I am very fustrated, angry, or what-so-ever you want to describe it! I don't give it a damn!
I don't feel like going school tomorrow, or even the day after next. I want to run away from reality. I don't know how to face it anymore. Thanks Sabrina and Shaqirah for listening and trying to understand me. I am tired of playing the roles for others. I just want to be myself. Don't I at least deserve that! I may be nice, but I have an attitude too. I may be forgiving, but my tolerance has a limit too. Stop playing games with me! Please stop making use of me!
All I ever ask for, is just to be happy, is that too much to ask for. Is all my struggles to just be happy, to make my life better all useless? Then tell me lord, I will stop trying and live with it as it is.
I need reassurance, I need encouragment, I need a shoulder to cry on, I need someone to listen to my cries. I want someone to care. I want someone to understand me, but give me time to open up myself.
You know me as a girl who is trying very hard to face up to her life and make the best out of it. You know me as a girl who will still smile even though life sucks big time! But do you know that as much as I want to be happy, I am the one giving myself all the pressure, I am the one pulling myself back. I don't have any confidence in myself. I don't trust myself. Surprising huh?
I am very afraid.