Dear darlings,
First time in my life have I ever rejected someone. Second time in my life that I have been stuck in relationship problems. ALWAYS it happens before my paper, GEOGRAPHY.
WHY DOES LOVE HAVE TO MAKE A FOOL OUT OF ME?!? Maybe the phrase "Love comes when we least expect it" do really exist.
When I want it to come, it doesnt. When I needed somebody by my side, no one was there for me. When I decided enough was enough, I just wanted to be alone, to live my life independently, to focus more on my studies, LOVE KEEPS KNOCKING ON MY DOOR!
Dont you find this feeling freaking irritating, fustrating, making your mind go twirling round and round and for a person like me not wanting to hurt anyone, just have to do that.
I just needed is one person, not so many. Maybe I should just snip off my hair and see how many will just love me for who I am and not for my looks! Call me CRAZY if you must, this is how much LOVE is to me.
I am spoilt for choices! I want a guy who I can shower lots of love to. A guy who is worthy of my love. A guy who will love me more than anything else in this world, for I know I will also love him more than myself. A guy who understands me. Is that one guy that difficult to get. Maybe he is in my line of choices, just that I refuse to take a second look, for I know that one person in my heart already.
Why cant I just admit to myself, to reality that I love him. This is clearly what my heart tells me. Why isit so hard to just love him secretly, why are there so many things stopping me from loving him. Maybe because, fate dont want me to wait in pain any longer.
Being single is great, unlike being attached, i get chances of being woo-ed by guys, them paying attention to me, showering their 'like' for me. Yet what I am looking for is just not 'like' its love. A never-ending love. For the next person I ever be with, I never will ever want to stop loving him. Because I know, once I start, my love for him will never end.
Till then, I will just sort things out with my heart. The past, the present and the future?
First time in my life have I ever rejected someone. Second time in my life that I have been stuck in relationship problems. ALWAYS it happens before my paper, GEOGRAPHY.
WHY DOES LOVE HAVE TO MAKE A FOOL OUT OF ME?!? Maybe the phrase "Love comes when we least expect it" do really exist.
When I want it to come, it doesnt. When I needed somebody by my side, no one was there for me. When I decided enough was enough, I just wanted to be alone, to live my life independently, to focus more on my studies, LOVE KEEPS KNOCKING ON MY DOOR!
Dont you find this feeling freaking irritating, fustrating, making your mind go twirling round and round and for a person like me not wanting to hurt anyone, just have to do that.
I just needed is one person, not so many. Maybe I should just snip off my hair and see how many will just love me for who I am and not for my looks! Call me CRAZY if you must, this is how much LOVE is to me.
I am spoilt for choices! I want a guy who I can shower lots of love to. A guy who is worthy of my love. A guy who will love me more than anything else in this world, for I know I will also love him more than myself. A guy who understands me. Is that one guy that difficult to get. Maybe he is in my line of choices, just that I refuse to take a second look, for I know that one person in my heart already.
Why cant I just admit to myself, to reality that I love him. This is clearly what my heart tells me. Why isit so hard to just love him secretly, why are there so many things stopping me from loving him. Maybe because, fate dont want me to wait in pain any longer.
Being single is great, unlike being attached, i get chances of being woo-ed by guys, them paying attention to me, showering their 'like' for me. Yet what I am looking for is just not 'like' its love. A never-ending love. For the next person I ever be with, I never will ever want to stop loving him. Because I know, once I start, my love for him will never end.
Till then, I will just sort things out with my heart. The past, the present and the future?