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There wasn't anymore reason.
Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very dark, but there were stars — points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything. - Edward Cullen to Bella. |
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Tuesday, May 27, 2008, 9:28:00 AM
Hey people! Blogging right now straight from the Airport. Technology advancements these days are just that awesome. So far everything has been alright, with the check in and stuff, and hopefully things will get even better by the end of this trip. I really hope this trip will be a memorable one and not one that I will regret chasing after for the rest of life. Oh well, since this trip is what I have been fighting so hard for, with all the cancellation of Pre-U seminar and giving up on my long-awaited geography trip to Japan, I must make the most out of this trip, be happy and enjoy myself to the fullest! (: Cheers! Take care my dear friends. Monday, May 26, 2008, 7:14:00 PM
I spent my weekends rotting away. Since Saturday morning, I have been sitting in front of my laptop watching " It started with a kiss" taiwanese drama. The show is really awesome, touching and funny, but it is kind of gets draggy in the middle. The ending is well done, not the kind of slip shot work you would normally get for an ending. When I come back from the China trip, will definitely watch the second series of this drama. Hahas. As a matter of fact, I have not finish packing my luggage at all! Hahas. This morning was waken up by Hafiz's call and it was just to tell me that he at the checkpoint now and said his goodbye. Argh. Spend my morning in school for extra math lessons and the amazing me could only solve 1 part of a question out of the whole last year Mid-Year paper. Then after Math lesson, went down to parkway with my sister to hang out. If I'm good at words, I will tell you how much it hurts to see that smile of yours fading away. If I'm good at actions, I will show you that I really do care. Yet all I can do is watching you silently, understanding your pain from afar and pretending that I don't care. Anyway, shall leave you guys with a story to read before going MIA for a week. (: I'm Flying! Author: Roger Dean Kiser, Sr. Once upon a time there was a little boy who was raised in an orphanage. The little boy had always wished that he could fly like a bird. It was very difficult for him to understand why he could not fly. There were birds at the zoo that were much bigger than he, and they could fly. "Why can't I?" he thought. "Is there something wrong with me?" he wondered. There was another little boy who was crippled. He had always wished that he could walk and run like other little boys and girls. "Why can't I be like them?" he thought. One day the little orphan boy, who had wanted to fly like a bird, ran away from the orphanage. He came upon a park where he saw the little boy, who could not walk or run, playing in the sandbox. He ran over to the little boy and asked him if he had ever wanted to fly like a bird. "No," said the little boy who could not walk or run. "But I have wondered what it would be like to walk and run like other boys and girls." "That is very sad," said the little boy who wanted to fly. "Do you think we could be friends?" he said to the little boy in the sandbox. "Sure," said the little boy. The two little boys played for hours. They made sand castles and made really funny sounds with their mouths. Sounds which made them laugh real hard. Then the little boy's father came with a wheelchair to pick up his son. The little boy who had always wanted to fly ran over to the boy's father and whispered something into his ear. "That would be OK," said the man. The little boy who had always wanted to fly like a bird ran over to his new friend and said, "You are my only friend and I wish that there was something that I could do to make you walk and run like other little boys and girls. But I can't. But there is something that I can do for you." The little orphan boy turned around and told his new friend to slide up onto his back. He then began to run across the grass. Faster and faster he ran, carrying the little crippled boy on his back. Faster and harder he ran across the park. Harder and harder he made his legs travel. Soon the wind just whistled across the two little boys' faces. The little boy's father began to cry as he watched his beautiful little crippled son flapping his arms up and down in the wind, all the while yelling at the top of his voice,"I'M FLYING, DADDY. I'M FLYING!" Sunday, May 25, 2008, 10:49:00 PM
My life is in a mess, and I don't know why. Hais. Friday, May 23, 2008, 4:39:00 PM
IF YOU LOOK INSIDE A GIRL you would see how much she really cries you would find so many secrets and lots of lies but what you'll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong. It is finally the last day of school, yet I am not looking forward to the June holidays. My holiday are packed with so much activities and I will definitely be studying for my exams that I doubt there is even time for myself. It is no wonder that A level Students have boring lives. During this weekend, I have to finish up and submit my first draft of EOM, fill up application and write an essay for project proposal for the Youth Environmental Envoy Programme to be submitted by Monday. I would really love to attend this programme but on the other hand I am also wishing hard that my application will be rejected as it will be held during my last 3 days of holiday!! But, the most important thing right now is doing up the essay and I do not even have any idea on my mind for a proposal in changing the environment. Then I will also need to start packing my luggage for the China trip. Have Maths extra lesson on Monday too. There goes the first day of my