. Haven't even get a present for my sister yet. By the way, did I ever mentioned here I really love this year NDP song by Electrico. It's very different from the others. Also, I am still contemplating on whether to watch the fireworks this year. I heard there's one in the shape of a heart. I want to see!!! I am such a sucker for fireworks. I was awarded a Borders book voucher for my PW. That means shopping for more novels! This time I am searching for classics. At the moment I am starting to grow tired of romance novels. I want Charles Dickens! He is my all time favourite author. I have been reading his books since primary school and his books are the best! This coming Monday would be my one month away from facebook! You got to applause for my successful hard effort. So on that day, to reward myself, I decided to make an exception and return to facebook for an hour or two. That is with the condition that I finish all my homework with an additional 4 essay questions for both geography and economics. I really got to work super doubly hard. "Send them your heart so they know that someone cares. And their lives will be stronger and free."
Tuesday, August 4, 2009, 10:34:00 PM
Some random pictures taken on Sunday. There are still TONS of Audrey and Tiger pictures still not uploaded. Will do it bit by bit. Audrey is focusing on how to get the ball out of my hand. I'm envious! She's such a beauty. :( Oh.. And that's my handsome boy. :D Gave school a missed today. Spent the whole day at home sleeping and surfing the net. Came to a conclusion that if I should stay at home any longer, I might turn into a lazy pig. So went to school for night study. I am so weired, right?
Monday, August 3, 2009, 8:32:00 PM
WARNING AHEAD!
This post is strictly not for the hungry. And for the rest, beware of the side effects. IT WILL MAKE YOU DROOL! :)) Our invention of 'blueberries stuffed muffin'! THATS ALL! Drooling already right! :)) Promise I'll bake it for you guys soon. Now back to today. I had to help my parents pass a contract to someone before school today. And I ended up being late for school. Actually detention didn't really bothered my much, as school is going to end real late and it doesn't make much of a difference. It was just that it didn't feel good to be late. I was at the traffic junction waiting for the green man to cross over to school, when Anthony asked if I want to get a MC. Surprisingly, I agreed! Then, we spotted Qiao Ying too. In the end, Qiao Ying and I went all the way to Marine Parade polyclinic and had our lunch at Swensen together with my sister (She skipped school today too.) I gave the excuse of stomach cramps, in which I really did have- just that it wasn't so bad YET. I earned myself a 2 days MC! By the way sidetracking abit, Qiao Ying's doctor was so handsome. Guess what, the doctor is an indian, just that he doesn't look like one with the beautiful deep eyes, curly hair, so tall and fair. Alrights enough of me swooning over that doctor. I still prefer Mr. photographer and I haven't seen him since the other night. I live for every night to see if he ever returns to my dreams. Okays, tell me I'm psycho. Back to topic!!! I ended up with a whole afternoon of terrible cramps and thankfully, I was resting at home and not in GP lesson. Haha. Like I said to my bff, maybe god was touched by my filial piety towards my parents for helping them with the contract, that he helped me. God is awesome, isn't he? So is Mr. photographer!:))
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