Hais, I cant sleep. My mind is filled with things I keep thinking about. Whether shoud i do this... or that... or blah and blah...
Tomorrow I have a meeting with friends all the way to lakeside, and I am still here awake. I'm in a state of confusion now. I really wish I could say out my problems, but I find it hard to express myself, thats the big problem with me. I always keep things to myself. Hais.
I notice one thing, the harder you try to make your life better, the worst it becomes, thats for my case then. I have been trying and trying, yet my life keeps crumbling down. HOPE dont exists anymore. I dont have faith and confidence in myself anymore. I try so hard to love myself, my life! Why? Why does it only get worst. Did I not try hard enough? But do you know theres a limit to ones tolerance to life.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tomorrow I have a meeting with friends all the way to lakeside, and I am still here awake. I'm in a state of confusion now. I really wish I could say out my problems, but I find it hard to express myself, thats the big problem with me. I always keep things to myself. Hais.
I notice one thing, the harder you try to make your life better, the worst it becomes, thats for my case then. I have been trying and trying, yet my life keeps crumbling down. HOPE dont exists anymore. I dont have faith and confidence in myself anymore. I try so hard to love myself, my life! Why? Why does it only get worst. Did I not try hard enough? But do you know theres a limit to ones tolerance to life.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!