holidays and with one week gone spent in China. Then another Maths extra lesson again on 3rd June. Hais. Don't even know why there are so many Math lessons, I don't even bother listening in classes and I doubt extra lessons will be useful to me anyway. Then on 4th June, the arts student have a tour with artist Amanda Heng. Then in which I will be having at least one week of self-studying and consultation before flying off again. This time to Jakarta for my cousin's wedding. Will arrive back in Singapore on 15 June and I will just be left with a week more to prepare for the exams! By the end of the holiday I am expected to finish up my EOM too. Oh no. This holiday is going to be a havoc. I could feel the stress just by thinking about all these activities and it just got worst after listing all these down here and realising I only have 2 available weeks left for studying alone which is definitely not enough. HAIS. Miss Alicia Ng is leaving soon. It is kind of sad. She is one of my favourite teacher in school and I really love her lessons and she made me understand GP and its complex format. Will miss her teaching us! Hopefully A6 new GP teacher isn't what the rumours have been going around. Otherwise my life will be in even more chaos. Received the yearbook today and my nightmare just got worst. Why must they put those ugly publicity photo of me inside!!! OMG. I have been getting comments that I look like some korean person. Heck NO. Don't know where to hide this beautiful face of mine liao. Hahas. All my recent post have been just accounts on my daily life and some inspiration stories. It has been quite some time since I last wrote anything inspiring. Hopefully I will be able to write one tomorrow. By the way, Pedra Branca have been awarded to Singapore! Wheee! However, middle rocks were awarded to Malaysia. At least this 28 years row have been brought to a close. Thursday, May 22, 2008, 7:47:00 PM
Have been very busy lately with my Art Presentation on Sydney Harbour Bridge and completing the skeleton of my EOM. My mood have been on the extreme this whole week and I have been very lethargic. I am dreadfully tired and sick that I cannot even be bothered with what was going on, quite an uncommon sight of me. Just met up with Aunty Anna and her husband who are both from Australia. The coolest thing about them is that they sail around exploring the world on their boat which also serves as their home. It's pretty awesome isn't it to be sailing around, enjoying their lives on the oceans and exploring every corner of the earth. I would love to travel all around the world one day and see earth's wonders too, but it will definitely not through sailing. I am afraid of waters. Hahas. Alright thats all for now, I have to rush out my EOM. Will update more soon. Monday, May 19, 2008, 12:59:00 PM
I am waiting for my Mummy to bring me out. So while waiting for her, I decided to write this post. It has been such a long time since I last went out with her. Its either I am too busy with other stuff, or I am too lazy to go out. What a bad daughter I am! Hahas. Last Friday, I took my GP paper. Paper 1 was alright, I wrote on "Appreciation of Arts has been hindered by the need of economic success, to what extent do I agree to this." Which I disagreed to a large extent. The comprehension was the killer paper. It gave me headaches. The questions were very difficult to understand and guess I screwed up my AQ again. I was so tired from all the thinking that after the paper I was so stoned. In the evening we had sports day and the student councillors have to do some stupid crowd controlling duties. We were suppose to take their EZ link card as long as they walk off from the stadium making us look like some idiots. We got scolded from fellow students, some showed us their really unhappy faces and one of the teacher just cannot stop complaining about our poor work. AH. It is not as if we, student councillors have any choices and would we have nothing better to do and start collecting ez link cards. 1 hour into the duty, I just gave up. Changed into my PE shirt, sat down with Raihanni and BFF to watch the events. At least things got better later that night. My weekends were boring, so I shall not blog anything on it. As you know from my previous post, plenty of stuff have been going through my mind lately. I woud love to share it out, but I am still unable to put everything into words. :( Shall share a sad love story with you all and hopefully you will learn something from the story. One fine day, an old couple around the age of 70, walks into a lawyer's office. Apparently, they are there to file a divorce. Lawyer was very puzzled, after having a chat with them, he got their story....This couple had been quarreling all their 40 over yrs of marriage nothing ever seems to go right. They hang on because of their children, afraid that it might affect their up-bringing. Now, all their children have already grown up, have their own family, there's nothing else the old couple have to worry about, all they wanted is to lead their own life free from all these years of unhappiness from their marriage, so both agree on a divorce.... Lawyer was having a hard time trying to get the papers done, because he felt that after 40 yrs of marriage at the age of 70, he couldnt understand why the old couple would still want a divorce.. While they were signing the papers, the wife told the husband.."I really love u, but i really cant carry on anymore, I'm sorry..""Its o.k, i understand.." said the husband. Lookin at this, the lawyer suggested a dinner together, just 3 of them,wife thought, why not, since they are still gonna be friends.. At the dining table, there was a silence of awkardness.The first dish was roasted chicken, immediately, the old man took the drumstick for the old lady.."take this, its your favourite.." Looking