Dear Readers,
I had to drag myself out of bed today for school. The first 3 period was ART, and it was charcoal drawing. The 2nd time, I ever use a charcoal to do my art piece. The first was a picture of a greek mythologic character, which was difficult to draw, thankfully, Nellie change it to a sketching of a stool. Oh well, had a tough time sketching and I had to redraw over and over again.
Sometimes I wonder, why is it that I feel proud over my art piece and yet Nellie just keep saying its out of proportion, blah and blah... Am I not trying hard enough? Or Is her expectations just simply too high?
Anyways, that 3 period of Art lesson, left me bad mood and feverish the whole day. Oh yes, I have fallen sick yet again. Guess it was due to my tiredness. I have a geog test tomorrow, and I have not yet prepare for it finish. Up till now, I only know, whats mass movement and explaining the slow movements such as soil creep and solifluction. There are still much more to go and I havent even touch on the mitigation part yet. I better speed things up.
I realise, next week is the deadline for so many projects, such as Economics and ART. Later I have to find time and cut down the econs question A. Hopefully time will allow me to do so. Hehes.
I am in the mood of typing today, and theres so many reasons why I want to do so. I guess I want to get away from all my troubles inside me, my moodiness and I thing the main reason of all is Im buying time so as to not start on my geog studying. Lazy me.
Have something interesting over here for you all to have a look:
Double click on it to be enlarge.
I am represented by the Cypress tree( the faithfulness): Strong, muscluar(???), adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesnt necessarily like it. Strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed( this I definitely do agree).
This is so true about my character and Me. Except well, for the muscular part. Guess, its for guys with that birthday. Hahas. But other than that, that sums up my character. Especially "needs to be needed."
Oh well, that will be my topic today then.
Anyone who is close to me, will understand why is it so for me. I believe in one thing and that is Assurance. I love praises too, as it encourages me to do better. But not too much praises where a person becomes arrogant. Its just my character that needs myself to be needed. So that I know I am important. Even though, I am already important. Ahahas. Its difficult for me to trust and even so, for myself. When I am needed, I feel the assurance of myself, this, blame it on my confidence. After years of growing, the confidence inside me, just grows smaller and smaller. This I guess my expectation for myself is too high, and also me having to meet the expectation of what others have given me.
Days in MI are becoming stressful. I did regret coming to MI at first, thinking why I didnt stick to my course in SP. Now, everytime I think about this, The first question that will always come into my mind is Does that mean in SP, you will not be stress as you are now? Hahas. Looking from all my friends in polytechnic, they seems to be more stress than I am, I am grateful to be in MI.
Recently, I have been looking back into the past again. How carefree we were during our childhood days. The older we grow, the more the stress adds on. I never did bother to study for Mid year in the past, and I didnt mind if I get a fail, but know, things are different. It has become a must for me to study, and a B is never enough.
Theres a post which I once written( Sunday, June 17) on how we have to slower down our pace, as we are moving too fast to even have the time to appreciate ourself and the smallest things in the world.
Yet, I realise, once I slow down, I am unable to catch up. Hais. What am I suppose to do? Life is just that difficult, especially in Singapore, and us, the future stressful generation. I dont even know why am I working so hard for.
Am I a urban person or a countryside person? I am a countryside person, in that kind of environment, life is not so messy, and things are being appreciated. I am tired of all the paper chase. I just want to live life simple, and to the fullest.
I had to drag myself out of bed today for school. The first 3 period was ART, and it was charcoal drawing. The 2nd time, I ever use a charcoal to do my art piece. The first was a picture of a greek mythologic character, which was difficult to draw, thankfully, Nellie change it to a sketching of a stool. Oh well, had a tough time sketching and I had to redraw over and over again.
Sometimes I wonder, why is it that I feel proud over my art piece and yet Nellie just keep saying its out of proportion, blah and blah... Am I not trying hard enough? Or Is her expectations just simply too high?
Anyways, that 3 period of Art lesson, left me bad mood and feverish the whole day. Oh yes, I have fallen sick yet again. Guess it was due to my tiredness. I have a geog test tomorrow, and I have not yet prepare for it finish. Up till now, I only know, whats mass movement and explaining the slow movements such as soil creep and solifluction. There are still much more to go and I havent even touch on the mitigation part yet. I better speed things up.
I realise, next week is the deadline for so many projects, such as Economics and ART. Later I have to find time and cut down the econs question A. Hopefully time will allow me to do so. Hehes.
I am in the mood of typing today, and theres so many reasons why I want to do so. I guess I want to get away from all my troubles inside me, my moodiness and I thing the main reason of all is Im buying time so as to not start on my geog studying. Lazy me.
Have something interesting over here for you all to have a look:
Double click on it to be enlarge.
I am represented by the Cypress tree( the faithfulness): Strong, muscluar(???), adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesnt necessarily like it. Strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed( this I definitely do agree).
This is so true about my character and Me. Except well, for the muscular part. Guess, its for guys with that birthday. Hahas. But other than that, that sums up my character. Especially "needs to be needed."
Oh well, that will be my topic today then.
Anyone who is close to me, will understand why is it so for me. I believe in one thing and that is Assurance. I love praises too, as it encourages me to do better. But not too much praises where a person becomes arrogant. Its just my character that needs myself to be needed. So that I know I am important. Even though, I am already important. Ahahas. Its difficult for me to trust and even so, for myself. When I am needed, I feel the assurance of myself, this, blame it on my confidence. After years of growing, the confidence inside me, just grows smaller and smaller. This I guess my expectation for myself is too high, and also me having to meet the expectation of what others have given me.
Days in MI are becoming stressful. I did regret coming to MI at first, thinking why I didnt stick to my course in SP. Now, everytime I think about this, The first question that will always come into my mind is Does that mean in SP, you will not be stress as you are now? Hahas. Looking from all my friends in polytechnic, they seems to be more stress than I am, I am grateful to be in MI.
Recently, I have been looking back into the past again. How carefree we were during our childhood days. The older we grow, the more the stress adds on. I never did bother to study for Mid year in the past, and I didnt mind if I get a fail, but know, things are different. It has become a must for me to study, and a B is never enough.
Theres a post which I once written( Sunday, June 17) on how we have to slower down our pace, as we are moving too fast to even have the time to appreciate ourself and the smallest things in the world.
Yet, I realise, once I slow down, I am unable to catch up. Hais. What am I suppose to do? Life is just that difficult, especially in Singapore, and us, the future stressful generation. I dont even know why am I working so hard for.
Am I a urban person or a countryside person? I am a countryside person, in that kind of environment, life is not so messy, and things are being appreciated. I am tired of all the paper chase. I just want to live life simple, and to the fullest.
