There was so many things happening yesterday, and in the end, I flared up. I had a good talk with Sabrina and Fathi after that. At least I have gotten rid some of my bottled-up troubles and felt much better ater the talk. It is kind of true that one will feel so much more better just talking out one's problems to someone. The sad thing is I am not the kind of girl, who can just easily share my problems with anyone, even my close friends.
I am struggling hard to keep myself happy, really trying very hard. It is just reality that for every one happy moment, there will be 10 sad moments. I don't want to accept reality this way, be it 10 sad moments or a hundred sad moments I have to go through, I want to face it with happiness. It is definitely going to be hard, I am not sure how to do so yet, but as long as I try, at least I will know something good may come out of it.
I will continue updating my blog later on. I have to meet Darwina for the fireworks festival. Didn't catch it yesterday, and after contempleting for so long, I finally decided to go for today's. I am not sure, if I will be able to enjoy the firework displays with my current mood. Hopefully I would.