at this, the lawyer thought maybe theres still a chance, but the wife was frowning when she answer.."This is always the problem, you always think so highly of yourself, never thought about how I feel, dont you know that i hate drumsticks?" Little did she know that, over the years, the husband have been trying all ways to please her, little did she know that drumsticks was the husband's favourite. Little did he know that she never thought he understand her at all, little did he know that she hates drummsticks even though all he wants is the best for her. That night, both of them couldnt sleep, toss and turn, toss and turn...after hours, the old man couldnt take it anymore, he knows that he still loves her, and he cant carry on life without her, he wants her back, he wants to tell her, he is sorry, he wanted to tell her "i love you"... He picks up the phone, starting dialing her number....ringing never stops..he never stop dialing.... On the other side, she was sad, she couldn’t understand how come after all these years, he still doesnt understand her at all, she loves him a lot, but she just cant take it anymore....phone's ringing, she refuses to answer knowing that its him..."whats the point of talking now that its over...i have ask for it and now i wanna keep it this way, if not i will lose face.."she thought...still ringing...she have decided to pull out the cord... Little did she remember, he have heart problems... The next day, she received news that he had passed away...she rushed down to his apartment, saw his body, lying on the couch still holding on to the phone...he had a heart attack when he was still trying to get through her phone line.... As sad as she could be...she will have to clear his belongings...when she was looking thru the drawers, she saw this insurance policy, dated from the day they got married, with the beneficiary being her... And together in those file, there was this note... "To my dearest wife, by the time you're reading this, I'm sure I'm no longer around, I bought this policy for you, though the amount is only $100k, I hope it will be able to help me continue my promise that i have made when we got married, I might not be around anymore, I want this amount of money to continue taking care of you, just like the way I will if I could have live longer. I want you to know I will always be around, by your side... I love you" When you love someone, let them know. You never know what will happen the next minute. Learn to build a life together. Learn to love each other. For who they are and not what they are. After all isn't love all about loving an imperfect person perfectly. Sunday, May 18, 2008, 12:56:00 PM
We Were Given Two Hands To Hold Two Legs To Walk Two Eyes To See Two Ears To Listen But Why Only One Heart? Because The Other One Was Given To Someone For Us To Find. I have got so many things to blog about, yet I just cannot seem to put everything that had happened and whatever I am thinking into words. Maybe I will try harder later on. Hahas. Wednesday, May 14, 2008, 7:47:00 PM
Natural disasters have been raging the world, with the two main happenings- Cyclone Nargis in Myanmmar and the Earthquake in China. Just today, the news report that another Cyclone may be forming over Myanmmar and this could mean another wave of catastrophe that will add onto the already badly damaged country. Still the governement only chooses to accept donations of supplies from abroad but refuses to allow foreign experts to oversee the complicated relief effort needed and not only that, it has tightened access to cyclone zones delaying aid workers progress. Just because the government is suspicious of the outside world. 2 million hungry lives that are prone to the widespread of diseases are at stake! Already they are too late in terms of response and yet they are still so stubborn to accept foreign aid. Can't they just put their stubborness aside and save the lives of the people first. Where is their priority! These people need food, water, shelter and medical attention, which are insufficient and not in their reach. Now, with another cyclone forming, I seriously cannot imagine how much more devastating the effect will be. Dear Lord, you have to watch over the people over there. Please give them hope as they lay their faith in you. As the deathtoll keeps increasing in China, at least there was immediate rescue efforts, which is very critical especially for the first 72hours after the earthquake strikes. Hopefully the transportation system and conditions will improve soon, so that foreign rescue and search experts could be deployed. If only I was superwomen, I would fly around the world, saving the lives of people. Too bad, I am only a student, limited to the things I could help. It is common knowledge that natural disaster will bring about disastrous effects, but it is selfishness that makes these effects escalates. It is a paradox that people who have the power to save lives, just don't. Afterall this is the selfish world we are living in, where only "me, myself and I" exists to them. After seeing all these disasters happening around the world, I just lost my ambition to be an urban planner. I just want to be an humanitarian helper now. I want to help people and save lives. I don't want to just sit here, do nothing and watch people suffering in pain. I want to make a difference. Tuesday, May 13, 2008, 9:12:00 PM
