* Will post the photos up at a later time.
The last 2 days, was the happiest and most en joyable days I had after such a long time. On friday, it was the school celebration for NDP. The best part of being a student councilor is when everyone comes together for once in unity and have a hell lot of fun together. The singing session will always be kept as a precious memory to me. On that very day itself, met up with few friends and caught the movies- "Love Guru" and "Money Not Enough". It has been such a long time since I last went to the cinema, really missed watching movies alot. The two movies were quite contrasting. One is very funny while the other was so touching that I cried and made a promise to myself- I will never treat my parents or my parents-in-law like how they were treated like in the movie.
Yesterday, woke up very early, edited my group's written report draft and submitted it in. At least there is one heavy load off my mind for the moment now. In the evening met up with friends to catch the NDP fireworks at the Padang. The aerial display was stunning. As for the fireworks display it is as always so breathtaking and beautiful. The post-concert after the parade was entertaining. I have not enjoyed myself so much in such a long time. Yesterday, I was happy.
From the last 2 days, I realised, life is a give and take situation. The lesser I have, the happier I am. To be happy, I have to let go everything and just enjoy life as it is.
For such a long time:
1) I haven't stop to watch the rain fall.
2) I haven't stop to smell the fresh air.
3) I haven't stop to look up the skies and admire the fluffy clouds.
4) I haven't stop to see how the trees sway.
5) I haven't stop to hear the wind blowing.
6) I haven't stop to observe people around me.
7) I haven't stop to tell myself, Life is indeed beautiful.
8) Most importantly, I haven't stop and be happy, even if it were only to last just for that one moment in time.
I have done all this eight things in that last 2 days. I laughed and smiled with no pretention at all. I enjoyed my life to my fullest. Even if, it was to last only for that 2 days, I have loved my life so much more and pursued so much more than I will ever have on other days.
Today, I cried twice. The first reason was because of my parents. It hurt so much to hear, when I am here putting in so much effort in studying for exams and they tell me I am lying. They always put me down. To them, I am just like a sore in their eyes. No matter how hard I try, I am never that perfect daughter in their eyes.
I have never wanted to take an A level. All I ever wanted was just a diploma certificate. I have gotten my choice of poly course, but I changed my mind for an A level route. Why?
The answer I told everyone is because my poly course is an arts course and I cannot see myself doing art for my whole life. Or some of you may know, I took the A level course to pursue my geography dreams. I do love studying geography, but I am also contented just with finding any job and living life to the simplest but happiest.
The reason why I came to MI, is because that is the only way I can work hard and try to obtain a scholarship to study overseas. This wasn't for me, it was neither my dream to study overseas, it was for Hoang. I don't need any high qualifications in life, I don't need any material gains, I don't need to live the best life, I can give up my dreams.
What I want in life is beyond all this. It is something money can never buy. I just want to be happy in the purest form. I want to love and be loved. Life is made up of love, care, concern, encouragements and hopes, not the paper chase or the rat race.
However, 2 weeks into MI, I broke up with Hoang. I lost my main purpose. The only reason why I am holdng on right now is because, I want to make my parents proud. I want to be the first girl in the Wong family to have a university education and beyond. It is very difficult to live my life for others and not myself. My parents don't know the reason why I am in MI, they all think its because of my geography dreams. Until today, I have never tell anyone anything about my life and my thoughts so truthfully before. I really wish, one day my parents will understand me, instead of putting me down.
Ecouragement, is the most beautiful thing I can ever recieve from anyone. All the more I wish it is from my family.
The second reason that I cried was because of Hafiz. I can never win you in your reasoning and talking, cause we have different thinking. You are my committee leader, I respect you for that. As my leader, you can ask me to do whatever shit you want me to do, but please be at least be reasonable, if not understanding. Promotional exams are just 2 weeks away and you are asking me to clean up the senate on wednesday. Is that so important than studies that you have to do it now and not after the exams? I can help, but everytime I helped, I end up wasting my time doing nothing at all. Isn't this the same as it was on that wednesday you asked me to help, and ended up with you guys having meeting and I sitting at the SAC stoning.
You say it is unfair for everyone, cause everyone is equally busy. I agree with you, it is unfair. Thats why I asked for a switch with Herry. I don't want to be bad and put the burden on everyone else. It is not nice and I feel very bad about it myself. But, you 'threatened' me by saying if I do this, you will give up your leadership position. Why put me in such a position?
You know what hurts so much, it is because you are more than just a leader to me, you are my friend! It's alright if you don't at least understand anything about me, but you are making me feel very very bad. Must you put me in the spot. Do friends do this? At least I know friends don't threaten one another. You know, I wouldn't change committee if in the end I am the fault that you give up your leadership position.
Because of all this,
I really regret being a student councilor.
