I was very moody, listless and hot tempered throughout today. Not a side of Grace you get to see any other day. Oral presentation was great today. After spending every night reciting my speech to my sister and recording it, I at least get to see some improvements. I also managed to answer the Q & A relatively fine. If only the question asked during the actual day would be that of this. I better pray hard.
Everything was fine, until something made me very pissed and upset. The weired thing is I am not pissed at that thing, but at myself for being so nice. While taking the train home, even with my earphones on, I could hear them discussing it. With my mood already in a bad state and with this thing going on, I was almost close to tears. But I hold it back; I'm a strong girl ain't I? Tolerated everything until I reached home, locked myself in my room and cried my heart out.
At least I feel so much more better and lighter after crying. I managed to knock some sense into myself too. I must not have any negative energy, I must be strong, confident and believe in myself and the whole group.
This whole week have been shit for me. But since I have already got so far, I shouldn't stop now. Sometimes I am proud of myself to be able to face up to reality and make decisions. It makes my life so much more meaningful.
My knee cap is aching again. It must have been the soya milk I drank yesterday again. My knee also goes crazy everytime after I drink soya milk. Hais.
Meet up with Sabrina just now. Went to her house to see her baby sister. Her baby sister is so tiny and very beautiful. Then, sat at the void deck and studied with Sabrina. I practiced math!! Hahas. Shared with Sabby plenty of my problems too.
Now, I am as happy as the usual me again. :D
Everything was fine, until something made me very pissed and upset. The weired thing is I am not pissed at that thing, but at myself for being so nice. While taking the train home, even with my earphones on, I could hear them discussing it. With my mood already in a bad state and with this thing going on, I was almost close to tears. But I hold it back; I'm a strong girl ain't I? Tolerated everything until I reached home, locked myself in my room and cried my heart out.
At least I feel so much more better and lighter after crying. I managed to knock some sense into myself too. I must not have any negative energy, I must be strong, confident and believe in myself and the whole group.
This whole week have been shit for me. But since I have already got so far, I shouldn't stop now. Sometimes I am proud of myself to be able to face up to reality and make decisions. It makes my life so much more meaningful.
My knee cap is aching again. It must have been the soya milk I drank yesterday again. My knee also goes crazy everytime after I drink soya milk. Hais.
Meet up with Sabrina just now. Went to her house to see her baby sister. Her baby sister is so tiny and very beautiful. Then, sat at the void deck and studied with Sabrina. I practiced math!! Hahas. Shared with Sabby plenty of my problems too.
Now, I am as happy as the usual me again. :D