I fell down today! It was so hilarous, that I just couldn't stop laughing amidst the pain. It all happened while I was playing touch rugby during P.E, we got to like turn one round outside the white line before entering the playing field, it was like a square. Then, while I was turning at the edge, I apparently lost my footing and slide down with the ball in my hand. It was like a scene of a touch down on the wrong side of the winning line. Hahas. Guess I am getting accustom to the falling routine which is part of my interesting unlucky life. However, there's a slight graze on my right knee which hurts whenever I take a bath. Hopefully, my falling routine won't happen during the novelty race, otherwise I sure paiseh. Hahas. Will leave you with another story to read. The Mexican Fisherman The American investment banker was at the pier of a small coastal Mexican village when a small boat with just one fisherman docked. Inside the small boat were several large yellow fin tuna. The American complimented the Mexican on the quality of his fish and asked how long it took to catch them. The Mexican replied, "Only a little while." The American then asked, "Why didn't you stay out longer and catch more fish?" The Mexican said, "With this I have more than enough to support my family's needs." The American then asked, "But what do you do with the rest of your time?" The Mexican fisherman said, "I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, take siesta with my wife, Maria, stroll into the village each evening where I sip wine and play guitar with my amigos, I have a full and busy life." The American scoffed, "I am a Harvard MBA and could help you. You should spend more time fishing; and with the proceeds, buy a bigger boat: With the proceeds from the bigger boat you could buy several boats. Eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling your catch to a middleman you would sell directly to the processor; eventually opening your own cannery. You would control the product, processing and distribution. You would need to leave this small coastal fishing village and move to Mexico City, then Los Angeles and eventually New York where you will run your ever- expanding enterprise." The Mexican fisherman asked, "But, how long will this all take?" To which the American replied, "15 to 20 years." "But what then?" asked the Mexican. The American laughed and said that's the best part. "When the time is right you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the public and become very rich, you would make millions." "Millions?...Then what?" The American said, "Then you would retire. Move to a small coastal fishing village where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take siesta with your wife, stroll to the village in the evenings where you could sip wine and play your guitar with your amigos." Sometimes in life, all we need are just the little things to make the most out of our lifes. (:Goodnights. Monday, May 12, 2008, 10:30:00 PM
I did something unexpected today like PIERCING MY EAR. Don't know why I did it, I have always believed that one pair of earholes is enough and I would never want any more than that, but that is until today. Thanks to the influence of my younger sister and the persuasion from QY. But I love it; just that it will be abit problematic now as a sudent councillor stuck with all the school rules and code of conduct. Went shopping today, bought a bag, earrings, face powder, and a small soft toy. The moment I laid my eyes onto the soft toy,I just have to get it. Firstly it was yellow in colour! (My fav color) Secondly it has this smiley face on it. (which is what I need to cheer me up) and on its shirt there's a phrase " Don't worry, Be happy!" Hahas. But of course the main reason why I got it wasn't because of me, it was because of who I was reminded of... Hais. Shall leave you with a story to read. The park bench, author unknown The park bench was deserted as I sat down to read beneath the long, straggly branches of an old willow tree. Disillusioned by life with good reason to frown, for the world was intent on dragging me down. And if that weren't enough to ruin my day, A young boy out of breath approached me, all tired from play. He stood right before me with his head tilted down and said with great excitement, "Look what I found!" In his hand was a flower, and what a pitiful sight, with it's petals all worn, not enough rain, or to little light. Wanting him to take his dead flower and go off to play, I faked a small smile and then shifted away. But instead of retreating he sat next to my side and placed the flower to his nose and declared with overacted surprise, "It sure smells pretty and it's beautiful, too. That's why I picked it; here it's for you." The weed before me was dying or dead. Not vibrant of colors, orange, yellow or red. But I knew I must take it, or he might never leave. So I reached for the flower, and replied, "Just what I need." But instead of him placing the flower in my hand, he held it mid-air without reason or plan. It was then that I noticed for the very first time that weed-toting boy could not see: he was blind. I heard my voice quiver, tears shone like the sun as I thanked him for picking the very best one. You're welcome, he smiled, and then ran off to play, unaware of the impact he'd had on my day. I sat there and wondered how he managed to see a self-pitying woman beneath an old willow tree. How did he know of my self-indulged plight? Perhaps from his heart, he'd been blessed with true sight. Through the eyes of a blind child, at last I could see the problem was not with the world; the problem was me. And for all of those times I myself had been blind, I vowed to see the beauty in life, and appreciate every second that's mine. And then I held that wilted flower up to my nose and breathed in the fragrance of a beautiful rose. And smiled as I watched that young boy, another weed in his hand about to change the life of an unsuspecting old man. Saturday, May 10, 2008, 10:00:00 PM