People, tell me what should I do?
The last 2 days, was the happiest and most en joyable days I had after such a long time. On friday, it was the school celebration for NDP. The best part of being a student councilor is when everyone comes together for once in unity and have a hell lot of fun together. The singing session will always be kept as a precious memory to me. On that very day itself, met up with few friends and caught the movies- "Love Guru" and "Money Not Enough". It has been such a long time since I last went to the cinema, really missed watching movies alot. The two movies were quite contrasting. One is very funny while the other was so touching that I cried and made a promise to myself- I will never treat my parents or my parents-in-law like how they were treated like in the movie.
Yesterday, woke up very early, edited my group's written report draft and submitted it in. At least there is one heavy load off my mind for the moment now. In the evening met up with friends to catch the NDP fireworks at the Padang. The aerial display was stunning. As for the fireworks display it is as always so breathtaking and beautiful. The post-concert after the parade was entertaining. I have not enjoyed myself so much in such a long time. Yesterday, I was happy.
From the last 2 days, I realised, life is a give and take situation. The lesser I have, the happier I am. To be happy, I have to let go everything and just enjoy life as it is.
For such a long time:
1) I haven't stop to watch the rain fall.
2) I haven't stop to smell the fresh air.
3) I haven't stop to look up the skies and admire the fluffy clouds.
4) I haven't stop to see how the trees sway.
5) I haven't stop to hear the wind blowing.
6) I haven't stop to observe people around me.
7) I haven't stop to tell myself, Life is indeed beautiful.
8) Most importantly, I haven't stop and be happy, even if it were only to last just for that one moment in time.
I have done all this eight things in that last 2 days. I laughed and smiled with no pretention at all. I enjoyed my life to my fullest. Even if, it was to last only for that 2 days, I have loved my life so much more and pursued so much more than I will ever have on other days.
Today, I cried twice. The first reason was because of my parents. It hurt so much to hear, when I am here putting in so much effort in studying for exams and they tell me I am lying. They always put me down. To them, I am just like a sore in their eyes. No matter how hard I try, I am never that perfect daughter in their eyes.
I have never wanted to take an A level. All I ever wanted was just a diploma certificate. I have gotten my choice of poly course, but I changed my mind for an A level route. Why?
The answer I told everyone is because my poly course is an arts course and I cannot see myself doing art for my whole life. Or some of you may know, I took the A level course to pursue my geography dreams. I do love studying geography, but I am also contented just with finding any job and living life to the simplest but happiest.
The reason why I came to MI, is because that is the only way I can work hard and try to obtain a scholarship to study overseas. This wasn't for me, it was neither my dream to study overseas, it was for Hoang. I don't need any high qualifications in life, I don't need any material gains, I don't need to live the best life, I can give up my dreams.
What I want in life is beyond all this. It is something money can never buy. I just want to be happy in the purest form. I want to love and be loved. Life is made up of love, care, concern, encouragements and hopes, not the paper chase or the rat race.
However, 2 weeks into MI, I broke up with Hoang. I lost my main purpose. The only reason why I am holdng on right now is because, I want to make my parents proud. I want to be the first girl in the Wong family to have a university education and beyond. It is very difficult to live my life for others and not myself. My parents don't know the reason why I am in MI, they all think its because of my geography dreams. Until today, I have never tell anyone anything about my life and my thoughts so truthfully before. I really wish, one day my parents will understand me, instead of putting me down.
Ecouragement, is the most beautiful thing I can ever recieve from anyone. All the more I wish it is from my family.
The second reason that I cried was because of Hafiz. I can never win you in your reasoning and talking, cause we have different thinking. You are my committee leader, I respect you for that. As my leader, you can ask me to do whatever shit you want me to do, but please be at least be reasonable, if not understanding. Promotional exams are just 2 weeks away and you are asking me to clean up the senate on wednesday. Is that so important than studies that you have to do it now and not after the exams? I can help, but everytime I helped, I end up wasting my time doing nothing at all. Isn't this the same as it was on that wednesday you asked me to help, and ended up with you guys having meeting and I sitting at the SAC stoning.
You say it is unfair for everyone, cause everyone is equally busy. I agree with you, it is unfair. Thats why I asked for a switch with Herry. I don't want to be bad and put the burden on everyone else. It is not nice and I feel very bad about it myself. But, you 'threatened' me by saying if I do this, you will give up your leadership position. Why put me in such a position?
You know what hurts so much, it is because you are more than just a leader to me, you are my friend! It's alright if you don't at least understand anything about me, but you are making me feel very very bad. Must you put me in the spot. Do friends do this? At least I know friends don't threaten one another. You know, I wouldn't change committee if in the end I am the fault that you give up your leadership position.
Because of all this,
I really regret being a student councilor.
People, tell me what should I do?
