Dear darlings,
I was moody today and is undergoing a terrible headache. I guess, this is what everyone calls it, STRESS. Neither in my life, nor studying for O levels, have I ever experience stress before. Stress is a common word everyone hears before an examination, but to be able to actually experience it is difficult. Maybe, me being worried about the promos, my grades, squeezing all my studies made me able to experience it.
Today, I reflected on how I have been living my life for these past few weeks. I have definitely been studying hard and playing really hard, however, I dont balance it, therefore its pointless.
The stress inside of me can be described as painful, sometimes to the point where I am driving myself to the corner and feeling so depressed. The stress put on you by others is more painful then what you put on yourself. Teachers' expectations, my parents expectations, my expectations and most importantly maintaining my mid year grades, or even better.
Its only a few chapters of each subject and I am feeling so stress, what about A levels? I dont have the confidence in me of passing my subjects as of I had during the Mid year examinations. In fact, I feel afraid of the exams, even though I know I am able to pass. Seeing everyone studying so uptight makes me feel I am lagging behind. My math is hopeless at this point of time, and whatever negative thoughts I think of at this point in time adds up to my unwanted worries.
Because of all these its making my emotions unstable, which is really serious for me, cause doctor had advised me not to, as I get affected by all these so easily.
I should seriously start to begin having faith, building up my confidence and believing in myself. Sometimes, enough is enough. I have forgotten one belief that I have in the midst of studying, and I am thankful I am remind of today. "Never be afraid of failures, because I've tried." With all these efforts I put in, no matter if I ever reach my 2A's and 1B goal, I did tried, disappointed I will be, but One failure doesnt mean a whole life offailures.
From today onwards, I will not be stress and pressured anymore, I shall believe in myself! I know I can and I will, with smiles it will accompany me through these 2 weeks. (:
I was moody today and is undergoing a terrible headache. I guess, this is what everyone calls it, STRESS. Neither in my life, nor studying for O levels, have I ever experience stress before. Stress is a common word everyone hears before an examination, but to be able to actually experience it is difficult. Maybe, me being worried about the promos, my grades, squeezing all my studies made me able to experience it.
Today, I reflected on how I have been living my life for these past few weeks. I have definitely been studying hard and playing really hard, however, I dont balance it, therefore its pointless.
The stress inside of me can be described as painful, sometimes to the point where I am driving myself to the corner and feeling so depressed. The stress put on you by others is more painful then what you put on yourself. Teachers' expectations, my parents expectations, my expectations and most importantly maintaining my mid year grades, or even better.
Its only a few chapters of each subject and I am feeling so stress, what about A levels? I dont have the confidence in me of passing my subjects as of I had during the Mid year examinations. In fact, I feel afraid of the exams, even though I know I am able to pass. Seeing everyone studying so uptight makes me feel I am lagging behind. My math is hopeless at this point of time, and whatever negative thoughts I think of at this point in time adds up to my unwanted worries.
Because of all these its making my emotions unstable, which is really serious for me, cause doctor had advised me not to, as I get affected by all these so easily.
I should seriously start to begin having faith, building up my confidence and believing in myself. Sometimes, enough is enough. I have forgotten one belief that I have in the midst of studying, and I am thankful I am remind of today. "Never be afraid of failures, because I've tried." With all these efforts I put in, no matter if I ever reach my 2A's and 1B goal, I did tried, disappointed I will be, but One failure doesnt mean a whole life of
From today onwards, I will not be stress and pressured anymore, I shall believe in myself! I know I can and I will, with smiles it will accompany me through these 2 weeks. (:
