Nothing anymore.

It was just you and me.

There wasn't anymore reason.

Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very dark, but there were stars — points of light and reason.
And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.
Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty.
When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black.
Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.
I couldn't see the stars anymore.
And there was no more reason for anything.

- Edward Cullen to Bella.

Posting.

Friday, September 19, 2008, 11:46:00 PM

Friday
I was suppose to be very happy that I finally finished my last paper- Art. But, I ended up having to help out the art teachers with the PU3 A level coursework set up. Was so tired from the little sleep I had from the day before, that I couldn't stop complaining about it. It was very last minute, but what to do, it is mandatory and there is even marks for it. Muneera, Sabrina and I went around painting quite a number of black walls black. We first started out doing it nicely, but as time goes by and as our boredom sets in, getting the job done ASAP was our goal. Towards the end we didn't even bother to lay the floor with newspaper and just started painting hysterically. Last day of my exam and I reached home only at 3.30pm.

Woke up very late today. Went to the Games Convention Asia and Vivo City with a friend. It has been such a long time since I last went out and had fun. At the GCA, I learnt how to make ironman fly and had experience playing some other games too.

At Vivo City, went to Pet safari and bought a ball for Audrey. She loves balls. I also had an enjoyable time playing at the arcade and shopping at Daiso. Saw a really smiley broom over there. How I wish my life was like the smiley broom.

After Daiso, we went to page one and went searching for my "Sense and Sensibility". However, there wasn't any stock left except for the one in the 'complete series of Jane Austen book'. And I bought that book. Instead of having just one story now, I have all of Jane Austen's books. Oh well, at least I can also get to read the complete version of "Pride and Prejudice" which I love so much.

I have been reflecting on my life lately. My life has definitely changed alot, as well as those around me. For my character, I am no longer as patient as I used to be before. Patience has never been a part of me. Just that in the past, I was trying to tolerate and just learn. Therefore when my level of tolerance fell, the patience also went away.

My trust for others still remains unchange. It is still very difficult for me to trust anyone, but at least I had managed to give it to one or two.

I told myself today, if I am the only one putting in the effort for anything, then so be it. I really cannot be bothered anymore. I am just going to do whatever I should be doing. If no one really cares, what more can I do? Life still goes on, what needs to be done still has to be done. It does not mean I shall not give it a damn too. All the more I should put in even more effort and give more care to it, even if it means I am alone.

As for the rest, I will just keep quiet and in my heart silently pray that hopefully one day sense will knock them awake.

Welcome to the new me. Love it or not, it is not for you to judge.

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