I have only one word to describe today's Institute day happenings- Sucks. I cannot stand the way my life is going right now. I seem to have lost my direction in everything. I have to do something about it, or else I will become crazy. I cannot even help myself anymore, and still I have to help others. When will all these just stop. I really wish time will just stop right now and just let me catch up. Yet, no matter how hard I try, I just keep falling behind. I lost the smiles on my face. I lost the positive side of me. I lost myself. I really don't know what to do anymore. I am so lost that I can't find my way back anymore. I just wish somebody could just understand. I just wish somebody out there could just encourage me to keep moving on and put on a smile on my face. But, my tears just keep falling... Friday, May 9, 2008, 9:25:00 PM
Was busy with plenty of things today. Volunteered to help collect the relief funds from classes, had I-day rehearsal that totally confused the already blur me and now have to rush our group GPP in by tonight. Just now Mr Ng, told me that I was very pale and had to take care of myself lest I fall sick. Through to his words, I think I am falling sick. With all the little sleep I am getting and stuffing myself with so much chocolates( which I don't even know why, cause I dislike choc), I'm so going to fall ill very soon. Hais, I am very tired, shall blog anymore today. Bye. Thursday, May 8, 2008, 9:54:00 PM
My home's wireless modem is fixed! I played tennis today with Fandy. Hahas. Even though it was only for a short one period, it definitely did lift my spirits up and at least I was able to laugh today. I am still very sad though. I am afraid of what is going to happen soon. But, I can't always hide, I have to face up to it and be strong right. If only it was easy... I finally decided on what I want to draw for my A level art coursework. I am going to do on different perspective in life, while contrasting the local and african context. Hopefully, my "smiles of hope" will turn out beautifully. The Carpenter An elderly carpenter was ready to retire. He told his employer/contractor of his plans to leave the house building business and live a more leisurely life with his wife enjoying his extended family. He would miss the paycheck, but he needed to retire. They could get by. The contractor was sorry to see his good worker go and asked if he could build just one more house as a personal favor. The carpenter said yes, but in time it was easy to see that his heart was not in his work. He resorted to shoddy workmanship and used inferior materials. It was an unfortunateway to end his career. When the carpenter finished his work and the builder came to inspect the house, the contractor handed the front-door key to the carpenter. "This is your house," he said, "my gift to you." What a shock! What a shame! If he had only known he was building his own house, he would have done it all so differently. Now he had to live in the home he had built none too well. So it is with us. We build our lives in a distracted way, reacting rather than acting, willing to put up less than the best. At important points we do not give the job our best effort. Then with a shock we look at the situation we have created and find that we are now living in the house we have built. If we had realized, we would have done it differently. Think of yourself as the carpenter. Think about your house. Each day you hammer a nail, place a board, or erect a wall. Build wisely. It is the only life you will ever build. Even if you live it for only one day more, that day deserves to be lived graciously and with dignity. The plaque on the wall says, "Life is a do-it-yourself project." Who could say it more clearly? Your life today is the result of your attitudes and choices in the past. Your life tomorrow will be the result of your attitudes and the choices you make today. Wednesday, May 7, 2008, 7:52:00 PM
My life is in a mess, especially for my studies. I cannot concentrate in all my classes cause I am too tired to do so. Mrs Wee has been asking me what happened to my economics and stuff. Much as I would love to answer that I don't know what she has been teaching since day one and I would really want to go back studying economics with my dear classmates. Yet, it is partly my fault too. I have not even started revising for economics at all. I have to start putting in effort. Just today, I got shouted at for not completing my geofiles homework. But it was finished last friday and handed in already. I hate people accusing me before clarifying things and whats more to shout at me in class. Wth. This totally spoilt my mood for the whole day. Now I have another 5 more to complete today. Geofiles are totally haunting me. I don't know why even I choose to go China instead of Japan. Regreting my decisions? Maybe? I don't even know if I will even enjoy this trip. Well, I guess we'll just have to wait and see. Hais. For once I am going to declare myself sad. Sometimes in life, it is really that difficult to smile, be happy and pretend that everything will just be fine. I used to think like this, but I'm wrong. I am so tired with all my problems, all the confusing thoughts and whatever stuff that is affecting me. I just wished everything was back to where it was before. I want to let all these rubbish go. I just want to be back to that carefree me, living life just for myself, making decisions just for myself, to do what I really want to do and most importantly to just be myself. I want to be happy again. :'( Hais, I need advices. Sunday, May 4, 2008, 7:39:00 PM
