Dear Readers,
As I write this post, tears are falling.
Family fights are common, but given the stubborness, unrespectful characters of my sisters, and the childish, bad temper parents I have, fights are worst than common. Though I am just an on-looker, seeing how this fight has escalates from the tantrums valerie threw during dinner.
I feel messed up inside me, so tired, so wanting someone I could share my sorrow with, a shoulder to cry on, yet, I realised I had none. I just want someone to understand how I feel, more importantly that someone to be my parents and my sister.
I tried talking to my sisters, yet would could I, as an elder sister get from my disrespectful sisters of mine? How many times have I tired to talk, yet, get SHOUTED at. Sometimes, being the eldest, I feel lousy. I am the eldest sister, yet, I am shout at.
The fight escalated till the point where my dad started screaming at Clarice for the slightest thing, and then they start quarrelling, over a thiny thing. If I had not intercepted, I wonder what the consequences would be right now.
Yes, they do get hurt from all the quarrelling and fighting, I care, thats why I feel hurt, feel sad, but do they know I am hurt. I needed someone so much to talk to, till I am right here pouring out everything.
My math, no matter how hard I try, how many times I practise those sums again I will always be lousy in it!
Why is it that no matter how hard I try, nothing will seems right.
I feel so depressed. Yet, who can understand.
She's smiling, is she happy? She looks happy, but it doesn't matter, let me tell you something not everything is as it seems.
Can anyone even understand this?
Let me tell you then, my smiles are the most precious to me.
Why? Because I smile only when my heart is most hurt.
As I write this post, tears are falling.
Family fights are common, but given the stubborness, unrespectful characters of my sisters, and the childish, bad temper parents I have, fights are worst than common. Though I am just an on-looker, seeing how this fight has escalates from the tantrums valerie threw during dinner.
I feel messed up inside me, so tired, so wanting someone I could share my sorrow with, a shoulder to cry on, yet, I realised I had none. I just want someone to understand how I feel, more importantly that someone to be my parents and my sister.
I tried talking to my sisters, yet would could I, as an elder sister get from my disrespectful sisters of mine? How many times have I tired to talk, yet, get SHOUTED at. Sometimes, being the eldest, I feel lousy. I am the eldest sister, yet, I am shout at.
The fight escalated till the point where my dad started screaming at Clarice for the slightest thing, and then they start quarrelling, over a thiny thing. If I had not intercepted, I wonder what the consequences would be right now.
Yes, they do get hurt from all the quarrelling and fighting, I care, thats why I feel hurt, feel sad, but do they know I am hurt. I needed someone so much to talk to, till I am right here pouring out everything.
My math, no matter how hard I try, how many times I practise those sums again I will always be lousy in it!
Why is it that no matter how hard I try, nothing will seems right.
I feel so depressed. Yet, who can understand.
She's smiling, is she happy? She looks happy, but it doesn't matter, let me tell you something not everything is as it seems.
Can anyone even understand this?
Let me tell you then, my smiles are the most precious to me.
Why? Because I smile only when my heart is most hurt.
