Moving on, I just came back from SEL camp 2 days ago. The camp went well for me. Remembering those days before the camp when I was troubled with so many stuffs and pessimistic thoughts. Thinking back makes me sound so silly. Hahas.

The camp was FUN! I made plenty of friends, though up till now I still have trouble remembering their names. I tried many new things such as blindfold rock climbing and what more I never even tried rock climbing before in my whole life much less doing it blindfolded. I am so proud of myself that I never give up the climb and even reach to the top.

Also I experience building our own raft as a group with 6 pipes, 4 barrels, plenty of strings and a whole lot of method to tie them together. Not only that, the raft have to be stable so as to we are able to float on the water. Though some problems occurred with the raft, but it still succeed and we even won a mini rafting competition. Hahas.

Then it was Canoeing, this is one thing I will never ever try again. Though everything went extremely well and I have to thank Zhi Wei for helping me out, but still I hate canoeing. I had difficulty breathing with the so called life vest clutching so tightly on me. Whats more the waves were so strong as it was raining and high tide that I was having headaches and felt sea sick. It was horrible, I feel like I could vomit anytime. But thankfully I didnt and I was so glad to be able be on land again. I never want to suffer such a horrible ordeal ever again. But I am glad that I was able to experience canoeing at least once in my entire life.

There were also plenty of interesting activities such as treasure hunting, sandcastle building, the forum discussion and etc... It was a wonderful experience for me. An experience where I was afraid to face as everything was new for me. Now I am proudly say "I tried, and I did it!" All these has improved me to a whole new level, even though I was quiet during camp.

Now I want to talk about other @$&%*$ stuffs: WARNING, read it only if you're prepared. It contains NASTY languages and it might even leave a bad impression.

FIRSTLY, during the whole of this time I felt SUPER IRRITATED by an IDIOT! I didnt want to be so bad, but there comes a time when enough is enough and that time is NOW!

SECONDLY, I hate people patting my head, touching my shoulders and stuff! Not only that I have told you I dont like it and especially from a guy! And isnt it FREAKING OBVIOUS that I am not at least interested in talking to you at all. Just how DUMB can you get HUH!

THIRDLY, to ANOTHER IDIOT, STOP going around asking people to play with you some STUPID GAME just to test their trust for you! HELLO! TRUST HAS TO BE EARNED and not by playing some stupid GAME! You are seriously not a MAN! GET ALIVE WILL YA! ONLY a stupid person will be so stupid and dumb enough to listen to you! I was such a nice person to reject you so nicely, but I was wrong! Sometimes being NICE doesnt pay at all and the same goes to my sisters which I will mention later. Now I am going to say I am NOT at least INTERESTED in you, and You are definitely NOT worth my love!

Lastly, being seriously nice to my 3 sisters doesnt pay at all! The ONE BIG MISTAKE I ever did make was to be NICE and TOLERANT, thats why so many problems happens. You dont give me the respect, I shall not give you any too! A tit for a tat! Its so sad that even when you are in the wrong, you just dont admit it. Oh well, know what people, I GIVE UP!

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I am so angry, this are the words I want to shout it out to these people! I regretted me being a nice girl all these while wanting not to hurt anyone feelings, cause I understand the feeling of being hurt! But yet, people just dont understand do they! People will just take things for granted and the assumption of HUMANS WANTS ARE UNLIMITED are true, arent they.

I feel so troubled, I feel so hurt inside me, I want someone to understand how I feel! Yet why is there NONE! Why is it that I cant share my trouble with anyone. Why am I not good with words at all! But thank you darwina for helping me out with my sister problems. My life is just much more complicated than all these. And the problem why anyone cant understand me or even dont know me is because I hide my problems to myself, I dont know how to share. How I just wish I can just forget everything and move on. But I cant.

Just who can ever understand my feelings, when I dont let anyone understand it.

Lastly I am not at all interested in love, keep that in mind. Now isnt the right time to deal with that, so please dont have the wrong mindset because of my previous post. And I am attached to myself.