I'm going to smile and make you think I am happy, I'm going to laugh, so you don't see me cry, I'm going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me, I am going to smile! Spent the whole of last night outside at Bedok Mcdonalds. Was supposedly to be a studying date with darwina, but I didn't even touch a single subject at all. At least darwy fared much better than me. This is the first time, I am out the whole night with my friends without a consent form! I really enjoyed myself. Caught the first bus home and slept all the way till 2.30pm. Hahas. I just don't feel like staying at home last night. Everytime I am home, I start thinking and my heart starts hurting and I will end up all in tears again. At least when I am out, I will divert my attention to other things. But I am feeling so much better today. Hehes. Hais, the overseas trips decisions are totally driving me crazy! Don't understand why can't I be firm with my own decisions, even though I have already choosen the trip. AHH. Friday, May 2, 2008, 9:59:00 PM
Took of my bandage a few moments ago and I was greeted by my swollen arm. The sight is so terrible, my tears fell with the first look. It looked worst than before and my bones are aching badly. I still cannot bend my arm. It is painful. My heart is hurting badly too. :'( Some Food for thought: TO LET GO: Does not mean to stop caring, it means you can't do it for someone else. Does not mean to cut yourself off, it is the realization that you can't do it for someone else. Does not mean to care for, it means to care about. Does not mean to fix, it means to be supportive. Does not mean to change another, it means to make the most of yourself. Does not mean to deny, it means to accept. Does not mean to nag or scold, it means to listen. Does not mean to regret the past, it is to live for the future. It means that we should admit we are frequently powerless and that someone else's outcome may not be in our hands. Thursday, May 1, 2008, 9:19:00 PM
I dislocated my arm again! This always seems to happen during a public holiday. The last time I dislocated my arm was on christmas and in less than half a year it happened again. Just my luck. Hahas. Went to see the physician just now and it got worst! The last time I went, all the physician did was to twist it back to place and it was fine again. Today, another physician did it for me and god knows if she is experience. She twist my hand, did acupunture in which she pierce the needles on my arm like nobody business, clipped my arms with something which is terribly painful and she press/flatten my arm continuosly so hard that it would seriously just break. I was crying and groaning in pain inside the room. Hais! Just my luck again. Hahas. Just now on my way to the clinic, I saw someone that looks exactly like him, walking outside my house. His looks, the way he dressed it was like an exact replica. At that moment I could really convinced myself it is him. However, how could that be? He is so far away in the United States, how could he be back in Singapore and he is not even a Singaporean to start with. That stranger I saw can't be him. I am missing him again, but life have to move on. (: Words of wisdom: I've learned that ...... I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts. I've learned that you can get by on charm for about 15 minutes. After that, you'd better know something. I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do. I've learned that it's not what happens to people that's important. It's what they do about it.I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides. I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be. I've learned that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think. I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't. I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you. I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place. I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice. I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it. I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score. I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time. I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up. I've learned that I'm getting more and more like my grandma, and I'm kinda happy about it. I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel. I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love. I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated. I've learned that you should never tell a child her dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if she believed it. I've learned that your family won't always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't biological. I've learned that no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief. I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. I've learned that sometimes when my friends fight, I'm forced to choose sides even when I don't want to. I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do. I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions. I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change. I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever. I've learned that the clothes I like best are the ones with the most holes in them. I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different. I've learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process. I've learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love. I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves, get farther in life. I've learned that many things can be powered by the mind, the trick is self-control. I've learned that no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar, you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most. I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you. I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help. I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.I've learned that the paradigm we live in is not all that is offered to us. I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being. I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I've learned that although the word "love" can have many different meaning, it loses value when overly used. I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe. |
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